Category: mental illness

The Family Bond! Chapter 5…Segment 3.

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

I will be taking a break after this post for back to school. I have to prepare for a child attention freshman year at high school. This is going to be a small three week break.

There is more to life than just a good fight, or war or a battle.  Be more polite and courteous to yourself so you can share that feeling with others.  I think “society” battle so much with their own demons that they don’t know how to give them to the Higher Power so they project hate onto others.

Why must we fight, argue, debate, or murder one another over our own lives.  That makes no sense to have to debate with someone other than the Higher Power over your life.  Please, put down the gun, if you believe or don’t believe a person life is worth more than a bullet and a funeral. They are worth a chance to live out what the Lord has given them, life. Whether you deem them not worthy or just worthy enough for death. Give them the opportunity you would want someone your position (standing behind the gun) to give you. Because as soon as you turn around your life will be in the hands of another. Then you will be looking for mercy and if you gave none then none will be returned.

We must do more than try because trying isn’t working, we must do it!  Be like the tennis on your feet and just do it!  It’s in you to do so, you just have to dig deep down and pull it to the surface.   When a woman puts a man on child support it tells the “government” and “society” my home is broken   It also says that the child/ren father is not able to take care of his child/ren.   It leaves all types of stereotypical evidence that the black family is no good.  They believe that every black family in America is lazy and freeload off them for whatever they have to offer or don’t have to offer. 

We as black people need to look out for one another.  Think about this if we all did just a little more than our part the world, our world would be a better place for us all.  This may seem racist but that is what my people have suffered for more than four-hundred years and still face today.  Who cares, if I sound a little racist, I’m just trying to improve my black family’s mindset.

Yes, I know that “society” aren’t going to want to publish this book or stop it from print, but that’s only because they know I am right.  Rage against the system that binds my mind, body, spirit, and mouth.  You will not stop the truth from reaching my people’s ears and minds. 

If they want to stop something, how about the abortion clinics started by a Klu Klux Klan woman because she was scared that her children wouldn’t be afford the best education as a black babies or children.  That since black are already smart by nature that they will be more advance than her children and grandchildren.  She decided that anyone can donate to the clinic Planned Parenthood with the idea of killing black babies as the target.  If you stop letting black people raise your children then you wouldn’t have to worry about your children not being as smart as black people children.  You should raise them yourselves and see how dumb they really would be.  The crazy part is that most of you don’t even know that they take your eggs and fetus for stem research to cure whatever disease “society” children develop at birth. 

Yes, honey we are the cure for so many man-made diseases.  We have natural essences and sub particles in our DNA that we cure ourselves before we even get sick.  It’s not until we allow them to shove their poisons in our bodies that we become sick pass our natural ability to produce a serum in us to cure us.  That’s the real reason they draw our blood.  They test it on all kinds of disease they create so they can see how formulate a cure to help themselves not us, because we are the cure.  Everything about us is better than them and they know it, we just don’t know it.  Therefore, I am telling you now.

Did you know that “society” donate to those clinics with the motive just to kill black babies?  How many abortion clinics are there in “society’s” neighborhood?  The answer none, they believe their children are the chosen ones.  How many are in our neighborhoods?  Plenty, and more is going up every day.

Now they offer poison called birth control because they say we are over populating the Earth.  Dummies we are the beginning population that created you, stupid people.  Therefore, they are okay with genocide of black and other races that doesn’t fit into their social group.  It’s it true that “society” children went crazy and shot up a whole school, not once, not twice, but several different times.  Okay, I’ll be the first to admit the sniper Mohammed was a surprise but honestly, we were just as shocked as the nation.  Let’s be real they killed Mohammed, but “society mass shooters” killed themselves so they aren’t as bad huh, Bull shit! 

Pay attention people, as soon as birth control came about more black women became withered with cancer.  Most of the birth control leads to cancer.  I think they are trying to kill us before we have the chance to conceive.  If our uterus isn’t damaged before conception, we fall for it by allowing them to test trial all their poison on us.  Every new contraception on the market they push off on the black populated clinics and hospitals.  Our doctors whom are supposed to protect us are the same one using us as escape goats to push the poison are lining their pockets.  What an inhumane way to get rid of us? 

If we don’t love ourselves then love the children have bared.  I know it seems like every Government Agency has it out for people of color.  I know a lot of you work in these agencies, because I once worked in a few myself.  Have you ever noticed that the ratio doesn’t quite equal out, unless it is the jails, or prison systems?  Be conscious of your surrounding and know that they only hired you to say that they did their part.  How many of you know that you are way more qualified for the position your supervisor holds but because of your “nationality” you aren’t in that position? 

First, they lie and tell you it’s, because of a lack of education. Then you go and get this education, then they say you need certification and then you do that.  Then they say you need the years of experience or it’s no positions available for your classification.  Why did they wait until you did all this school and certification to tell you that there is no position?  Promotion time comes around and they ensure you that the person they chose was there longer and had the years of service.  When you find out they don’t even have the education that you have, you feel like an ass and don’t feel like it was worth getting the education.  In real life they are never going to accept you in a higher position wherein you supervise over “society.”  I mean let’s face it you will have to file a grievance and once you do they will give you a supervisory position but when you look at who you are supervising they look just like you or a little lighter, never that of a non-black complexion, if so they consider them less than you.  

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

The Family Bond! Chapter 5…Segment 2.

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Now if I don’t discipline them and they become out of control, meaning “society” doesn’t have a grasp on them, then “society” can lock them away in their prison or drug them with their poison so they can control them.  Either way our children are in danger in “society’s” hands. 

“Society” beats them with whips and chains like dogs, collectively speaking, “society” treats dogs better than they treat our children, but nevertheless as soon as we as parents beat them not like you all have, then its abuse.   Then someone comes and take our children away from us like we have no say so in the matter.  As soon as we are violent for protecting and defending our families then we are bad parents, criminals, and savages.  Our homes are no longer a safe haven for the children we birth.  The craziest part of it all, is that we as blacks or less fortunate people fall for the bull shit. 

This is justice, so you say, where was this system when “society” was killing our babies by the dozen.  If we engaged this behavior, we too were punished but now if you engage in our disciplinary actions of our own children then we are abusers, negligent, and murderers.  Where is the justice for us?  It doesn’t exist! 

We can’t put children in a room and tell them they are punished but your “society” can put them in a jail cell and control all they do.  Isn’t that child endangerment?  You tell us it is and we go for it, but then you turn right around and do the same thing and it’s to taught us a lesson.  Where in the hell is that the same thing or even right?   We as people need to open our eyes and unite to take care of our own.  Do for us as one nation as one family. 

But don’t get it twisted we as a community, a nation has done nothing to help ourselves.  We hate on what the next brother or sister has because we don’t have it in match.  Instead of breaking down the next man/woman we as a community needs to uplift one another.  We have done exactly what “society” has done to us.  Now we do it, on a much higher scale. 

Genocide isn’t just a word with a meaning, it is a dysfunction that we have placed in our lives and for what?  To be better than the person you have murdered but, you’re not you’re actually worse!  At this point I can say with a disconcerting heart that you are worse than “society” and their mass murdering of our people.  You have become the “dog” fetching the bone that another “dog” has pissed on or deemed not good enough for him. 

We as a community must be better than that, better than “society” have categorized us. 

Where is the village raising the children?  Where is the community that pulls together and defend again genocide?  We are not supposed to murder one another but love and live for one another.  When I eat everyone around me eats and that is how it is supposed to be with others.  I can honestly, say I have seen the same people I feed turn their backs on someone else who is in the same position you were in before I fed you.  How can this be and then turn around and talk bad about them?  The nerve!  Are you, serious right now? 

If we don’t raise our children, they will do it for us and not how we would like for them to be raised.  Looking down on his/her own people and refuse to help them up when they see them down.  Come on people we are smarter than they want us to be and we know it, now it is time to show it.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

The Family Bond! Chapter 5…Segment 3.

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Child Support a black man’s nightmare.  What the fuck is that?  It is the devil and women know it but seriously guys, why do you have to be forced to do what you know you are supposed to do.  No one should be force as a man to take care of his own child/ren.  More importantly mothers should not use child support as a tool to hurt fathers.  Also, name calling doesn’t make it all better either.  Yes, I know she is a bitch and he is a dog, but neither one of you are either.  It is all hurt and frustration from the past, break up and lies from not getting to know one another.  In all fairness ladies, he wasn’t all that when he was giving you his love muscle.  He wasn’t a bad person when he was taking care of you.  Now for you so called men if you don’t want to be on child support then be the same man you were when you were laying pipe and take care of your responsibilities.  You shouldn’t have wanted to hit it and quit it, raw!  You should have used protection to protect your wallet, freedom, and most of all your dick.  Hello, you nor she had any idea what the other had if anything, but hopefully, nothing.    If your motive was to just get the pussy then you should have been the responsible one and protected your life from the drama you are going through now.  If you wanted the woman and the child/ren then do you part and keep that family happy, but if all you wanted was to keep it moving, now you must move that child or those children along with you. 

When you were bumping and grinding you wasn’t being responsible not wearing a jimmy hat.  I know it takes two but that’s more reason why it will take two to raise those children or child.  Don’t punk out now that there is a new life on the way to take care of or already here.  Punk asses!  You are just the bitch who decided not to step the fuck up and be a man and raise your child/ren.  When you don’t it’s like saying kill my bloodline or saying I’m not shit! 

Stop with “society’s” bull shit to force you to pay child support for a life you created.   “Society” say pay and you pay but that’s not supposed to be the reason.  “Society” say don’t pay then they will lock you up and take away a lot of your worldly possessions.  Take note stupid people there was no child support before black were freed.  It is because no one cared if “society” men didn’t care for their children or family.  Now that black is free, they decided we should be forced to pay to do exactly what we should do. 

Please, look at the jail systems all over the United States which is full of predominantly black people and mostly for ridiculous and senseless crimes or misdemeanors.  The prison systems are just as worse.  The federal prison systems are a joke.  They set you all up from the word go and then put you where they think you belong.  Even after all the kicking and screaming you did for help before the system failed you.  No matter how much you beg for help the system finds some way to ignore you until you have fallen prey to their power and they can finance off your down fall.   Which better way to do that then to imprison you and hope that you don’t get rehabilitated so they can have another swing at you, another go-round.  You are a commodity to them and everyone knows you make money off commodities.   Then they offer oh I mean, place you on probation, meaning you still are locked up but without the bars.  They mean they are just waiting for you to do something else so they can give more time on the time that you have left from a sentence you didn’t complete.  In other words, they still control your every movement.  They are still the “slave masters” they have always been just in another form.  Yes, I know that most of your P.O.’s is “black” but the system controls them as well.  See you can be doing good but if they think you are doing wrong, they run down that person’s back to find out what your every move was for the last week or 24 hours.  Why?  Well they don’t trust you nor the probational officer they hired.  They believe that all “black” people are in cahoots together.  So, believe you, me, they are watching them just as close as they are watching you.  What do you think all the cameras in the City is for, to watch you?

This system is designed to keep the black people imprisoned and unaccomplished.  Employers will not hire most people who have been imprisoned even if it was for a misdemeanor.  Let’s explore how “society” even foreigners try their best to bully black but call the police when we fight or strike back the law is always needed.  When we have the strength to stand up for ourselves but never called when we are being stepped on.  Usually, that’s when the “police” are the ones doing the stepping.  Don’t be afraid now that you have started something you cannot handle nor finish.  Stop starting wars you don’t want and making enemies of people you live amongst!  Damn what does it take to keep you off our damn backs! 

Especially, if you’re not sure you can win the war, or handle the consequences.  Most black people know when the battle isn’t theirs. 

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

The Family Bond! Chapter 5…Segment 1.

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Chapter 5.  Reoccurring Cycles and Systems Put into Place to Keep the Family Apart

This isn’t hard for “society” because they aren’t as family oriented as most black families are, so, they designed several systems to keep the average black family apart. 

Child Protective Services Child Support
Jail Prison
Unemployment Abortion Clinics
Social Services Birth Control
Prescription Drugs Illegal Drugs
Government Agencies Taxes
Probation Pegan Holidays

I know you say these systems are for everyone, but understand they weren’t designed until after the freeing of black.  Once black was free, “society” decided as a unity we would be powerful and undefeated.  First, they designed the Constitution of America which isn’t for black people at all because we were slaves during this signing and believe you me, we weren’t in thought.  Secondly, those Amendments didn’t say anything about us specifically.  For us to benefit from them they would have to include us in their little circle and since that isn’t happening, they decided to come up with laws that defines us and prevent us from doing anything that might disrupt their lives.  We once again fell for the okey-doke.  See they can break laws but cannot violate the Constitution or they will be punished to the highest of the law, the Supreme Court.  This is when shit has hit the fan, but you must look at those who sit on the bench to know if there will be justice for you at all. 

Let’s start with CPS “Child Protective Services” as it is named and it’s speak for itself in the name.  As you consider this bull shit of a service there is always a loop hole for “society” but not for the less fortunate.  It was okay for you “society” to beat our children and murder them without cause, but it is wrong for the mother and fathers to discipline them?  Don’t as a parent discipline your child, we as “society” will be the ones to do that by making money off them, by once again selling them to the highest bidder.  How you ask?  They take your children from you to only give them to another family or person that can well let’s say “take care of them”.  Hello, you have a problem with how I raise my child/ren but don’t have a problem with how another person raises them.  How dare you?  The audacity of “society” to decide who shall raise people children, if money is involved, they can care less.  See the “Government” supposedly pay someone else to do exactly what you were already doing but with a price of imprisonment.  If the child misbehaves or gets into trouble, not the person they so thoroughly background checked, but your child goes to jail or is replaced with another child.  That isn’t how it works in the home of the parent so why does it work like that in Foster Care. Why is it a short term stay as well as a definite placement put in place but only a one page reunification contingency for parents. They weren’t never planning on reuniting you with your child/ren in the first place.

Come to find out your child has been placed in the home of a rich predator and the “Government” could care less.  Is there really a background check done on rich people like it is done on the working class?

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

The Family Bond! Chapter 4…Segment 5.

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Women have been the ridicule of “society’s” plan because they know that women of color are strong and as long as a male or their mate is out of the way, they can prey on our downfall.  But we are women who are bread and cut from a different cloth, I know I have seen it.  I have seen my mother beaten but still get up and do what she has to do while taking that ass whipping.  I have seen my aunts lose their soul to a man but their children, young ladies not fall victim at all.  So, for “society” to think they got it right they are solely mistaken.  We black women have always endured the heartache and pain of loss whether to the man we love or for child/ren we birth but it is only when there is no one else in our corner is when we crumble.  This is why we as black women must stand strong together to keep our family with or without our black men from being totally destroyed by “society’s” strong hold.  We are the original winners of our families whether submissive or not. We are the Queens that make our Kings who they are.  Without us there is no King or no Kingdom to rule.  We hold the power, the strength, the glory of the love and life within us.  We have birthed the nation and why would we allow anyone to destroy what we have born.

We as black women have been the object of all men affection because we hold the key to the happiness they embellish as such.  We know that what we have between our legs isn’t the answers but what we have in our soul, mind, and heart is.  They don’t know because they haven’t taken the time to realize that.  They compete for the wrong things but then convince or try to convince us this is the true power and when it is no longer theirs, they swear they will always be able to get it.  Keep letting them think pussy is the power while the soul or heart we hold is the key to keeping our home safe.  So, when you steal our innocence, it tells us that you are miserable and your soul belongs in hell but for our soul to give in to you will be a moment of weakness and we aren’t weak by a long shot in fact we aren’t weak at all.

We may have moments of weakness but those moments like time pass and a new strength builds within us and we carry on.  For some of us it takes time but with the right village and foundation we can overcome anything.  The times we can never recover from is when one of our children is taken.  That is the end of our process. We try so hard to bounce back from it, but we never do.  To all you brave, beautiful, broken mother who have endure this type of pain, my heart weeps for you and your soul.  For I can only sympathize with you in this manner but know that I am always here for you mentally, emotionally, physically as a loving supporter.  I pray in the Lord, that you are healed and strengthened to continue with life.  I pray that the Lord makes everyday a little less painful and a little easier to bear for no one deserves to go through the loss of a child, whether to violence or otherwise.

There is a failed system in place to make it seem like we as mothers are at fault when in fact we aren’t. It is the designed to diminish our morals and values that is to be passed down to our children.  Somehow, their system, was created to stop us from growth, parenting, and educating our children on morals and values.  We as the strong black women we all need to fight the system and take back what is rightfully ours, our children, our families and our lives.  They will continue to go to the drawing board to find new ways to keep us from true parenting, some have become so submissive that we allow them to do so.  Wake up and do what you know is in your heart to do and that is be the strong mothers we are and the village we use to be.  We should have never stop being the village at all.  We should have stood strong against the test of time and continue on where the ancestors had left us, watching over everyone and everything.  All I can think as to why we stopped is because we grew tired.  See what growing tired as a single parent does, it made the village crumble.  When we should have been pulling one another up and assisting in keeping the village strong.

We know what we need to do, but aren’t sure how to get back to doing it.  It is not going to be easy because we allowed our young mothers to get out of control and now, we have to get ourselves right in order to get them right, or else we as strong women will be no more.

We make leaders, but they learn how to be followers.  We make adventurers, but they only learn to follow. We create women, but they learn how to be whores. We know by any and all means necessary but you young women as well as some of you old are giving it up for reputation and status.  Now I’m not sure if that will pay the bills, put food on the table, clothes on the children backs or shoes on their feet but I know one thing it will just get you a fucked pussy.

If that is your aim then you have accomplished exactly what you have set out to do.  The only thing that will bring is more of nothing and less of what is needed.  That doesn’t make good for anything but a bad reputation and still a wet ass.  If your sex game is less than as well as or oral game, then you aren’t going to make it in that business.  This will be the perfect opportunity to get a skill that will get you paid. With a skill you can make a career out of it and be able to take care of your family for as long as your body, mind and spirit is able.  Stop allowing men to walk in and out of your sex life just for a reputation.  When the time comes for you to want marriage or a lasting relationship, because we know marriage isn’t for everyone, you will be so destruct, you wouldn’t know how to handle a true thing.  You will treat it as it is a John, Trick, or fast money situation instead of the stability the Lord is giving you.

This is not me putting anyone down for what they do to make money to feed their family but how long does whoring work before there is an incurable disease at play or the game is tiring.  It’s never too late to learn a new game or trick to get you further than you are now.  Honestly, if you are making money hand over fist doing what you are doing just by having sex with anyone and everyone, then by all means do you until you can’t do you anymore.

Fact is not all of us have the capability to “use what we got to get what we want.”  I am not the one to brag but it got me out of some tight corners but so do all the skills I have.  This is why I no longer try for what I want but definitely for what I need.  If I don’t need it, then I don’t break my neck to get it.  We as women have the tendency to want respect but don’t have enough for ourselves.  We want a good man but aren’t sure if we are good women.  We want a decent place to live but visit the slums and call it home.  Stop with all the wants and start with all the needs.  We demand respect because it is a necessity.  We need a good man because we are Queens and only Kings will do.  We deserve and shall have a decent home to raise the Royal family in.  Stop settling for less because you aren’t sure of your worth.  Once you know your worth there is no way you will settle for less than your value.  Redesign yourself for greatness because the Lord built you for just that, greatness.  I am not telling you to look down on those who do what they have to do to survive. No, I am simply saying respect yourself or no one else will.  I am telling you to humble yourself when need be and to know when to be proud of what you have done, from which you have come.

W – Will the grace and prestige that is within you.

O – Operate as the Queen you are and not as the whore, they want you to be.

M – Master your technique so no one will be able to take from you what you have accomplished.

E – Elevate your level with grace and faith in what the Lord created

N – Never allow them to see your pain because they will steal your power.

W – Wants are meant to be broken but needs can never be taken away from you.

O – Own your life, because no one can do you better than you.

R – Redesign your mind, body and soul to fit who you are and not who they want you to be.

T – Transcend the Queen you already are only to rule by the King made for you.

H – Have the life you were meant to have by being the woman you were meant to be, but better.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

The Family Bond! Chapter 4…Segment 4.

Goddess morning Royals. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Domestic violence is never the answer to resolving any conflict, but it happens every day.  A “man” should never put his hands on a woman.  That’s like the King killing the Queen for the kingdom he already rules.  How much sense does that make? None!

When a man who has a woman in his life, decides he no longer wants her in his life, he should say just that instead of beating her and forcing her out.  I know you all think some of these women deserve it, but no one deserve to be treated less than a human being.

A man with girls needs to know that if he beats their mother or any other woman, while convincing his daughter that he loves her, she will believe that is love. She will provoke a man in her life to beat her just to have love from him.  On the other hand, she could end up going in the opposite direction and become the man or become the dominate one in a lesbian relationship and beat her lover, convinced that it’s the only way to show her love.  Either way it’s not good for the girl’s psyche.  Also, men with little boys who see a male beat his mother will go two ways he will be a beater, cheater and punk or a killer and the person in his life will be his target.  Even, if he never kills his father or the man responsible for beating his mother, he will kill in likeness of him.  Meaning he will kill all men who reminds him of the man he cannot kill.

More than likely if the man is abusive to the women, he is definitely abusive to the children.  It may not be physical but if they are witnessing the abuse of their mother then it is definitely mental. Not in all cases but in the majority. Maybe he knows or maybe he doesn’t care but abuse leads to more abuse and soon it is too late the process has begun.

Either way domestic violence leads to so much negativity.  Male children becoming so feminine in their lives that they are gay and still look to domestic violence as comfort, as well as the female child, or they become killers and violence is their comfort and pleasure zone.

Please if we learn nothing else, we know no good can come from domestic violence.

Being a strong black woman means more than words can describe especially after regrouping after a crisis such as sexual assault, child abuse, mental and physical abuse, heartache and life worst case scenario child-birth loss or burying a child.  See no one prepares you for that loss ever.  Whether or not the child lives one day, miscarried, or a half or full life.  When a mother has to bury a child, it is one of the gut wrenching pains that you never come back from.  It feels like a piece of your soul has been cut from you without any pain killers, honestly even with pain killers that is a pain no mother should ever have to experience.  Unfortunately, as black mothers we do almost every day and sometimes more than often.   The murder rate here in Baltimore alone for the past 5 years have been alarming and our leaders the people we put in those chairs have no answers for us.  We are the people and mothers must fight for our own children if we are expecting them to outlive us or at least survive the mean streets of Baltimore…, Bodymore.

Black women we endure so much and with every fiber in us we try our best to keep moving.  For some of us we can’t go on and pain become so unbearable that it kills us physically as it had already consumed us mentally.

When a woman’s mind is gone and she is not within her right frame and thinking, she will do the unthinkable or allow the unthinkable to happen. She will allow someone to take the child/ren life, whether it is physical, mental, emotional, or sexual. She will even participate if she think it will no longer happen to her. She will lose her nurturing spirit to protect her physical frame, mental capacity, moral ethics (if any is left), she will say it was to protect herself as well as others around her. She will convince herself that all that was done to her was for her benefit so she did what she did for the sake of her child/ren. See fucked up in the head from the beginning.

When will it end?  When we as black people realize we are not the enemy of our people nor is the anger we have towards our people for our people.  All that hostility is for those who constantly enslave our minds, body and finances.  Black women motto is I struggle so my children won’t! In reality if you struggle the children will feel it somehow, sooner or later.  Whether it’s when they are burying you or when they are forced to help because your struggle has burdened your body and you are no longer able to provide.

We have been stripped of so much that we ourselves just take and let it go.  Why do we do this?  Why do we allow others to take from us without even a hint of a fight?  Black women we have to stop allowing people to walk over us for what we think is love, happiness, stability, foundation, marriage, joy, and the sake of our children.  Our children cannot be the reason we allow these things to happen to us, for a matter of fact our children should be the reasons we shouldn’t allow these things to take place.

We think that they don’t see our unhappiness, well they do!  We think that can’t see where joy have left us and now, we grin in pain, well they do!  We think they can’t see that we are in an unstable place or that our foundation has crumbled but they do.  They know when love is gone and there is no sign of it returning but we think we’re holding on for them and all along they are holding on for us. They want out just as much as we do and they aren’t saying anything for the sake of us.  Communication can solve all this if we all would just converse and listen to one another.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

The Family Bond! Chapter 4…Segment 3.

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

We are taking back our homes and lives for us and the sake of our children.  We will no longer be any one’s doormat but someone’s life preserver.

While we are on the subject of abuse let’s talk domestic violence. 

Domestic Violence Case scenario: Where I live there is this “Muslim” man and woman with several children they will remain innocent in this case even if they weren’t in real life.  He beats her and curse her in front of the children all the time.  She so in love with him that she doesn’t see him hurting the children.  So, one night while I was sleeping, I am woken from my slumber with loud noises.  I go to the door to see what is going on and he is beating her and tossing her around in the street,while the children are at the door screaming for her.  She wants to go back in the house, but he wouldn’t allow it.  They are concerned about their mother’s safety even if she wasn’t.  She told them to back to bed and sleep, but how can they if you are in danger and making all this noise.  The neighbors and I all are now outside witnessing this horror in a neighborhood where this type of violence doesn’t exist.  We do have violence in the surrounding blocks but not in this block, specifically.  She has no shoes on her feet because he has beaten her out of those.  So, me being me I called the “police” because something other than this needs to happen. 

While waiting for them to come another child’s father comes and then the situation escalates into more violence and fighting.  A car window is busted and now there is words of guns being tossed around between the two males.   I will say males and not men because neither one of them were men.  As I was told by other neighbors is that they lived somewhere else and were asked to move based on these same acts of violence.  As the “police” arrive the male, who lives at the house shows no fear and no intent on stopping with the abuse.  He still pushes the female and still threatens the other male right in front of the “police.”  Long story short, he ends up tasered and thrown in the back of a “police” wagon, facing domestic violence charges and resisting arrest.  I wish I could say that was the end for these two people but that will only be the beginning of what I had to witness from this family.

Black on Black/Domestic Violence scenario: Another night this “Muslim” male wants to show his masculinity, but that will soon fail for him.  The woman who is attached to this male, goes to another neighbor in friendly conversation and he ends up taking it as an attack against his manhood.  After his woman tells him that she and the girl wasn’t talking about him, he still wants to show his aggressiveness.  He approaches the woman; which he is not attached to; and grabs her by the throat, wrapping both hands around her neck.  Now everyone is trying to get this male off her and call for help.  Her brother being close by is the first call for help and he comes running.  When he gets to the situation, he asks what happened.  He approaches the male and the male “bitch” up like he didn’t do anything.  The first thing out of the “Muslim” male’s mouth is you are going to get a gun and you are going to have to kill me.  The brother did not like the response so he takes off garments and proceed to beat the male up like he has done his woman companion so many times before.  He never had a chance or the will to fight back because he wasn’t beating a woman.  The fight last roughly about ten minutes before he was down on the ground needing help.  After that he went into hiding for a while but he would return to beat more women up but not the one with the brother.  He no longer evens looked in her direction.  May seem funny at first but violence has consequences. 

Domestic Violence scenario final: Now this last time I had to witness the domestic violence coming from this home, was terrifying to me.  I thought I was a young child again watching my father beat my mother and there was nothing I could do about it.  I quickly remembered that I was grown and had more strength in me than when I was a child.  “Muslim” male comes out the house with a hammer in his hand, starts beating one of the children’s grandmother in the head with this hammer.  Take note that it is broad day light and everyone is home and outside.  He hit the grandmother three times in the head, so I immediately called the “police” on him.  As I was doing so her daughter-in-law comes and try to assist her.  He turns and hit her with the hammer in her head and toss her across the street.  Then focus his anger back on the old lady, continuing to beat her now with his fist.  The hammer slid out of his hand and the woman attached to him runs and retrieve it from the ground.  Taking it in the house, now I’m not sure if that was to protect him from getting in trouble or protecting them (the ladies) from getting hurt again.  However, she never assisted the two women at all.  He tells them to get away from his house and that she can no longer see her grandchild.   She’s begging and pleading with him to see her grandchild, all while bleeding from her head.  They got in the car but he isn’t done with them yet.  As he approaches the vehicle, he grabs the front passenger door and breaks it so it cannot shut.  Once again grabbing the woman from the car.  The daughter-in-law drives off to save the grandmother and without fail.  He chases the car down but I tell them they cannot leave because the “police and ambulance” are on their way.  I plead with her to get medical attention before she passes out.  They turn the car around and he once again attacks them, hitting the woman once again with the hammer in which he retrieved from the house.  They get the car far enough away from him and then the “Calvary” arrives.  He runs in the house and barricade himself and the children inside.  This time the “police” isn’t so nice and they are in large numbers.  They knock on the door and says, “Come on out so you can go to jail!”  Now, I’m not too sure if he knew he was in Baltimore, or not but that will not get a black male to come outside at all.  In fact, it will have him start to act irate.  They have to set up a perimeter around the house, because they were told that there were children in the house.  At this point it has become a hostile situation and moving rapidly into a hostage situation.  They stormed both doors at the same time.  When they enter, he was in there whipping one of the children.  Now he has a child abuse charge to add onto the enormous charges already pending.  He doesn’t leave without a fight and take a swing at several of the officers.  At this point I am convinced he wanted to die by “police.”  They however, did not give him the satisfaction and tasered him and more than once.  End of the story, he goes to jail with a book of charges, and the grandmother and daughter-in-law get medical treatment, the children almost ended up in foster care.  The woman has to move out of the house because she cannot afford to live there without him, and the “police” did not kill or murder another black man.  See consequences! I haven’t seen neither of them since but I pray they are all getting the well necessary treatment and care they need to continue on in this life.

When a woman morals and self-esteem is ripped out from her, she basically has nothing left to live for in her life.  She just wants to shut out the memories and kill the light.  Sleeping isn’t a choice because the nightmare makes you relive the trauma repeatedly.  Going out leads to more hurt and maybe more rapes, abuse, violence and definitely fear; especially if the suspect or suspects aren’t apprehended and the search for them has died down.  Thanks law and order to protect and serve my ass.  She thinks the worst of herself and really could care less of the world she lives in at this point.

When it is a constant trauma then it leads her to believe she is a bad person or why would God allow this to happen all the time.  She starts to doubt God, her parents and those sworn to protect her, especially if it’s a relative that is causing her pain.  This leads to prostitution and polyamory.  She believes everyone is welcomed to her at their choice or with a price or bribe.  This simply isn’t true!  No one should ever feel like this.  So now we must do something to help our women regain themselves.  Help our child/ren trust in family again.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove