Deal With Your Own Shit

Deal With Your Own Shit

Goddess morning Royals.

I have been dealing with other people’s mess for as long as I can remember. I have intervened where I was needed and nothing more. I just go where I am allowed or asked to be. Once I have put my two cents in I try to leave it alone but parties involved don’t allow that to happen.

Everyone knows I raised my siblings from children to adults. I even call their children my nieces and nephews/glam babies. Honestly, I have my own problems that come up that I don’t really deal with because I am always dealing with someone else’s shit. Sometimes I don’t mind, but it be times when I just want to yell “DEAL WITH YOUR OWN SHIT!” What pisses me off the most is when they try to be as clueless as hell to their problems, but very knowledgeable about other’s problems. “Oh really, now you have an opinion about what and why?” Then it causes controversy and then there is more I have to defuse or settle. I just want people to at least try to handle it before you all bring me into it. When I get involved all parties are part of the problem and none of the solution. If they were then I wouldn’t be needed at all. The worst part about the whole thing is they want me to take side and when it doesn’t happen, I am the mean one or the bitch of the whole situation. Do you think I care at that point? “Hell NO!” I really don’t have cut cards with people who doesn’t address their issues as they have created their issues. I am a straight shooter and I shoot right from the hip no lie. I have told that I have a temper but I really don’t I just have an opinion that is strong, forceful and blunt. If you don’t like it then don’t ask for my advice, opinion or my intervention. It is 2019, and the way this world is going, we are heading straight to hell in a hand basket with gasoline draws on. Think its a game look out of your box and see what the world went through and still haven’t recovered for us to be about to head into the fire.

Where is the recovery point? When did the recovery happen? It didn’t we are just going to keep spiraling into hell until we get our shit together. Wake the fuck up and pay attention, we cannot keep allowing history to repeat itself. The results aren’t never good but always the same, DEATH of MILLIONS. Are we sure we are ready to say goodbye to millions, with the great chance that hundreds if not thousands will be family, friends or love ones so close you want to kill yourself as well. Enough is enough! Put on your grown folks pants and stand for something because we are failing and at a rapid rate. Extinction is clear and then what? NOTHING! There is not what after the extinction of man! There is no future in this direction so deal with the shit at hand so that there will be a future, even if you can’t see.

STEP UP, STEP IN AND DEFUSE SITUATION NOT KILL TO MAKE A STATEMENT WHICH NO ONE HEARS.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Where are we now?

Goddess Evening Royals

We have been so many place and seen so many face but still we live in selfishness.  I am not going to say all but I will say some.  It make no sense to have and refuse to want to give.  Some have nothing and give so much while some have so much and gives nothing.  Is this who and where we are now?

I have been a person who gives of myself all the time and without a need from anything in return.  It is called unconditional giving.  I don’t want or expect anything in return. It has to be without praise, conditions, compromise or even influence that you all give.  It have to be from the heart.  This is where we should be but we aren’t.

We as human beings believe that we should give in order to receive, or receive in ordered to give.  We look for what we give to be returned to us, well most of us, but then when it isn’t we have to talk about what we did for someone instead of keeping it to ourselves.  We have to be praised or recognized by someone in order for someone to know how badly someone else needed our help or assistance.

For those who doesn’t need praise, glory or recognition I salute you in all you do for your family, friends, community and for those who you don’t know.  I want to say “Thank You”  because the world could use some more of you in this day and time.  For a matter of fact continue to do what you do so that it will become contagious and others catch on.

You are the HEROs of the millenium and I am more than thankful and appreciative of you and your services you provide to the family, friends. and communities around you.

What do you do that make you a HERO of today, tomorrow and forever.

THANK YOU SO MUCH. SENDING YOU ALL LOVE AND KISSES.  #GODDESSLOVE

Update on My Existence

Goddess Morning Royals

Sorry I haven’t been sharing with you all and yes I know I missed “Timeless Tuesday and Monday as well which is usually Manic but what can you do.  I have a reason but not an excuse.

My son has an amazing opportunity to do STEM (Science Technology Engineering Mathematics) at the Naval Academy for this week and so we have been getting up extra early and leaving for Annapolis to do that.  It is only for a week but it is a grueling week for him.  Then we he is finished there he has been accepted in the STEM Robotics program as well STEM Technology programs for the summer.  This child of mine is great and showing.  On top of all that he will be perfecting the Violin and competing in Karate as a Brown belt.  So yes I have been extremely busy.

My daughter has re-enrolled in school to get her Doctorate in Pediatrics while continuing to work at the Private practice she works now, nursing.  This mean I have become a full-time Grandma now and have to keep up with the glambaby.  She is my life anyway so I am already to do that.

My oldest son will be perfecting his craft in drumming and electric Keyboarding.  He also received his BAHA attachment which mean he will be hearing clearer now.  So I am excited about that.  He will continue to work and love life he tells me.  No arguments there.

As for me, myself and I slowing down on my PH.D in Neuroscience once again so my children can pursue their dreams. I have no problem in doing so because I have a wonderful family.  I may fuss and yell but they are my world and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. I am however proceeding with The Village Cry foundation to help family rebuild, restore and return to the strong family and community we need to keep our children future alive.

There you have it what I have been doing and why I haven’t been blogging.  Not to mention for a few days I was under the weather but I am alive and on my feet so I am still able to make things happen.  So #GOTEAM on all fronts.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Lost Children

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Can someone please tell me why our children aren’t in school?

Seem like every morning I go out to see the city and run errands that is all I see, children out doing absolutely every but learning.  If they are learning it is definitely the wrong things.  They have backpacks but no one is in school and doesn’t seem like they are in a rush to get there either.  I know we need better education to motivate these children to want to learn but at the same time they need to want to learn.

I am not just speaking on black children either.  I see children of all races, creeds, nationalities, and so forth.  I know parents have to do what they need to provide but our children aren’t in school doing their part.  They are literal out and about like there is not place for them to be.  I am not sure how they are graduating these children.  In fact I know “No Child Left Behind” is a set up for failure.  The future of our children, communities, and retirement is bleak if we are relying on these children to do it for us.  We have to step up and get involved because they can’t be getting what is offered if they aren’t there.

No I am suggesting quitting your jobs to make sure they get their education but I am suggesting getting involved and taking more interest in your child’s future other than just graduations.  They maybe graduating but are they graduating with an education or just a piece of paper.  Can they move into the real world to take care of themselves and a family if one comes along or are they just street ready?  Just remember these streets aren’t the same streets you grew up on.  There is no Village raising your children they are doing it on their own or with their peers.  So it’s children educating children with no guidance from parents at all.  So when your child is dead or in jail, don’t question the system look in the mirror and ask where you were doing his or her upbringing.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

I Heard The Village Cry

Goddess Morning Royals.

First, Praise THE LORD for allowing the surgery to go as well as it did for my daughter yesterday and blessing my daughter will continuous life.  Thank him for the blessing the surgeon and keeping him and his mind, body and soul in great spirits.  Bless the staff at the hospital for taking such good care of her.  Thank you Lord, thank you!

Welcome to life and love this Saturday morning.  I’m going to start a small women’s group to assist with life in general.  We will deal with issues of our children, love, life and finances.  We will build on positivity and work on entrepreneurship.  We will start small hopefully and grow into a movement of women empowering other women.

I am calling it #TheVillageCry.  We have to do something because our children, and young fathers are leaving our families to fast and very frequently.  They are ending up dead or in jail, which to me is like been wounded and no one is there to care for them.  I am starting it in a few weeks so I am making plans now this day.  I’m making T-shirts and pamphlets as we speak.  I can no longer standby and watch the destruction of our youth, which is our future.  I am looking for a space to rent until I am able to purchase a permanent space.  This movement is of the Lords because he is the one that sent it to me.  Look for it coming soon.

THE MESSAGE

As I sat down on the steps of my home tired from my day, I could hear weeping.

It was mild but still I could hear it.

At times it would get so loud I could barely think.

I got up from my steps in search of its location

I thought it sounded like it was coming from the West of me.

So, I traveled West.  No, I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I return to my home, and the weeping start to form from the East.

So, I traveled East.  No, I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I returned to my home, and the weeping started to come from the South of me.

So, I traveled South. Still I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I returned to my home, and the weeping started again but now North of me.

So, I traveled North. I did not find it, but it was strong in that direction this I swear by.

Then I returned to my home.  The weeping never stopped but got louder at times.

It sounded like a mother, then again it sounds like a father, either way I wanted to know who was crying.

Then a scream hit me like a ton of bricks almost knocking me to my feet it was harsh.

That’s when it became clear and the sound was now just a steady cry, Why Lord?! Why?!

I had no idea where it was coming from, so I felt to my knees and started to pray with the cry.

Dear Lord

Hear our cry for we are hurting and suffering and asking why.

We want the pain to stop but aren’t sure how but we need for it to stop and now.

We just want to live in peace and walk with joy, for happiness is our goal and love is the mission.

We want to watch our children grow and nourish into families as you have planned, but the Devil is diverting your plans.

Lord we are on our hands and knees asking for your mercy.

Spare your children from the pain and suffering.

Cover them in the blood and protect them from harm.

We have suffered enough and plea on the blood for redemption and mercy.

Stop the violence that plague our communities and the loss that haunt the mother’s and father’s soul.

Provide them with strength and guide them with love so they will have the knowledge they seek to help stop the young children from self-destruction.

Be the foundation for the village needs you and cry out for you in ways that makes the heart bleed.

See the blood shed for we know it is too much, whether it is rap, murder, shootings, stabbings, or vehicular.

Know we understand and is calling on you Lord for guidance, for we are no more.

In the holy name we pray AMEN.

When I rose, I was told to bring the people together and create a new Village and so I am.

Welcome to the Village.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Broken Children

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This is really hurting my heart to see, hear and be a part of; children of broken families.

Why are innocent children the pulley system between parents?  Why must they be torn between mom and dad or mom’s side of the family and dad’s side of the family?  This is why they are unhealthy and discombobulated.  This is why they are uncertain of their status and who they can turn to when there is a crisis in their existence and they turn to the wrong people.

When mom and dad is beefing and there is turmoil in their hearts to one another in reference to their fail relationship, why are the children their leverage.  That is not why children exist! When the mother cannot get her way she turns to the government to hurt the father and when the father can’t get his way he uses his absence to hurt the mother.  When in fact the only person getting hurt in the whole situation is the child or children. When is this ever going to end?  It takes place the whole time the children are growing and make matters harder when the children are adults.  Why you ask?

When children grow to be adults and they lived through such hate they tend to think it is the way to get what you want and need for the child.  They tend to do exactly what was done to them to their children.  Thinking they were raised just fine and see no problem but there are a lot of hidden problems occurring and anger manifesting into stress and hatred.  Then health issues occur and they swear they have no idea where it comes from or label it “hereditary”, when indeed it is just something learned and taught.  Just like history bad habits repeats themselves over and over again until the cycle can be broken and if you aren’t one willing to break it then your children are just going to repeat history.  So when you are preparing to be a grandparent and praying for your grandchild to live a healthy normal life but didn’t give your children one nor did you have one, just expect for the child or those children not to have one as well.

Come on break the cycle.  Learn to love and live happily as a family even if it is separate.  Yeah I know he did you wrong and she isn’t no good, but do the children have to know that.  No they don’t.  All they ever have to know is that Mom and Dad loves them and show them every day.  Speak positivity where negativity manifest.  Speak encouragement when your heart is discouraged.  Speak truth where lies use to live and try to make a different life for your children so they will know only of love from Mom and Dad.  When they are in need they know that they can turn to Mom and Dad not the unknown.  Later that turmoil can be your worst enemy and manifest inward and your children end up hating just themselves and no other.  Killing themselves so that they don’t have to worry about keep making their parents unhappy.  Think about that they next time you want to argue with your children’s Mother or Father in front of them or even speak bad about them when the children are around.  If you can’t be cordial to one another how can you all expect the children to behave in public when you all aren’t around.  They will act as they have learned, disrepectful, ignorant, loud, argumentative, judgemental, disobedient, rude, and childish.  We have to do better, no we will do better than what we have been doing for the children’s sake and future.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Standing in ?

Goddess Morning Royals.

Have you ever given someone your all and in return got nothing back?  Have you?

Well I have thought that they were the one at fault for not giving me their all.  I felt like they didn’t love me or that they were just bad for my well-being.  I argued and fussed until I couldn’t do it no more.  They cheated and so did I, thinking two wrong made it right but it didn’t.  They lied and so did I, thinking what good for them is better for me, it wasn’t.  I prayed for better days but they only got worse.  When they did I blamed God for my misery.  I even stop going to church just because I thought he turned his back on me.  All this was wrong and I had to find myself in order to believe in Love, Life, Happiness, Joy, and most important God.

No one can give you something that is already embedded in you.  If you love yourself who care if no one else does.  If you are happy with yourself who care if other aren’t happy around you.  I had to stop allow others misery into my life and making itself comfortable.  I have to realize that my joy was within me and that no one else could bring me something I had to release myself.  I had to realize that God didn’t want those relationships to develop because they will only cause me exactly what I was praying to get better, more misery.  I had to understand that I hold the key to my happiness because I loved me enough to enjoy me, care for me, live for me, and no other can live my life for me.  I have to be my everything because others proved that they were my nothing.  I was losing sleep, weight and out on life because I stood still waiting for someone else to assist me in getting through life.  Please don’t get me wrong, I had made time for the wrong people and I couldn’t see it because I allow myself to believe it was true love when in fact it was a failing lust of attraction or want of belonging.

Now that I am being sorted and pursued by someone who may be the one, I am so not sure how to allow someone in my life again.  I gave so much of myself to the wrong person that I am afraid to give of me to the right person.  This is a broken record for most of us but for me it is a rotating wheel of embarrassment.  I know I shouldn’t be embarrassed because it is just life and we all must experience the bad in order to make it through the good.  Lessons have taught me how to weather a storm and prepare for battle when it is my turn to fight.  It also taught me how to humble myself and know when the battle isn’t mine to fight. The roads that I have traveled is road that I don’t regret but ones that I know not to travel again.  I may have been down a few streets that lead to dead ends and saw the sign but ignored it because I figured there was a way out somehow, but had to end up turning myself around and driving back down the same street sign that told me it was a dead-end in the beginning.

All I am saying is that the signs be there and we ignore them to satisfy our own needs but then when the roads get too rough we want to point fingers but how and why.  We are the ones that ignored the signs in the beginning.  If only we took the time and paid, respect and ahead to the signs in the beginning we would have reason to say things like, “My mother told me it would be days like this.”  “I should have seen this coming from a mile away.”  “I knew you wasn’t any good from the beginning but.”  “I wish I had listened to myself when my conscience told me not to do it.”  or my favorite of all “Why Lord, why!”

Well I can just imagine him saying “I told you so.  I sent you all the signs that you ignored so I had to allow you to take this mission on your own and come around when you really wanted to listen to me.  Now my child you are in timeout until I give you the right person.”  Still we try our hands and ignore him because we are so afraid of growing old without someone.  In fact as long as he continue to provide us with breathe that we are never to old to find true love.  But we are human with faults and will continue to do it our way until we are fed up, then we want to sit down and listen, because at this point we are tired of the bull and can’t take it no more.

Well this is me right now, but still I love in fear of getting hurt.  I won’t allow myself to get close to anyone anymore because I am afraid of the pain I have already experienced.  So what I have done is put that out there and told the person that I am not into casual anything.  If you are sure this is where you want to be, just be patient with me and ride along until we are where we both need to be.  Our wants can hurt us but our needs won’t.  He agreed and so we are on this journey together.  Thank you for listen to my stand because I am still sitting still but with a slight movement when the Lord allow me to.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove