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What Women Think Occasionally #3

What Women Think Occasionally #3

Goddess Morning Royals, sorry for the delay in finishing the story but I had a weekend please believe me.

Friday, no transportation to anywhere and Lord know I don’t like asking anyone for a ride so cab, hack and Uber it was.  Had so many errands to run and got them all accomplished, money well spent.

Saturday, cooked and cleaned, washed clothes and everything so I can dedicate my time today to my writing.  Putting my house back together after some well deserved maintenance/renovations needed.  Most of it was accomplished but still have more to do.  

This morning I am blogging because I feel as though I owe it to you all to finish out the story.

So our couple is on the floor of their home after another sexual attack from his wife who continues to fantasize about her stranger.  Well this time there was touching, laughing and grind involve.  As she sat beside her husband she wanted to tell him that she sexually desire another man but she knew it would break him and leave him with insecure thoughts of her.  She said nothing and continued on with her quality time with him. When they were done they both got up and headed upstairs to shower and rest for the night.  He knew it was something he needed to talk to her about but couldn’t remember what it was.

They showered together and then off to bed they both went.  They spooned into a deep slumber.  When morning rose and he woke from sleeping she wasn’t in the bed with him.  She wasn’t even in the house.  He thought she may have had an emergency and didn’t want to wake him.  She was in the wind and without any type of note or anything.  He didn’t allow it to bother him it wasn’t the first time and he knew it wouldn’t be the last.  She did however make him breakfast to eat and made him coffee to drink.  She always did when she had to be out before he woke.

She had boarded a plane to Italy for business and didn’t have time to explain to him nor wake him.  He knew her business was everything to her.  Upon her arrival she called home to let her husband know where she was and her possible return.  He was happy to hear from her and told her he got the fort.  They told one another how much the love each other and to stay safe and out of trouble.  They hung up and when she looked up she was at the hotel.  She checked in called her office for the person she is meeting again and all the details on what it is that she is requesting.  Once she received the information again she studied her notes.  She knew that this client was important as all her clients but this one asked for her personally so she knew she had to get his contract without fail.

Her appointment with her client was at 11 am and she wouldn’t be late.  She was meeting her at the grand suite in the hotel in which she was staying.  She gathered her A game and headed up to the top floor.  She heard the helicopter land on the roof.  Okay this one has a lot of money obviously so get the account and make your money girl.  She spoke to herself.  The concierge let her into the suite and offered her something to drink.  Dominique will be right with you.

She sat down and waited her arrival and when the doors opened.

Last encounter

It was Dominique the stranger that she was fantacizing about.  She knew she was in trouble because she couldn’t run to her husband and release the sexual desire or tension.  She smiled, I didn’t know your name was Dominique.  I also didn’t know you were going to be my client.  How you didn’t know my name was Dominique I told you last night at the bar.  I wasn’t really paying attention like I should have been.   Now that I have your undivided attention maybe I can get you to help me with my business as well as answer my question you left so fast on last night.  She started sweating, her legs buckled, her knees locked and her face blushed.  In her thoughts she knew she definitely was in a world of trouble. She tried to stay focus and do the job she was called there to do but she wasn’t sure which job he was really after.

She sat back down and squeaked out, well.  Clearing her thought, well I can offer you, I mean my company can offer you a great return on all investments we push through for you at all cause.  We just don’t put your money anywhere we put it where it is coming to have a positive payout for your.  We invest to continue to make you more money and build your wealth  as we as your portfolio.  He smiled, that’s great to know show me some sound investments and then give me a pen to sign.  I believe in you and know that you can do all you say you can do.  She grin, knowing her pussy was getting wet by the minute.  She excused herself and went to the restroom for relief.  Hold yourself together and get those thoughts of sex out of your head.  Stay in the game and stay focus.  It took her a minute to pull it together but she got herself back on track and reentered the room.

When she returned he was shirtless and she almost passed out.  She was weak in the flesh and wanted to have him.  He said, where do I sign?  She gave him and pen and showed him where to sign and afterwards he handed her a drink for a toast.  When the glasses touch so did she.  He stepped back and told her don’t make that move if she wasn’t ready for the outcome.  She stepped forward and touched again.  He drawled her in close, kissing her full lips.  The sparks flew and the magic started.  He went down on her and her mind went blank and she didn’t remember she had a husband.  All she could think about was how good this made her feel.  She wanted more but first she had to showcase her skills as well.  She in return went down on him.  He never had a woman who could take all of him oral or otherwise.  He knew he would catch feelings for her if she made him cum so he pulled her off to give her real pleasure.  As he inserted his massive penis she moaned.  She wasn’t sure if she would be able to handle it all but as he continued to push she continued to take.  When he was all the way in her hips started to sway and her juices started to flow.  He was shocked and they both tried to out do one another.  When the fight was over and all the pleasure was released they looked at each other with such lust but knew it wasn’t going to happen again.  They both had to win and they knew sexually it would work but otherwise they both are too damn competitive.  Beside she then remembered she had a husband.

She jumped up and rushed out of the room down to her floor and into her room.  She douche and cleaned herself up well.  Taking the morning after pill and faxing over his signed contract.  She knew she could never tell her husband about this, it would destroy their marriage and lives.  She now had more skeletons in her closet than she wanted but had pleasure upon her soul that she desired.

This encounter she would always remember but had to live with the guilt and shame of stepping outside of her marriage to get it.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Timeless Tuesday

Timeless Tuesday

Goddess Morning Royals

Well we are back with another Timeless Tuesday and all I can say is how thankful and grateful I am to have timeless moments to share with the people I love. I have always had someone to share in special moments with because I have an enormous family.  We may all get along but I get along with them all and some more than others.  See I love my family and pray they love me as well.  If not I can deal, but I still love them.  Every now and again I spend quality time with someone who wants me to be around, and we manage to always have a great time.

We all may not have a wonderful time as a whole but in parts it is just wonderful.  I understand that not all personalities can get along even though they are from the same tree.  I understand that not all the branch like to be bonded together by the bark of that tree but the leaves on tree can get along and sway in the wind together just fine.  Still I try my best to make every moment count and worth my attention and love.  I can only continue to pray for the day when we all can just get along and be the family in which the Lord have made.  That my friends will be the ultimate Timeless Tuesday that will warm my heart until the Lord calls me home.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Let’s Hump This Day

Goddess Morning Royals. Excerpts from the books “The Perfect Man” and “The Truth About Her”

“The Perfect Man”

You sleep as I stare. I lurk, crave your move, your look, your touch, your beat, your passion. Why must I want you so bad? Just a glance and I’m yours for the taken. I’ll be your private dancer if you’ll let me. Slowly I’ll grind and thrust for you. Don’t touch just watch. See how you make my hips sway from side to side. You make me drop it down ever so gentle for you. Grind back to the top. Watch me as I make it clap for you all the way to the floor. Wow, didn’t even know I could do that. Giggle just a little with this ass as I wiggle. Do you want to spank me?!

Now i shall take all these clothes of for you while you watch me. Oh baby did i wake you didn’t mean to just wanted to fantasize about you staring back at me while i make it wet for you. It doesn’t take much, it’s yours lover.

Look deeply into my eyes, hands soft in my back. Our bodies so in tune with each other they move like a note being played. not only do you capture my mind, you capture my body, and essence, love me uh!

“The Truth About Her”

I tear up just thing about you when I’m away from you I crave you, I want you, I have an orgasm, I fucked you, I suck you, I have an orgasm. Damn I love you!

The journey will blow your mind but the finding will stimulate your soul. Come explore. You’re welcome! My mind, body and soul is a terrible, but powerful tool any time of the day. So be careful where you tread for you may like where I take you. Just be ready for anything because anything might happen. I’m a wonder of great possibilities. Limitless and endless discoveries.

Side Bar: Working on these two books together is almost like living to different lives. I can’t wait until you all get the finished project of them both. I hope you all enjoy reading them as much as I enjoyed writing them.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Timeless Tuesday

Goddess Afternoon Royals

On this timeless Tuesday filled with rain and mayhem snuggle up with that someone who puts a smile on your heart.  When you heart can smile your soul is blessed.  Not many can say what a doubt that someone has made their heart smile.  For those who can never allow anyone to come in between that because it is rare when someone has touched your soul.  Most people only get to ruin and get close to you that they make you love them but never do they get to leave an impression on your soul.  Meaning no one can remove that person from you even if the vessel is remove from your presence their soul remains with you forever.

It that feeling when you feel the Lord presence in something that may seem horrible but then for no other reason but the Lord being present you smile and feel a sense of comfort.  If you never experienced this feeling don’t feel bad it just isn’t your time but before your days ends you will embrace such a feeling and take it with you forever and never let it go. It is the feeling when you see someone smile just before the die and wonder what brought joy to them at the last-minute of their life.  The soul smile and they knew everything will be alright for they have seen the future or the Lord himself.  The future wasn’t bad for you and they knew you will be alright because the Lord got you.

See the sun through the rain and enjoy it no matter what because it could always be worst than it is.  If you think it is at the worst for you or your family, call on the Lord or the soul that has been removed and allow them to answer.  If after you smile just know it is going to be alright, even if tears roll down your face as long as your heart smile it will be alright.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Broken Children

Goddess Morning Royals

This is really hurting my heart to see, hear and be a part of; children of broken families.

Why are innocent children the pulley system between parents?  Why must they be torn between mom and dad or mom’s side of the family and dad’s side of the family?  This is why they are unhealthy and discombobulated.  This is why they are uncertain of their status and who they can turn to when there is a crisis in their existence and they turn to the wrong people.

When mom and dad is beefing and there is turmoil in their hearts to one another in reference to their fail relationship, why are the children their leverage.  That is not why children exist! When the mother cannot get her way she turns to the government to hurt the father and when the father can’t get his way he uses his absence to hurt the mother.  When in fact the only person getting hurt in the whole situation is the child or children. When is this ever going to end?  It takes place the whole time the children are growing and make matters harder when the children are adults.  Why you ask?

When children grow to be adults and they lived through such hate they tend to think it is the way to get what you want and need for the child.  They tend to do exactly what was done to them to their children.  Thinking they were raised just fine and see no problem but there are a lot of hidden problems occurring and anger manifesting into stress and hatred.  Then health issues occur and they swear they have no idea where it comes from or label it “hereditary”, when indeed it is just something learned and taught.  Just like history bad habits repeats themselves over and over again until the cycle can be broken and if you aren’t one willing to break it then your children are just going to repeat history.  So when you are preparing to be a grandparent and praying for your grandchild to live a healthy normal life but didn’t give your children one nor did you have one, just expect for the child or those children not to have one as well.

Come on break the cycle.  Learn to love and live happily as a family even if it is separate.  Yeah I know he did you wrong and she isn’t no good, but do the children have to know that.  No they don’t.  All they ever have to know is that Mom and Dad loves them and show them every day.  Speak positivity where negativity manifest.  Speak encouragement when your heart is discouraged.  Speak truth where lies use to live and try to make a different life for your children so they will know only of love from Mom and Dad.  When they are in need they know that they can turn to Mom and Dad not the unknown.  Later that turmoil can be your worst enemy and manifest inward and your children end up hating just themselves and no other.  Killing themselves so that they don’t have to worry about keep making their parents unhappy.  Think about that they next time you want to argue with your children’s Mother or Father in front of them or even speak bad about them when the children are around.  If you can’t be cordial to one another how can you all expect the children to behave in public when you all aren’t around.  They will act as they have learned, disrepectful, ignorant, loud, argumentative, judgemental, disobedient, rude, and childish.  We have to do better, no we will do better than what we have been doing for the children’s sake and future.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Freaky Friday

Goddess Afternoon Royals

I saw the weirdest thing today and heard the dumbest thing.

First I saw a man today with a cloak on and a walking stick.  I wanted to ask him was he an actor and getting ready for a play of some sort.  Just as I was about to approach him, another curious person walked up on him.  At first glance I thought that they were together but then from where I was standing they look to be arguing.  Now I am more curious than ever to know what is going on and why is this man with the cloak just standing around.  Yes, it is his free will to dress as he wants but this is the city of Baltimore so to me this is very weird. As the stranger that approached walks away and towards me, I had to ask him what did he say to the man.  He got closer and the anger that was on his face told me not to ask him anything.  But being me I didn’t listen to m instincts and asked anyway.

“Excuse me what did you say to that man to make him so mad?”

The Stranger: “I asked if he was in a play or some sort and the asshole said it was none of my damn business.”

In my head: “It isn’t any of our business but how rude.”

The Stranger:  “I then told him well you look like a damn fool standing her with a cloak and walking cane.”

The man to the stranger: “Who gives a fuck am I bothering you?”

The Stranger: “I do psycho.”

In my head: “I didn’t ask for a whole damn story, just what did you say to him.

Me: “Well it is crazy as hell that he looks like he is either going to bite someone or in a Harry Potter film.”

Then I just turned and walked away.  I then just walked to the other side of the street to continue to watch the man.  After all the children are emerging from school and I don’t know if he is in his right mind.  I stand in the rain under my umbrella watching his every move like I was 5 0.  I’m not sure if he noticed me watching him but if he didn’t he sure as hell didn’t care.  What he did next made me want to call the police.  He then threw the cloak over his head with his arm raised above his head and walked down the street towards me.  I just stood there because I had no fear of him.  He walked by me and looked into my face.  As he walked by our eyes locked and he spoke, and I spoke back.

He slowly crept pass me and then walked behind the bush.  Now at this point I know this mother fucker know I am just as crazy as his ass is and if he doesn’t know, he will soon find the fuck out.  I waited for him to play stupid but he never did.  I went to check behind the bush and he was gone.  How weird was that? No I didn’t look around to see where he went, because at this point it wasn’t none of my damn business, as he previously stated to the stranger.  As long as he didn’t bother me or those children in my sight, I wasn’t going to bother him.  Now on to the dumbest shit I heard today.

While strolling through Facebook today, I read and post with a video attached that said a 19 years old male was arrested for having sex with two female Pitbulls.  Now how sick and twisted do you have to be to have sex with a real female dog.  Wrong Bitch dummy!  I think he got Bitch; meaning female dog; confused with someone who is called a Bitch.  Anyway he was arrested and is charged with bestiality.  The worse part about the whole thing is the lady who dogs it was helping the young man out to get his GED.  She paid half his tiution for GED classes and all he had to do is work for the other half to being able to better himself.  She trusted him with her home and he made advances on her dogs.  She was very much hurt and in disbelief of what she watched on video tape.  How dumb do you have to be to literally spit in the face of the person handing you your future?  Well I guess not everyone is appreciative of a hand up.

Sending you all love and kisses  #GoddessLove

Standing in ?

Goddess Morning Royals.

Have you ever given someone your all and in return got nothing back?  Have you?

Well I have thought that they were the one at fault for not giving me their all.  I felt like they didn’t love me or that they were just bad for my well-being.  I argued and fussed until I couldn’t do it no more.  They cheated and so did I, thinking two wrong made it right but it didn’t.  They lied and so did I, thinking what good for them is better for me, it wasn’t.  I prayed for better days but they only got worse.  When they did I blamed God for my misery.  I even stop going to church just because I thought he turned his back on me.  All this was wrong and I had to find myself in order to believe in Love, Life, Happiness, Joy, and most important God.

No one can give you something that is already embedded in you.  If you love yourself who care if no one else does.  If you are happy with yourself who care if other aren’t happy around you.  I had to stop allow others misery into my life and making itself comfortable.  I have to realize that my joy was within me and that no one else could bring me something I had to release myself.  I had to realize that God didn’t want those relationships to develop because they will only cause me exactly what I was praying to get better, more misery.  I had to understand that I hold the key to my happiness because I loved me enough to enjoy me, care for me, live for me, and no other can live my life for me.  I have to be my everything because others proved that they were my nothing.  I was losing sleep, weight and out on life because I stood still waiting for someone else to assist me in getting through life.  Please don’t get me wrong, I had made time for the wrong people and I couldn’t see it because I allow myself to believe it was true love when in fact it was a failing lust of attraction or want of belonging.

Now that I am being sorted and pursued by someone who may be the one, I am so not sure how to allow someone in my life again.  I gave so much of myself to the wrong person that I am afraid to give of me to the right person.  This is a broken record for most of us but for me it is a rotating wheel of embarrassment.  I know I shouldn’t be embarrassed because it is just life and we all must experience the bad in order to make it through the good.  Lessons have taught me how to weather a storm and prepare for battle when it is my turn to fight.  It also taught me how to humble myself and know when the battle isn’t mine to fight. The roads that I have traveled is road that I don’t regret but ones that I know not to travel again.  I may have been down a few streets that lead to dead ends and saw the sign but ignored it because I figured there was a way out somehow, but had to end up turning myself around and driving back down the same street sign that told me it was a dead-end in the beginning.

All I am saying is that the signs be there and we ignore them to satisfy our own needs but then when the roads get too rough we want to point fingers but how and why.  We are the ones that ignored the signs in the beginning.  If only we took the time and paid, respect and ahead to the signs in the beginning we would have reason to say things like, “My mother told me it would be days like this.”  “I should have seen this coming from a mile away.”  “I knew you wasn’t any good from the beginning but.”  “I wish I had listened to myself when my conscience told me not to do it.”  or my favorite of all “Why Lord, why!”

Well I can just imagine him saying “I told you so.  I sent you all the signs that you ignored so I had to allow you to take this mission on your own and come around when you really wanted to listen to me.  Now my child you are in timeout until I give you the right person.”  Still we try our hands and ignore him because we are so afraid of growing old without someone.  In fact as long as he continue to provide us with breathe that we are never to old to find true love.  But we are human with faults and will continue to do it our way until we are fed up, then we want to sit down and listen, because at this point we are tired of the bull and can’t take it no more.

Well this is me right now, but still I love in fear of getting hurt.  I won’t allow myself to get close to anyone anymore because I am afraid of the pain I have already experienced.  So what I have done is put that out there and told the person that I am not into casual anything.  If you are sure this is where you want to be, just be patient with me and ride along until we are where we both need to be.  Our wants can hurt us but our needs won’t.  He agreed and so we are on this journey together.  Thank you for listen to my stand because I am still sitting still but with a slight movement when the Lord allow me to.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove