Category: mental illness

Confession Thursday – Are You Toxic?

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Do you live for drama? Is your life boring and to spice it you tell little white lies? Are you so damaged that you look for other damaged people to share in your misery?

Yes, you are toxic and spread rumors like the plague you are! Why? I guess it’s because you are not happy with yourself and aren’t sure how to become happy with who you are. I wish I could say it is okay but it isn’t. Your toxicity is the reason no one positive can be around you. You make life hard for yourself by being so negative and spreading lies.

Then you tell people that you are honest and straight forward but never told the truth to save your life. You lie so well that even your family don’t know when you are really telling a lie. They tell people they aren’t sure about you and wouldn’t trust a thing you say even if it was that you were dying. I don’t know about you but that’s a damn shame 😒. You are the one who cried wolf🐺 when there is no reason for the calvary. You just want the attention to spread more lies about people you really don’t know anything about. Reason is because your never took the time to get to know them, you drawled a conclusion based off someone else’s reaction.

You’re so toxic people come to you for gossip as entertainment because they know you are stupid enough to tell them whatever they want to hear. You agree with everything they say just to make a friend but in reality they are using you to say you are spreading more rumors. Now you are fighting, running, hiding or explaining yourself just to keep from getting hurt when you should have walked away in the beginning.

The worst part is I know you all thinking about a woman right now that is like this but I’m telling you I know a lot is men that are like this as well. In fact neither is grown but still immature and act like children, in which they are classified as boys and girls. They will never be classified as a woman or a man.

Don’t allow these type of people to intoxicate your life and cause you pain, hurt, misery, distrust, hate or loss of a love one or a friend. Tell these people that you aren’t someone I need in my life and walk away with your life and dignity in tact.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Confession Thursday! Why Men Don’t Tell?

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Why don’t men tell? It’s either he’s beating her or she’s beating him. HERE’S THE DEAL IF IT’S PHYSICAL THEM NEITHER OF YOU NEED TO BE IN IT. Fuck a relationship if you are being beaten by; what is supposed to be your mate. That’s not your mate that’s your PROBLEM! I have a problem with either putting their hands on one another. If you have to be beaten or do the beating, then you don’t need him or her in your life, especially if children are involved!

Only two things can come from a situation like this when children are involved, either they believe this is the way to love and will either take an ass whipping or give one to show love. Neither is good! You don’t want some man out here beating on your daughter then don’t beat on her mother or vice versa! You don’t want some woman out here whipping your son’s ass then don’t punk his father or vice versa! It’s just that simple!

Boys who are abusers will brag about how he puts his bitch (female dog) in check; meaning his woman. A man getting his ass whipped by his woman will not say a thing about getting his ass whipped, when he should. Someone needs to be talking to someone for help. Domestic Violence leads to death, either by the psychopath’s hands or by suicide. No one should die to know they are loved!

Tell someone that you are being abused before it’s too late. Get out of that toxicity before it spreads to your children, if you have any! There is someone who can love you better and express themselves without making you feel inferior while doing it. Love isn’t supposed to hurt. Don’t allow abusers to tell you they love you while treating you like a slave, trash, garbage, shit; just to keep you under their control.

Freedom means just that, free from all that binds you.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Timeless Tuesday! Is It Over

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

What kind of world we live in where “Timeless” moments are done? It can’t be because we make them ourselves, but with all that is going on in this world, people are afraid. They are afraid of going out, exploring, sitting with friends, cooking out, partying, etc. The world or shall I say the people in it is making it hard to just live.

People don’t want to have to watch their backs while on vacation. They want to enjoy their vacation. People don’t want to enter into a city that is already at war with one another. Civilization as well know it is failing. Believe it but we are all failing. If you think your innocent your not. We have so much distrust, hate, misery and deception in us, that the motto is get them before they get you.

Who are you getting and why you think they are coming after you? There is no peace just passive lies. We play fools only to see if trust is still a thing these days. I know love is real but we are so afraid of it that we pretend to fake it until we make it, until we believe it. The truth of the matter is if you don’t like someone remove yourself from that person’s presence. You know you don’t have to be around them only to fake being apart of someone’s life. It’s sickening that people actually live like this. This is how hate forms when you spend time around people you can’t trust, dislike, turns your stomach, make your skin crawl, only to be around someone you like or love.

Don’t put yourself through that misery only to prove to someone that you are a different kind of person. Allow that person to enjoy time around that person without you so you can keep your sanity. Also you don’t have to fill your heart with hatred and lie to yourself of such. It puts you in a bad head space and plenty of negativity.

Remember the goal is happiness, prosperity, joy, growth, love, health and wealth to make a “Timeless Tuesday”.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Confession Thursday – Does The Punishment Really Fit The Crime?

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

When delivering punishment, does it really fit the crime? I only ask because of how people act when repeating the crime again. Repeat offenders either doesn’t get it or the punishment doesn’t fit the crime!

Life can’t be that hard for you to want to be punished in order to get attention. I work with children and what I have learned is that, when children misbehave in school and is punished (suspended, placed in detention, expelled, in timeout, or sent to the principal’s office) for whatever reason they don’t care because they know at home it won’t be a follow-up. They will walk free on their crime (wrong doing, disruption of learning, stealing, fighting, cursing the teacher, spitting, disrespect, running the halls, throwing food, pushing, shoving, yelling and screaming, etc).

They know it is no repercussions for their actions. They understand that parents are scared to discipline because of Child Protective Services. What is so crazy to me is that while we as parents aren’t allow to correct, spank, discipline our birth children, the system is allowed to lock them up, torture, beat, work labor, and manipulate them into false hope. Why do you think that is? What do they think that what they are doing is so different from what we do? I tell you the difference is we discipline because we care. They do it to make them angry 😡😠 enough to stay longer for profit, return for profit, or do worst also for profit. It’s all about the dollar 🤑🏧💲. To us it’s about the upbringing, the morals and values, the embarrassment, the future and how to raise yours when it’s your turn, you know the learning experience.

It only take one thing to make a situation turn to horror. Things can spiral fast when no one wants what’s best for the victim or the culprit. When there is no conflict resolution then the situation haven’t been resolved. When the only result is jail, prison, or death; how can it be resolved. Someone is still hurting, suffering and violated. Why is it that these are the only three solutions to every problem? So do these three solutions really solves all the problems?

No they don’t! The conflict haven’t been resolved and most victims still feel some kind of way about not getting an apology, not getting their side heard, not speaking for themselves, having no say in the punishment or still feeling ashamed. It is a not always the solution to everything; it can’t be and if so that’s why people are the way they are today. They already know the outcome and know their crime has to be dramatic so it can fit the punishment. Perfect example: Eve bit the apple🍎 and her punishment for disobedience was to birth the world, suffer in silence with womanhood. Did the punishment really fit the crime?

All I know is that sometimes we have to stand together and other times we need to stand strong. The truth is we as a whole have to want better education, life, love, justice, peace for all, and future or we will remain in this state of abuse; all of us!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Timeless Tuesday! Don’t Waste A Moment Of It!

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

If you are still trying to live a bad boy or bad girl life, let it go. 🤔 One way or another you have to leave that life alone. You have to learn to grow up and be a man or woman. Trying to fight everyone or take on everyone’s shit isn’t working for you. You have to know when to allow people to clean up their own shit especially is they ate the bull.

In other words you need to allow people who go out and start trouble, fights, arguments, sell drugs, kill, steal, vandalize, etc., to figure shit out on their own. You can’t continue to be their fallback or their crutch when you know they are going to do the same shit over again. That’s when you are wasting your time, money, energy, mind, and hurting yourself. Have you ever noticed how tired, hurt, misguided, misunderstood, inhibited, unwanted, and disassembled you feel when you run behind someone else’s shit; constantly cleaning up after them because they are fuck ups? No, then you are a great person with no life of your own and this is the life you want because it makes you feel wanted. That’s fine we all have to have something, but have you ever stop to think the reason you don’t have a life is because you “chose” this person’s life as your own. Not that it was thrusted upon you, but that you chose it as your own. You are so bored in your life that you have to allow someone else’s misery to be your comfort. You literally love cleaning up after such a person that you make up excuses for them for why are the way they are.

Somewhere this has to STOP. You are the PROBLEM none of the SOLUTION. You think you are the answer but you are the question; the reason why they do what they do or why they are the way they are! It’s all because of you! You haven’t allowed them time to grow up. You are their savory when they’re playing devil’s advocate. They already know your “super” ass is going to jump in and save the day.

Here’s the crazy part about the whole ordeal, after a while you want a life of your own but can’t figure out how. Then your are blessed with one, but still think you can be Captain Save A Motherfucker, but that doesn’t fit your new life, so you feel torn between the two. Let go of the misery and love the joy. Believe it or not it’s just that damn simple. You can’t have it both ways because once envy sets in with your misery, then pain comes next, then the unimaginable. You don’t want to know how the outcome ends when you chose wrong. I know family over everything, but sometimes it’s family that destroys you from within, out. It’s family that plays on your heartstrings. It’s family that bring you down and never allow you to pick yourself up.

Family is everything but not over everything! You figure out from here, to make your time not wasted, but Timeless.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Manic Monday! Horrible Weekend

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Responsibility seems to be to much for people to handle!!

I say this because my truck was involved in two hit and runs over the weekend. One thing I realized is it is too big for anyone driving, walking, riding a bike not to see. It’s a Chevy Suburban, so what’s not to see? Well this weekend it might as well have been a Fit because it definitely was a target or used for one.

I have this to say if you are a “social” drinker or an “alcoholic” then you should have a destinated drug-free, non-smoking, non-drinking friend who loves you enough to make sure you are safe getting home and sleeping it off. If they really loved you they would take you straight to rehabilitation, because clearly you need help.

Most people who are alcoholics aren’t aware of their consumption and believe that they can handle it until they wake up in a strange place, in jail, in the hospital, or doesn’t wake at all. Clearly, there is an underlined problem that isn’t being addressed and avoidance is the solution that keep leading you to a bar. Which mean it’s not the solution, but the handicap you use to make it seem better, even for only a few hours. That’s when everything wrong seems right! Wrong again, it’s just a blanket of shame but the cold will bring back the cold black darkness when you sober up.

Reality time! It’s time to get all the help required to make life easier. Obvious, you have no love for yourself and life of others is non-factual. In other words a drunk driver hit five (5) cars today’s totaled three; his own and two others. What make matters worst is the car he hit that is now submerged in my rear, the owner doesn’t want to give me their insurance information. They said because I wasn’t in the vehicle they shouldn’t have to give me their info. The nerve of people! Give up the info because it will be on the police report, dummy.

To the drunk driver who started this chain reaction, wake-up before your last drink be the one that closes your eyes for good!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Confession Thursday – Forgiveness Or Entrapment For Torture?

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Have you ever said you forgave someone only to torture them from hurt? They say forgive but never forget. I say forgive and mean it. It’s easy to say you forgive someone for something and not really mean it. You just lied to them but considered yourself staying true to you. When in all actuality you lied to yourself as well.

I understand that there is a lot of things people can never forgive someone for but the question is how many times are you going to beating yourself up about it? Rape is the worst thing in the world to me because it robs a person of their dignity, morals, values, self-worth, joy, happiness, strength, intimacy, ability to love, trust, and commit. It takes so much from you especially your identity. I know there is someone reading this that can identify with what I’m saying. To start to heal by forgiving yourself because it isn’t your fault. Don’t torment your soul with the idea that somehow you caused it, or asked for it, why you, what could you have done differently to prevent it from happening? These are all great questions but wrong questions. You should be asking who didn’t love these motherfucker? Who raised him to hate women? Why wasn’t he taught right from wrong? Why wasn’t he told real men don’t take, it is given to them willingly? 🤔 So forgive yourself for the thoughts of it being your fault because it isn’t.

Murder, is high on the list as well. Those questions of morals and values come into play again. They only want forgiveness when death or life in prison is looking them in the eyes. They only want forgiveness when someone is retaliating. When there is no forgiveness they want to turn their life over to an Higher Power. That’s where you should have started when your mind was in turmoil and confusion was your cry for help. Before you decided to play judge, jury and executioner. Now you all for forgiveness but all they have for you is entrapment of lies, pain, and suffering. Shame, when all you had to go was call on the Higher Power and ask for guidance, instead you are begging for forgiveness.

Infidelity, is when the entrapment happens the most. You say you forgive only to tell everyone so they can look at that person differently as well. You want that person to be ashamed of walking in a room with their headup. You prefer the dirty looks everyone will give them especially, if you said you forgave then already. You said it but had no intentions of living up to it. You only want pain and suffering, but do that make you just as guilty as their infidelity. Do you know how to forgive after your trust have been broken? Do you know how to love the same after you heart has been ripped from your soul? Probably not but don’t say you forgive only you torment. Think of it like this, how would you want to be treated had the shoe been in the other foot? Walk in that person shoes to see what caused the infidelity to begin with! Was it forced by a lack of but too much fingers pointing? Were you more than they could handle but instead is leaving or getting out they disgraced your trust only to hope to win it back?

Either way if you are the receiver of any of these incidents, then you are the innocent one and how you move forward is your decision, but don’t say you forgive when really you don’t. Forgetting means never reliving it again, but forgiveness mean I accept what had happened as not being intentional on your behave. If you accepted it then don’t relive it out loud nor hold it against them because you hold it against yourself. Forgive and more on with or without but not to do exactly what they did to you.

Forgetting is your option, but I think remembering means your will not allow it happen again without warning. Your eyes see differently and no one can pull the wool over them again. If it has changed to for the worst, you aren’t any better than the accuser by keep playing the victim. Stabbing up for yourself lets them and everyone who comes after them know I’m not a victim but a survivor and I chose to live life as I want and not as you intended.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove