Growing Pains

Goddess morning Royals đź‘‘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I have learned that no matter how much you want people in your life to change to better themselves, it will never happen. I’m going to say that again, IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. People are creatures of habit. If the habit is that of bad will, bad intentions, bad characters then that who they are.

Mistakes can be forgiven just like bad judgements, but consistency is practiced. Anyone who makes the same mistakes or bad judgments has practice how to be who they are. They see no other way to be different even if it bring pain to themselves or others. It’s has become they nature and they only can survive or live by their nature.

Once you become their crutch or enabler then you have become a creature of habit as well. Their pains are now your pains. Their excuses; you are now using to justify their behavior. You have no idea you are doing it because it has become your habit.

Here’s where the pain begins, when their bad will, fucked up character and bad intentions becomes your way of living. Meaning you wait or anticipate the disastrous moment so you can feel good about being able to rescue them from disaster, themselves, or because it’s now your high. I mean you get high off rescuing them from whatever meds they seem to get themselves into.

You find pleasure in getting the calls even though you pretend like you don’t. In a way it makes you feel like you have a purpose in someone’s life. You realize that you have power over someone and mean to keep it no matter the cause.

You thrive on the need to be wanted and needed that you escape from whatever disaster or shortcomings you have only to focus on someone’s feelings, failures, habits, and health. You never see your health deteriorating because you have become a creature of habit growing into poor health, stupidity and strong doubtful uncontrollable will to fix others problems. Ignoring family, work, and life just to be able to say you helped; your tried to fix; you did all you could do!

Does any of it matters considering you have no one to turn to in your time of need? Who’s there for you note that you are in need of a persons like you? Who can you trust with your life; health; wealth; happiness; friendship; and joy to make what you think is the best decisions for you based on your lifestyle? Who? Who?

No one because you have alienated everyone besides the person who gives a shit about their own life so why should their give a shit about yours. Now you’re in your feelings and hate the world for what? You did this! You green into this pain of self loathing, self doubt, self destruction, and self pity only to live alone or maybe die alone.

Stop being the person everyone can turn to only to have them turn their backs when needed. Allow people enough space to go through what the all High has for them to go through. Stop trying to interfere with Gods plan.

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Twelve Book Promo

Good morning Royals đź‘‘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Twelve will die; twelve must die, because someone has to pay for what they did to
Peter Jones. Twelve years ago, a dozen of citizens including two law officers beat
him to death for a crime he didn’t commit.
Because Peter wouldn’t take her serious as a young woman, Ashley Montes lied to the
police, she told them that he raped her. This lie would soon come back to haunt
her and the families of the dozen that murdered him for the rest of their lives.
Now in the future three very different detectives will find out the hard way that not all
that they know is what it is. They would have to solve the heinous of crimes and
murders ever in their careers, but one will die because she knows the truth and is
too close to the murderous victim. Will the remaining two solve a long overdue crime before
more is killed or will they crack and leave a serial killer on the loose?

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Twelve Book Promo

Good morning Royals đź‘‘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Twelve will die; twelve must die, because someone has to pay for what they did to
Peter Jones. Twelve years ago, a dozen of citizens including two law officers beat
him to death for a crime he didn’t commit.
Because Peter wouldn’t take her serious as a young woman, Ashley Montes lied to the
police, she told them that he raped her. This lie would soon come back to haunt
her and the families of the dozen that murdered him for the rest of their lives.
Now in the future three very different detectives will find out the hard way that not all
that they know is what it is. They would have to solve the heinous of crimes and
murders ever in their careers, but one will die because she knows the truth and is
too close to the murderous victim. Will the remaining two solve a long overdue crime before
more is killed or will they crack and leave a serial killer on the loose?

In stores in April 2022. Get your copy. Sending you all love and kisses #Goddess #GoddezzKPublishing

Twelve

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Introduction
The life of Peter Jones was cut short because of a lie. Ashley Montes is a beautiful
young lady but only on the outside for on the inside she is a horrible person. A liar
if Peter Jones ever met one. She is going make life for everyone every difficult.
People life styles will change but their conscience will remain the same. They will remember
what they have done but dare to speak of it again.
he night that Peter Jones goes missing will be the night life changes for all in Baton
Rouge, Louisiana. They will have to live with a lie or die from it, either way their
lives and the lives of their family members will be different forever.
shley will pay the ultimate price for her mistake and lose everything she ever had for
one lie she couldn’t keep herself from telling and to the wrong people. She will not
only ruin her life but the lives of those who know her and her family.
eter will not allow her to ruin the life of the family that loves him and accepts him for
who he is. He will fight for what he believes is the right thing to do, even if that means
murder for revenge. He will rest when his deed is done and his spirit is at peace with
the lie that has be bestowed upon his name and soul.

Peter Jones’ Beginning
eter Jones is a small boy with a big heart. He loved playing with everyone but his
parents warned him that not everyone will want to play with him. They told him
that Louisiana had a different way of living then what he sees on the television. His
father expressed how different he was then those children with lighter and white skin.
Peter heard and listened to his father for his father knows best. Still Peter just wanted to
play and befriend everyone. He didn’t notice the difference in the children skin he wanted
to play with just that he wanted to have fun and enjoy being a child. Peter father was a
carpenter and everyday went to work for the same people he was warning Peter about.
Some days Peter even went to work with his father. They would go to some of the
most elegant homes. Homes that was so big that it would take them a while just to walk to
the door. Peter would ask his father why didn’t we just drive the car to the front door and
his father would tell him we aren’t allowed to park our car in this people driveways. Still
Peter thought it would have been smarter and easier just to have drove, but like always his
father knew best. Peter was learning how to do what his father was known best for in their
Parish. The people house they went to was smitten with Peter’s manners, charm and
cuteness. Some of the ladies would take Peter away from his father just to feed hm and
show him off to their guest. Peter father had a problem with that but he learned from his
father don’t talk back and to make sure he had an exit strategy whenever things didn’t feel
right within himself.
Time was moving fast and Peter was growing into a handy helper for his father. He
asked less question and paid more attention to what was going on around him. His father
had noticed the difference in Peter and wanted to know if anything had happened to make
him change his mind about wanting to play with the children. Peter told him that he was
just trying to grow up and learn to earn his way like his father do. This made his father very
happy but he didn’t want to take away his childhood either. So, every once in a while, he
would leave him with his mother to help around that house and have the opportunity to go
out and play with the children in the neighborhood.
Peter like helping both of his parents and learned a lot from them both. He was
learning how to cook and keep house if need be as well as how to build and repair a house
when he had to. Peter was almost 8 years of age his next birthday but he had already
learned a lot for such a child his age. He loved school and all that the teachers were
teaching him. He like being around children his age but didn’t understand why they had to
play separately. When he would ask the teacher, they would just tell him to mind his

manners and he would do so. Knowing that means that as a child he had stepped out of
place he would just go and sit down to collect himself. Peter never wanted to be in trouble
with anyone not even the teachers, because they wouldn’t let you do anything anymore and
wouldn’t call on you in class to participate. Summer was coming and Peter knew if he got
in trouble in school, he definitely wasn’t going to have a summer of fun.
One day while Peter was having recess he walked up to a white boy and asked him if
he wanted to play. The boy told him that he doesn’t play with darkies and Peter had no
idea what that meant so he asked again. Anger that Peter didn’t go away the boy turned
and called Peter a nigger as loud as he could, telling his to go away and leave him alone.
Peter was never called a nigger but somehow it hurt his feelings. As Peter stood there
trying to process what just happened, he lunged out and pushed the little boy down to the
ground. Before he could apologize for doing so the other little boys that was standing
there with him started to beat Peter up collectively. Peter yelled and screamed out for his
teacher but she didn’t come to his rescue. When the boys were done beating him up, she
came over and told him that he done something very bad and needed to go home.
The teacher then called his mother and told her what had happened at the school.
She also told him that the little boy Peter pushed was the son of a man who was friends
with the local sheriff. Peter’s mother knew exactly what that meant so she hung up the
phone and rushed to the school to get Peter. When she got there a deputy sheriff was
already there. Fearing the worst, she walked into the school with her head down while
praying softly that didn’t do anything to her son. She reached the principal office and Peter
was in handcuffs sitting with a bloody nose, scars and scratches on his body. She rushed to
his aide.
“Peter are you alright? They didn’t hurt you did they! Is anything broken on you,
are you in pain?”
Peter as frightened as he could be replied no. His mother then asked the deputy
was it necessary for her son to be in handcuffs and he told her yes. She asked why and he
told her that he was a violent offender. She looked at him in disbelief,
“No, not my son. He is the sweetest, kindest child in this parish, I promise you
that.”
She said as softly as she could without raising her voice to this very white deputy.
She knew that if she raised her voice her and her son would be going to jail. They could
afford to get Peter out so to get both of them out would be costly.

That very may be ma’am but that doesn’t excuse him of what he did. He pushed a
child down for using his words to him. He then started a riot in the school, disrupting the
entire recess.”
“I find that hard to believe sir, like I said he is quiet, sweet and very nonviolent. If
he pushed a child down, he must have been defending himself. I guarantee he is sorry and
would never do it again.” Peter’s mother pleaded with the deputy.
“Well, if he apologizes if guess everything will be alright.” The deputy replied.
Then he walked over to Peter and told him to apologize for his actions and then he
would be able to go home with his mother. Peter looked up and said,
’I am sorry for pushing my classmate but I did nothing wrong. He called me a bad
word and then the other boys started beating me up for no reason.”
The deputy told him to just apologize without an excuse or back talk. Peter did and
so he was free to go home with his mother. As they exited the school, Peter’s mother
looked back to see the looks on the deputy and teacher’s face was not inviting. She knew
that it meant trouble. She didn’t know when or where but she knew that what Peter done
would cause them trouble. This is Louisiana and no black child is going to push a white
child down without their being repercussions. She quickly got him in the car and told him
home.
When they got there, she called his father immediately to tell him what had
happened. He told the owner that he had a family emergency and that he would have to
finish the work tomorrow. The owner of the house told him that he would only pay him
for the one day and not a cent more. He agreed and rushed off to his family. When
Peter’s father arrived at the house, he told Peter’s mother to gather him a going away bag
and get him in the car. He then called his sister in New Orleans and told her of the
problem Peter had caused. She told him to bring Peter right away and she would look
after him for a while. Knowing she is ill; she didn’t mind protecting her nephew from the
danger that will be following. She then hung up the phone and went to get the room ready
for him to sleep in and rest up. It was going to be a long road ahead of them.
Even though the ride was only an hour away it felt like an eternity for them. They
were shipping off their only son and days before his eighth birthday. They promised him
that they would come back and get him for his birthday to celebrate

This is a sample of my up and coming book, Twelve.

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Saturday Sit Down with Lady K

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Today I want to touch on two subjects; one tax season and the ridiculous spending habits that comes with it and social media hype that brings about catfishing. I wanted to speak on these two subjects because I was asked to give my opinion on them.

I’m no expert on either matter but what I see and have witnessed on both is utterly ridiculous. The amount of energy vs the lack of intelligence is astonishing. We as people especially blacks have to do better when it comes to spending vs saving vs investing. We as people have the notion to spend but fail to see the importance of saving or budgeting never mind the investing aspect of finance. Keeping up with the latest fashion vs purchasing stock, bonds, or property scares the hell out of me for our future. With the way the economy is going in this day and time you would at least think a nest egg would be justifiable, but it’s not even a thought process. So where is all your hard earned money going? Well let’s see; you must have the latest Jordans which is the same as the retro Jordan’s you purchase a week ago. Not to mention those jeans that was $130 is now on sale for 30 dollars, I mean you could have waited. What about that new shirt you just saw Chris Brown in, think about it? CB have money to waste because you keep his pocket filled while you live paycheck to paycheck. I mean come on I like fashion just as much as the next but a budgeted outfit can look just as nice as an expensive one. Especially if you know how to bargain as well as dress, if not then we all know where your hard earned money went. Then when tax season hit, yeah I know that tax money hit different; you spend it like you hit the lottery. Hello, you worked all year to give your money to the government only to get a fraction of it back to spend it like it’s nothing. Where is the thought process in trying to remain broke or breaking the bank?

You have to live in a different mindset in order to acquire wealth more important to substantiate continuous wealth. If you hit the lottery once and five years later your broke then you got exactly what you wanted; the opportunity to say you use to have…but do that make sense? Where you are now if you have acquired stability it should shorten the idiotic dream of keeping up with the “Jones.” Remember they have old wealth you have blue collar paychecks, now is the time to think different to live different for sustainable financial freedom. Here’s what you should do and remember this is only my opinion. When tax season blesses you with your money, cause it is your money; even though only a fraction it’s still yours. You should have yearly bills. Let’s say you electric bill is 92 dollars months times that by 12 and pay $1104, so you are paid for year. This way even if you go over you know you don’t have to worry because you already paid. Same thing for your heating bill, water bill, cell phone bill, car insurance and note if possible. We all know that you might not be able to complete the rent/mortgage and maybe car note, but at least when you pay them it won’t be a struggle because the other bills are paid in full. Also if you get paid twice a month then split the rent/mortgage and car note accordingly. Half the first check the rest the second check just in case you splurge a little. This way you can start saving every check because you did the right thing during tax season. Next year you won’t even rush taxes because you are prepared for the year to come. I hope this helped!

Now social media…smh. What is there really say but I’m going to say it anyway? Unhappy people live better lives on social media than in real life! Hear me clearly, people who reinvent themselves to be more than what they are, aren’t happy with their life. They are dangerous, plain and simple. Those who change themselves for the likes of others aren’t comfortable in the body, mind, or soul the was given to them. They will catfish you into believing they take vacations, the have a nice body (thanks for filters), have a nice face as well as a great personality. They believe in the lies they tell themselves and will argue you to the end of their breath that who you see is who you get! When the truth hits it hits different and become harder to face and swallow, think on that!

Let’s get deeper shall we? By now everyone have seen the black-facing catfishing, correct? Need I say more! You want black beauty but have no idea what struggle we go through to maintain just beautiful. You can’t live black if your ancestors owned black people; that’s just fucking wrong! Just like those black peoples who is completely brainwashed into believe that if they whiten their skin somehow they aren’t black any longer or will be treated differently but aren’t. What in the whole fuck are you thinking? Knowing your worth solidify your history to make you work harder and smarter to a better future. Not knowing your worth makes you enslaved in your mind, body and soul; may you receive mercy! Stop trying to be someone or something you aren’t. I know it make you feel good but when the phone or electronic devices goes away and you have to look in the mirror the truth comes back stronger causing pain, hurt, mental anguish and turmoil. You hate more of yourself which could lead to delusions, destructive, hate for others, jealousy, even homicidal thoughts which leaves to detachment from reality. Plus you don’t give the other person on the receiving end a chance to know the real you only the deception you have lead them to believe was you.

Before you start lying again, try looking into the mirror and figuring out who is looking back! Be who you are so that you’ll know who you are! You can’t be Megan because Megan is Megan! You can’t be Cardi B because she is Cardi B. You can’t be Floyd, Bossie, Will, or Michael B Jordan; basic because they are themselves. The really tough questions are…why are you? What do you want for your life? Is impersonating or lying about being someone you’re not, going to help you be a better you? Where do your self-esteem real live within you? Who are you fooling? Asking yourself these questions before you question who you allowed in your circle or shall I say web of lies? If you can’t answer then willing or honestly then you need help finding out who you are and what do you contribute to your life? Not what do others bring into your life but what do you bring to your life? I would say it’s a simple answer but it’s never simple when you have to find you behind all the false advertisement you invented for yourself. Which leads to pain, murder, stalkers, rape retaliation and all sorts of fuckery that one wants, needs or deserves. Ladies this goes for most of you but for those who keeps it 💯 , thank you for staying true. Fellas don’t think you all aren’t doing the same thing and for the same reasons, clout, fame on your name, likes, and women to jump in your inbox, dm, messengers or whatever platform you are using. For my men who keep it 10 toes down, stay that way. It’s not a lot is solid people in this world anymore. Everyone wants fame but not all can handle what comes with it. Good luck and may the all High give you strength, understanding, and peace in your quest!

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A New Chapter

Goddess morning Royals đź‘‘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Starting a new chapter in one’s life can be scary. Everyone says step out on faith, easier said than done. Am I right? That fear of failure jumps right into play, even though you know you got the know how, education, understanding and fundamentals together, but somehow your nerves gets the best of you.

I wish I could tell you any different, but honestly I can’t. I walked that same line so many times; operating and managing my blog, my salon, my small cafe, and now with my publishing company and small clothing line. Fear rose in my throat and has not left but I do it at my leisure so I won’t feel overwhelmed. Each day I do a little here and there.

I might do hair for three hours and what I can fit in that window I do. Nails for two hours and write for about four hours. Then I cook to create a new dish as well as feed my family. They are my critics and give me the strength to carry on. Some days I can’t do anything because I suffer badly from chronic depression. That’s when I’m at my lowest but my family tries to break me out of it and I can see them trying but I’m not able to break from it, so I wait it out.

Just like that I’m back and my creativity is on fire so I get a lot done before it’s not a good time for me, again. I love being creative so I’m also trying to stay a 503c. The paperwork is exhausting but I’m motivated enough to get it going. I love helping other people with life’s journey. I only help where I can and allowed. I never force myself into others lives because I know my worth and where my boundaries are in all situations. My inner voice tells me to back off and believe me, I listen. I pick my battles because of my life’s mess.

I don’t rush in like a super hero. People have to come to me to be helped and actually want it. I don’t waste my resources and waste other’s time on those who don’t want to be helped. I don’t stress myself out about others problems because I do that enough with my own. Stress sends me right into shutdown mode and nothing gets done when I’m down.

So I’m this chapter of my life, I started GODDEZZ K PUBLISHING when I’m publishing my own material with the help of some hired help. I’m also going to be branching out to work with other artists and writers. So if you we me post other’s work, please support. I promote across a lot of social platforms so you might see it anywhere. Look for my new website, logo, newsletters and merchandise coming soon. I will continue my other chapters but not as much as the new ones. Yes, I still have that fear factor but I’m walking it down and with the help of all High I will be successful in this journey as well.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove. #GoddezzKPublishing new chapter

A Message to all my Readers

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Peace and Blessings

I send you love, courage, joy, and blessings for your soul, heart, and mind to grow, flourish, project, accomplish, understand, nourish, and replenish as you continue to build success and wealth in your journey to greatness this world will forever know about you.

#GoddessLove

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Freaky Friday

Goddess morning Royals đź‘‘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Have you ever thought your past was just that and then boom 🤯 your mind is blown because it’s now your present? I mean you are living your past all over again but differently. Meaning who and what you left in the past is now staring you right in the face. You know you left it behind but somehow it had come full circle ⭕️ and bringing up what use to be.

Well spooky things have been happening to me on the road to exactly that! My past has come full circle and I’m looking at it as if it didn’t already happen. Current events have my mind boggled “like seriously though I know I did this shit already.” Then you sit back and wonder how and why now? What the hell is going on? Not to mention; feelings, where are they coming from? All of Sudden, you get some clarity but still a little foggy about the how and why? Forgetting that there is always other people involvement that explain the unexplained phenomenon, because their life has intertwined with yours. Somehow it is good but as it goes on you remember not so good to rekindle or harvest those old feelings.

So the encounter finally happens and there’s way more involvement than you want to remember or know. You try being cordial with everyone but deep inside you just want to explode but for the sake of your mental health you breathe, relax, try with a smile. Your insides and mind is everywhere on the issue and your tongue wants to say exactly what’s on your mind but others feelings are involved so maintain your composure. Well freaky Friday you have come full circle and bit me on the ass.

This time I’m going to allow the past to stay in the present only to satisfy another’s feelings, life, and love. Honestly, I will stay my distance and allow the past and my everlasting future their own space to grow, nourish, and get to know one another. For now I’m just the entity that brought history to life.

Just because it didn’t work out for you doesn’t mean it won’t work for others. You have to allow others to have there turn at life.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Accepting Your Role and Playing Your Part

Goddess morning Royals đź‘‘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

So I’ve been conversing with several people and they admitted they want change but several of things haven’t accepted the idea of change. I have friends who always believe there’s good in everyone they meet but come to realize it isn’t.

Some know how to move on but others well they beat the dead horse hoping it jumps up and gallop to freedom. I tell them it’s dead what else is there after death? No one can answer because none have died and came back. Exactly, once it’s dead, end it and move on. I know easier said than done. It is better than wrecking your life and brain about it. There is nothing no one can do from the moment on but to let death be that; the end. Instead you keep trying in an relationship that’s never going to go anywhere just because you are afraid of being alone. You keep working in a dead end job with no line to promotions, increase in pay or credit for your work. You keep allowing yourself the same pity party and want everyone to attend. You keep doing the same thing that makes you miserable only because you are afraid to try new things or accept change. You want so much to do and live differently but afraid to step out of your old pattern. You have become accustomed to defeat, pity, self loathing, failure, and misery that you don’t know what happiness is anymore.

Admitting when you have taken on more than you can handle is excepting your change. Some people put it on themselves and then wonder why God is allowing all this stress when in fact it is you and not God. You have to learn to take responsibility for your own actions and not always think it is the High putting something out for you to achieve. Sometimes obstacles are put in your way by those you affiliate yourself with and not by God. Meaning you allow others to put their burdens on you and instead of telling them to work it out you take them on. That’s not accepting change that’s just stupidity on your behalf. Give them people back their problems and deal with your own issues. Stop trying to be the savior when you’re only the messenger. Know your position in others lives so you won’t be overwhelmed in yours. You’re not always the root; sometimes you are just a leaf sent to help that tree nourish. Is not up to you if they will or not. You aren’t supposed to pick this person up from the ground you are supposed to encourage them to get up and that’s it.

You will know the ones that you are supposed to go beyond for when it’s your turn to be the savior and no longer the messenger. See if you don’t know when to be what to whom then you overwhelm yourself and fail at it all. Not everything that’s broken need you to fix it and not everything that’s fix needs to be encouraged. Sometimes fixed people needs to be broken in order to know their worth and broken people needs to stay broken to find their strength to be whole again. Stop meddling where your not needed and ignoring where you are! It’s not your place to fix everyone you come encounter with because some just need a listen ear to hear them. If they already have the solution to their problems then allow them to solve it. Don’t jump in and make it about you when it isn’t. Say your peace and be done with it, whether encouraging or not just be done with it. Don’t start beating that dead horse you know isn’t going to move. If what you spoke was the truth and from the heart it will either get heard or fall on death ears either way you done your part.

Don’t beat yourself up when you see that person spiral out of control either because that maybe what they need to get themselves together. You aren’t in charge of their life nor their death. You don’t know their destiny so don’t interfere where you don’t belong. I’m not saying standby and watch anyone die but their death might be someone else’s wake up call. You can’t stop it all you can do is delay it at that moment but if death is their destiny then it will happen. Knowing your role will sustain your strength, love, life, mentality, mental health, and pain. Accepting your role will guide you to where you are needed to assist growth in the right person life.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

A Woman Trapped In Thought

Goddess morning Royals đź‘‘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

The things she wants to do vs the things she must and the things that gets done. She is a ordinary woman nothing grand about her at all. She walks and talks like everyone else. She bath and put on clothes like everyone around her. The only thing that separates her from the rest is her thought process.

She knows all the things she wants to say but what she needs to say doesn’t get said but the things she say gets heard. She may not be a genius but she’s far from dumb. She can be harsh at time with the words she chooses to use but she can also be kind and spare your heart. She have an tendency to careless about your feelings. Sounds mean I know but at least she cared about your heart. Verbally, she has no holds barred when it comes to protecting her own feelings. She will do what she have to do to keep her feelings from getting involved as well as getting hurt. But she has a weakness, and it makes her vulnerable to a lot of things.

When her feelings get involved she breaks down all barriers and allows love to speak where her mind should. She gets lost in her thoughts and wonder how she ends up in situations she can’t recall getting into. She becomes trapped and everything that comes out of her mouth is spoken from the heart and not the mind. This is how people who aren’t a part of her tree become branches when they are only supposed to be leaves. Once her heart is involved it is hard to break a branch from her tree. So she deals until she gets to see that branch can’t grow leaves. It is dead and should be removed.

Once she come to her senses and cut the branch then she is able to regain focus and give you what you so deserve; a piece of her mind. Feeling nothing for you from that moment on! She also have a habit of having sex with someone mentally. If it turns out it wasn’t good in her mind then she will not have sex with you physically. Whether she’s interested in you or not. Sex will not be a discussion nor a factor in you all connection to one another. So if you are looking for a relationship you’ll get a associateship. If you make it to the friends zone which is rare that’s where it will remain unless she starts to to have feelings for you. Then and only then will it progress into something else.

Right now she lost in thought asking herself how can she post this about me but she have no control over what I do. Why? Because she loves me beyond anything in this world. She is me!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove