Timeless Tuesday…Back

Timeless Tuesday…Back

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

We haven’t explore a timeless moment in a while so I thought it would be nice to make a new memory. Today I am going to spend most of my time with my sister. I gave two of them necklaces that shows their position within my heart. It wasn’t much, but I like for them to know how much I care.

We are great when we are together. We laugh, sing, dance, and share stories of our past. We also talk about where we are heading for the future. We speak on politics, love, friendship, and relationships. We remember our parents whether its a good or bad memory, but we always show them love. We respect one another by remembering we all lost both parents and not just one of us. I remember our oldest brother for everyone since they were quite young when we loss him. We pay homage to the ancestor and their struggle to provide, shelter, and survive. We live by the code we all we got. We eat together and then play together. Yes, I know we’re up in age but that doesn’t stop us from being children at heart and showing our children a great time. We reminisce on the birth of the children we can remember and welcome the new ones we had no idea were coming or exist.

There is conflict within our circle but for that moment we put it aside so that everyone can enjoy being a family. We can be hateful when everyone has depart and back to their own lives, but in that moment in time, it is timeless and we cherish it like it is our last. We capture it because we don’t plan the next one, somehow it just happens. I guess its the ancestors telling we need a get together because from nowhere we emerge and from within we come together as one. The joy we have at those moment will never tell the story of what is really going on within our family and shall never tell the story to outsiders. Its not fake its just we can’t help but love one another as a whole, because together we all we need, and separately we all have. Family is all we have to look forward to and in a crisis it is all we want.

No matter what our bond is unbreakable and many have tried but all have failed. It is the same way for the rest of my family, especially my brothers, don’t mess with us because we are one when we have to be and greater when we need to be. We may not have much but we do have one another, there is nothing I desire to have more than my FAMILY. They are my TIMELESS LOVE. So no matter what is going on in your family be proud, honored, and blessed to have them for they are your heartbeat, air, thoughts, and most importantly, your DNA. Enjoy them while you have them.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

What Women Think Occasionally #3

What Women Think Occasionally #3

Goddess Morning Royals, sorry for the delay in finishing the story but I had a weekend please believe me.

Friday, no transportation to anywhere and Lord know I don’t like asking anyone for a ride so cab, hack and Uber it was.  Had so many errands to run and got them all accomplished, money well spent.

Saturday, cooked and cleaned, washed clothes and everything so I can dedicate my time today to my writing.  Putting my house back together after some well deserved maintenance/renovations needed.  Most of it was accomplished but still have more to do.  

This morning I am blogging because I feel as though I owe it to you all to finish out the story.

So our couple is on the floor of their home after another sexual attack from his wife who continues to fantasize about her stranger.  Well this time there was touching, laughing and grind involve.  As she sat beside her husband she wanted to tell him that she sexually desire another man but she knew it would break him and leave him with insecure thoughts of her.  She said nothing and continued on with her quality time with him. When they were done they both got up and headed upstairs to shower and rest for the night.  He knew it was something he needed to talk to her about but couldn’t remember what it was.

They showered together and then off to bed they both went.  They spooned into a deep slumber.  When morning rose and he woke from sleeping she wasn’t in the bed with him.  She wasn’t even in the house.  He thought she may have had an emergency and didn’t want to wake him.  She was in the wind and without any type of note or anything.  He didn’t allow it to bother him it wasn’t the first time and he knew it wouldn’t be the last.  She did however make him breakfast to eat and made him coffee to drink.  She always did when she had to be out before he woke.

She had boarded a plane to Italy for business and didn’t have time to explain to him nor wake him.  He knew her business was everything to her.  Upon her arrival she called home to let her husband know where she was and her possible return.  He was happy to hear from her and told her he got the fort.  They told one another how much the love each other and to stay safe and out of trouble.  They hung up and when she looked up she was at the hotel.  She checked in called her office for the person she is meeting again and all the details on what it is that she is requesting.  Once she received the information again she studied her notes.  She knew that this client was important as all her clients but this one asked for her personally so she knew she had to get his contract without fail.

Her appointment with her client was at 11 am and she wouldn’t be late.  She was meeting her at the grand suite in the hotel in which she was staying.  She gathered her A game and headed up to the top floor.  She heard the helicopter land on the roof.  Okay this one has a lot of money obviously so get the account and make your money girl.  She spoke to herself.  The concierge let her into the suite and offered her something to drink.  Dominique will be right with you.

She sat down and waited her arrival and when the doors opened.

Last encounter

It was Dominique the stranger that she was fantacizing about.  She knew she was in trouble because she couldn’t run to her husband and release the sexual desire or tension.  She smiled, I didn’t know your name was Dominique.  I also didn’t know you were going to be my client.  How you didn’t know my name was Dominique I told you last night at the bar.  I wasn’t really paying attention like I should have been.   Now that I have your undivided attention maybe I can get you to help me with my business as well as answer my question you left so fast on last night.  She started sweating, her legs buckled, her knees locked and her face blushed.  In her thoughts she knew she definitely was in a world of trouble. She tried to stay focus and do the job she was called there to do but she wasn’t sure which job he was really after.

She sat back down and squeaked out, well.  Clearing her thought, well I can offer you, I mean my company can offer you a great return on all investments we push through for you at all cause.  We just don’t put your money anywhere we put it where it is coming to have a positive payout for your.  We invest to continue to make you more money and build your wealth  as we as your portfolio.  He smiled, that’s great to know show me some sound investments and then give me a pen to sign.  I believe in you and know that you can do all you say you can do.  She grin, knowing her pussy was getting wet by the minute.  She excused herself and went to the restroom for relief.  Hold yourself together and get those thoughts of sex out of your head.  Stay in the game and stay focus.  It took her a minute to pull it together but she got herself back on track and reentered the room.

When she returned he was shirtless and she almost passed out.  She was weak in the flesh and wanted to have him.  He said, where do I sign?  She gave him and pen and showed him where to sign and afterwards he handed her a drink for a toast.  When the glasses touch so did she.  He stepped back and told her don’t make that move if she wasn’t ready for the outcome.  She stepped forward and touched again.  He drawled her in close, kissing her full lips.  The sparks flew and the magic started.  He went down on her and her mind went blank and she didn’t remember she had a husband.  All she could think about was how good this made her feel.  She wanted more but first she had to showcase her skills as well.  She in return went down on him.  He never had a woman who could take all of him oral or otherwise.  He knew he would catch feelings for her if she made him cum so he pulled her off to give her real pleasure.  As he inserted his massive penis she moaned.  She wasn’t sure if she would be able to handle it all but as he continued to push she continued to take.  When he was all the way in her hips started to sway and her juices started to flow.  He was shocked and they both tried to out do one another.  When the fight was over and all the pleasure was released they looked at each other with such lust but knew it wasn’t going to happen again.  They both had to win and they knew sexually it would work but otherwise they both are too damn competitive.  Beside she then remembered she had a husband.

She jumped up and rushed out of the room down to her floor and into her room.  She douche and cleaned herself up well.  Taking the morning after pill and faxing over his signed contract.  She knew she could never tell her husband about this, it would destroy their marriage and lives.  She now had more skeletons in her closet than she wanted but had pleasure upon her soul that she desired.

This encounter she would always remember but had to live with the guilt and shame of stepping outside of her marriage to get it.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

I Heard The Village Cry

Goddess Morning Royals.

First, Praise THE LORD for allowing the surgery to go as well as it did for my daughter yesterday and blessing my daughter will continuous life.  Thank him for the blessing the surgeon and keeping him and his mind, body and soul in great spirits.  Bless the staff at the hospital for taking such good care of her.  Thank you Lord, thank you!

Welcome to life and love this Saturday morning.  I’m going to start a small women’s group to assist with life in general.  We will deal with issues of our children, love, life and finances.  We will build on positivity and work on entrepreneurship.  We will start small hopefully and grow into a movement of women empowering other women.

I am calling it #TheVillageCry.  We have to do something because our children, and young fathers are leaving our families to fast and very frequently.  They are ending up dead or in jail, which to me is like been wounded and no one is there to care for them.  I am starting it in a few weeks so I am making plans now this day.  I’m making T-shirts and pamphlets as we speak.  I can no longer standby and watch the destruction of our youth, which is our future.  I am looking for a space to rent until I am able to purchase a permanent space.  This movement is of the Lords because he is the one that sent it to me.  Look for it coming soon.

THE MESSAGE

As I sat down on the steps of my home tired from my day, I could hear weeping.

It was mild but still I could hear it.

At times it would get so loud I could barely think.

I got up from my steps in search of its location

I thought it sounded like it was coming from the West of me.

So, I traveled West.  No, I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I return to my home, and the weeping start to form from the East.

So, I traveled East.  No, I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I returned to my home, and the weeping started to come from the South of me.

So, I traveled South. Still I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I returned to my home, and the weeping started again but now North of me.

So, I traveled North. I did not find it, but it was strong in that direction this I swear by.

Then I returned to my home.  The weeping never stopped but got louder at times.

It sounded like a mother, then again it sounds like a father, either way I wanted to know who was crying.

Then a scream hit me like a ton of bricks almost knocking me to my feet it was harsh.

That’s when it became clear and the sound was now just a steady cry, Why Lord?! Why?!

I had no idea where it was coming from, so I felt to my knees and started to pray with the cry.

Dear Lord

Hear our cry for we are hurting and suffering and asking why.

We want the pain to stop but aren’t sure how but we need for it to stop and now.

We just want to live in peace and walk with joy, for happiness is our goal and love is the mission.

We want to watch our children grow and nourish into families as you have planned, but the Devil is diverting your plans.

Lord we are on our hands and knees asking for your mercy.

Spare your children from the pain and suffering.

Cover them in the blood and protect them from harm.

We have suffered enough and plea on the blood for redemption and mercy.

Stop the violence that plague our communities and the loss that haunt the mother’s and father’s soul.

Provide them with strength and guide them with love so they will have the knowledge they seek to help stop the young children from self-destruction.

Be the foundation for the village needs you and cry out for you in ways that makes the heart bleed.

See the blood shed for we know it is too much, whether it is rap, murder, shootings, stabbings, or vehicular.

Know we understand and is calling on you Lord for guidance, for we are no more.

In the holy name we pray AMEN.

When I rose, I was told to bring the people together and create a new Village and so I am.

Welcome to the Village.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Unappreciated or Disrespected

Unappreciated or Disrespected

Goddess Morning Royals

I have several conversations with several family members over the years and it always come back to the same shit.  When doing something for someone, in return they feel unappreciated or disrespected.  I too use to feel this way but I had to let that part of me go and for these reasons.

  1. Am I doing this for this person for clout?
  2. Am I doing this to get something out of it?
  3. Am I doing this to be respected by this person?
  4. Am I doing this for me?

Asking myself these questions lead me to these answers

  1. No, what clout has to do with anything.  If I am always the helper what clout am I building on to get back.
  2. No, because I am a good person and can do something without needing something in return.
  3. No, if they didn’t respect me before I did what I did they damn sure isn’t going to do so afterwards.
  4. No, what am I getting out of the deal if no respect is attached to it, nothing is going to come back in return and it’s not like I am getting recognition for it.

I do things for people because I am generally a good person, but I am also not stupid.  If I believe or see that you are going to dog me or continue to want from to just to use me.  I will say no to things you may very well need and not just want.

I say all this because I see people’s hearts get broken because they did something for someone they cared for, loved, or just felt bad for, but their was an alternative motive behind their assistance.

  1. If I do this for you, you are going to owe me one.
  2. If I do this then when you get this you give me that.
  3. If I do this for you go have to go out with me.
  4. If I do this you and I are dating.
  5. If I do this for you, you have to do something special for me.
  6. If I do this for you, I’m going to need it back immediately.

Now let evaluate the “if” factor.

  • If the could give one back to you they wouldn’t ask you for one? Correct!  If that was they case then they could have just held out to get that one themselves.
  • If they get something and you want it and they don’t give it to you?  Do you have a fit or just take what you believe to be rightfully your?
  • If they wanted to go out with you I don’t think you would have to do them a favor first.  They would have liked you enough to just go out with you but that isn’t the case now is it.
  • If they wanted to date you they would have shown interest in you and not the favor they are asking of you.  They would have just use all of them to get all of what you offer, but they didn’t just asked for a favor.
  • Now come on, if they wanted to do something special for you they would have but they didn’t, but just asked you to do something for them.
  • If they could pay you back immediately, they would just wait it out but obviously they can’t pay you back immediately.

When you alternative motive is to get something back and they didn’t express that they were giving you something but what you gave them then I think you are the one who is disrespectful.  Stop looking for something in return!  When God see you gave from the heart he will be the only one giving you something back and ten fold.  If you are going to be a blessing to someone just be that blessing to them and stop looking for things in return.  God is your blessing and he knows that all your promises is going to come with fault, but that doesn’t stop him from giving.  Does it! NO, he gives without really getting anything in return.  All he ask is that you stay true to him and yourself.  I don’t think that is much to ask of you.  So the next time you are ask or in divine favor of someone else, please don’t allow an alternative motive to be behind it because it may not end in your favor at all.  If you can be appreciative of what God gives you then allow other to be appreciative of what God is allow you to give to them.  That mean you are blessed enough to give and divine enough to receive greater for your blessing.

Don’t feel unappreciated because they aren’t able to give back what you were able to give to them.  Just know that God saw it and that your greater blessing or equal blessing is on the way.  Don’t feel disrespected when you feel unappreciated because you gave without wanting anything in return in the beginning.  It is only when you have an alternative motive behind it, is when you feel disrespected and unappreciated.  Learn from your blessings and move on.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Standing in ?

Goddess Morning Royals.

Have you ever given someone your all and in return got nothing back?  Have you?

Well I have thought that they were the one at fault for not giving me their all.  I felt like they didn’t love me or that they were just bad for my well-being.  I argued and fussed until I couldn’t do it no more.  They cheated and so did I, thinking two wrong made it right but it didn’t.  They lied and so did I, thinking what good for them is better for me, it wasn’t.  I prayed for better days but they only got worse.  When they did I blamed God for my misery.  I even stop going to church just because I thought he turned his back on me.  All this was wrong and I had to find myself in order to believe in Love, Life, Happiness, Joy, and most important God.

No one can give you something that is already embedded in you.  If you love yourself who care if no one else does.  If you are happy with yourself who care if other aren’t happy around you.  I had to stop allow others misery into my life and making itself comfortable.  I have to realize that my joy was within me and that no one else could bring me something I had to release myself.  I had to realize that God didn’t want those relationships to develop because they will only cause me exactly what I was praying to get better, more misery.  I had to understand that I hold the key to my happiness because I loved me enough to enjoy me, care for me, live for me, and no other can live my life for me.  I have to be my everything because others proved that they were my nothing.  I was losing sleep, weight and out on life because I stood still waiting for someone else to assist me in getting through life.  Please don’t get me wrong, I had made time for the wrong people and I couldn’t see it because I allow myself to believe it was true love when in fact it was a failing lust of attraction or want of belonging.

Now that I am being sorted and pursued by someone who may be the one, I am so not sure how to allow someone in my life again.  I gave so much of myself to the wrong person that I am afraid to give of me to the right person.  This is a broken record for most of us but for me it is a rotating wheel of embarrassment.  I know I shouldn’t be embarrassed because it is just life and we all must experience the bad in order to make it through the good.  Lessons have taught me how to weather a storm and prepare for battle when it is my turn to fight.  It also taught me how to humble myself and know when the battle isn’t mine to fight. The roads that I have traveled is road that I don’t regret but ones that I know not to travel again.  I may have been down a few streets that lead to dead ends and saw the sign but ignored it because I figured there was a way out somehow, but had to end up turning myself around and driving back down the same street sign that told me it was a dead-end in the beginning.

All I am saying is that the signs be there and we ignore them to satisfy our own needs but then when the roads get too rough we want to point fingers but how and why.  We are the ones that ignored the signs in the beginning.  If only we took the time and paid, respect and ahead to the signs in the beginning we would have reason to say things like, “My mother told me it would be days like this.”  “I should have seen this coming from a mile away.”  “I knew you wasn’t any good from the beginning but.”  “I wish I had listened to myself when my conscience told me not to do it.”  or my favorite of all “Why Lord, why!”

Well I can just imagine him saying “I told you so.  I sent you all the signs that you ignored so I had to allow you to take this mission on your own and come around when you really wanted to listen to me.  Now my child you are in timeout until I give you the right person.”  Still we try our hands and ignore him because we are so afraid of growing old without someone.  In fact as long as he continue to provide us with breathe that we are never to old to find true love.  But we are human with faults and will continue to do it our way until we are fed up, then we want to sit down and listen, because at this point we are tired of the bull and can’t take it no more.

Well this is me right now, but still I love in fear of getting hurt.  I won’t allow myself to get close to anyone anymore because I am afraid of the pain I have already experienced.  So what I have done is put that out there and told the person that I am not into casual anything.  If you are sure this is where you want to be, just be patient with me and ride along until we are where we both need to be.  Our wants can hurt us but our needs won’t.  He agreed and so we are on this journey together.  Thank you for listen to my stand because I am still sitting still but with a slight movement when the Lord allow me to.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Wicked Wednesday

Goddess Morning Royals.

So I know it is hump day but I want to weigh on topics on my mind.

First, people and their lies. I mean come on if you know you are lying then just don’t say anything.  I witness this shit every day.  Motherfuckers don’t know how not to lie once someone believe in their first lie.  I just want people to learn to live in their truth.  I’m saying if you are married then be married, don’t be unhappily married and looking.  Stop playing games with other’s intelligence, hearts and lives.  This is how people are dying every day.  The world is made up of people who are looking for real love and willing to kill and die for the right person.  When they feel as though you are the right person but you are holding onto your married significant other and the shit hits the fan.  Lord have mercy.  Why make life that much difficult for you, your significant other, and the third-party.  This side business isn’t a joke and I witnessed it destroy people lives.  So please learn to live in your truth before someone isn’t living at all.

Secondly, you sad sacks of shit who play on people’s hard-working money just to get high.  Now you know no one is for that bull shit.  If you want to get high then you should be able to buy not beg for money to get high.  If you cannot afford to pay for your highs then I suspect this is your time for recovery.  No one should be losing their lives because you have an addiction.  If you don’t go somewhere with that shit already!  Why is it that you are the one with the problem and everyone else around you have to pay for it?  The worst part of it all is when you say stupid shit like, “I can quit whenever I want to.”  but continue to do so and think everyone is against you.  No everyone is tired of paying out of the ass for your addiction.  You know what really turns my ass is when they go to rehabilitation and come back to doing the same exact thing.  Wow and with support that wants to keep them clean and healthy!

Third, money hungry people.  Okay everyone wants to make money and should but when you take advantage of others just to do so, I want to punch you in your face.  People who keeps other’s income and tell them they can’t live with them or come to their house.  Who in the hell does shit like this?  Or when they don’t have an income but live off someone else’s income and demand shit?  I know you are lying.  If you don’t get your ass a job or a career, hobby with benefits and get the fuck out of my face with that nonsense, I am going to clock you one good time.

Fourth, you cowards who just murder people for no reason, just to get street creds.  Now you know where is the morals and values for life that needs to be taught in the homes.  I’m not sure what happened and when the communication and value of life fell but I know it needs to be picked back up and fast.  Family members murdering one another over nothing or for stupid shit that could have easily be avoided.  This isn’t time change this is ignorance, stupidity, and blatant disregard for life.  Realize you are taking away someone’s child, love one, father, sister, daughter, son, grandmother, grandfather, and definitely someone’s future.  Carjacking, gang violence, illegal drugs, prescription drugs, money, mistaken identity, clothes, shoes, chains, watches, and just because doesn’t give you a reason or a cause to murder someone in cold blood.  Then like a coward run and hide.  The Lord sees everything so judgement will be handed down whether you believe it or not.

Last but not least, you miserable as people who hate everything about life.  You don’t want anyone to advance because you are afraid of advancements or you are stuck in life.  I’m sorry your feet is stuck in cement but I didn’t plant you there and I didn’t trap you in.  I will help you out but you are so angry with the world for your mistakes that you believe that everyone owe you something for nothing.  I mean you have done anything for yourself but expect someone to give you something.  My famous quote is “I can’t be your everything and you be your nothing!” by Kenya Spann.  That doesn’t make any sense at all.  You all need a hand up and all you want is a handout.  I’m sorry that isn’t going to happen.  I can offer you a hand up but a handout mean you are incapable of doing anything.  If you are capable of begging then you are capable of doing something with your life.

Finally, these child molesting, raping ass, they need to kill themselves, motherfuckers.  I can’t with none of them.  They all need to be hung by the balls and split from dick to throat.  I have no remorse for anyone being male or female who prey on children or the unsuspected.  They really should be killed on sight either in the act of violence or once proven guilty.  Nothing else to say about that.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Monday Madness

Goddess Morning Royals.

Well I am writing today on Timeless Tuesday about Monday because it was hectic.

I started my day like any other day but had to remember I am short a vehicle.  Well I got my day started anyway.  I am no stranger to walking or paying for a ride to place, but I forgot how much I hate waiting on other people.  I can’t be the only one.

I hate asking people for anything it is just who I am, but don’t mind giving people anything when they ask me.  Moving on, I asked a friend of mine to help with something and well he gave me the ok but then didn’t help at all. So I had to just eat it up and move right along.  Even though I was counting on that help it didn’t happen which made my day go a little slower than I expected.  Well so much for counting on people.  I ended up not getting all that I wanted to be accomplished done.  Anyway it will have to get done another day.  I know right why put off what you can do today, but today I am dedicating time to my daughter.  Therefore what ever I had to do yesterday will have to wait until tomorrow, we’ll see.

I never give any thought to ask people for help because I know how people are they only think about themselves.  So I take actions into my own hands and not allow myself to become bitter with other people because they didn’t see time in themselves to give to me.  I strap on my boats and tie my laces (figuratively) and do what I have to do.  I am my own motivation to get me through life.  If I waited on people to do things for me I would be waiting a life time for nothing to happen.  The sad part about it, is that it be the people you believe you can count on that does the most damage to you.  Don’t rely on savory characters to do honest actions that involves your life.  Find your strength and do it yourself, even if it take you a while to accomplish it, just take your time and do it yourself. Then it will be your choice to tell them no when they are in need of your time and cooperation.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove