A Great Love Lost

Goddess morning Royals πŸ‘‘. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

A woman and man meets by chance or by design. He finds a way to get her to let him in. She is not sure because she doesn’t trust easily. He’s persistent and neither is willing to fold, but she gives him a chance.

In his presence she still will not allow herself to be vulnerable. He doesn’t want her vulnerability, he wants her strength. Their encounter is beautiful. Their souls seems connected but their minds is the force keeping them isolated. Their communication is intertwined. The only people see it is those around them.

The energy they give off is unbearable to others but contagious to those breathing it in. The infection grows as they continue to resist what is destined to be. Then it happens a break in this epic encounter. A smile, then laughter, and then a quick touch and the kinetic energy burst into the atmosphere. It is clear there is something stronger than them here. Her guard is down and his will to have and protect her is great.

Months of these encounters will increase their connection to one another but the truth must be revealed and will be. A year into their love πŸ’™ tragedy strikes, his father will pass. This will be a test of their love but he pulls away. He leaves her and she is damaged. She feels like her soul had been ripped from her body. She tries to repair what is destroyed but can’t. She allows another to take his place but it’s not a good fit for her. She decides she will not mourn in the lost but live in the moment. Still there’s a void that can’t be fulfilled. Promising to always be empty.

Two years past and by design they walk into each other on the street. The connection is strong but the questions are greater. They chat but the energy, the need is present. She is torn between the now and then. He wants to explain but she won’t allow it. They depart but not before exchanging contact info. She gives him a hug and he gives her a kiss. That sparked a flame that is still burning between the both of them.

Not even a day had passed before they were reunited, leaving whomever in their rearview. Knowing it was wrong to leave these people without a real reason, they did what they thought was necessary. Things were the same but different and they both could tell something, but what was different. They talked but both held back the obvious making their connect weak. The circle which once was whole now had a missing link. They would work to get back what they thought they lost but nothing reconnected that link.

Two years into their relationship another incident will take them away from one another. He’s badly injured in a car accident. She tries to be there for him but being a war vet he tells her he will heal. This too opened a few links in their circle. She felt like he was finding something. She pulls back giving him the necessary space required for him to go through his misfortune. Secretly watching and helping from afar, she doesn’t push herself on him. Still a couple but very different, they maintain.

A few more years go by and she experience death after death of love ones. Knowing she can’t turn to him for comfort she turns to another. He’s jealous and accuses her of cheating. She tells him nothing happened. He believes her but wants to know why she didn’t turn to him. She tells him “because you never turns to me.” She tells him, he doesn’t believe in their love, passion, or souls. So why it that she must be the bad guy for wanting compassion? Unable to answer because he knows she’s right he accepts it and move on. This forces him to pay more attention to her but she knows it won’t last.

A nasty truth is discovered when they are out on one of their many dates. There’s others involved in their relationship. Afraid to speak on it in public they decide to wait until they were alone and in the comfort of their own home.

A child is growing within her and a divorce that never happened had been revealed. She is devastated. She wants out of it all. A stressful and willful miscarriage happens also by design. She realize this wasn’t meant to be nothing but a encounter that they made into a life.

He shows her the separation papers that will lead into the divorce but she won’t accept them or his excuse. He disappears, the baby is no more and their relationship is over for good.

Three long years had passed and once again fate has dealt them a hand of immortality. This connection will not die. How many times do they throw it away only for it to come back? She doesn’t want it but he does. She promised herself no more of the forbidden fruit. She knows of it’s delicious sweetness and bitter truth. Her heart wants in the her mind is strong with doubt. She is certain of the pain she is just getting over. She tells him no but he is once again persistent. She fights for her sanity while he plays with his. Her heart πŸ’” broken one too many times realizes he is her poison and he will be her death. She walks away with her broken heart in her hand and her mind wondering what if.

Will this be the last encounter these souls will ever have? Will their destiny ever be fulfilled? Will the love that continues to bring them together be the same love that tears them apart for life?

Who knows? Since life isn’t over for either maybe they will encounter one another and the streak of disappointing misshapes will be broken and they will have their happily ever after.

Sending you all kisses and hugs. #GoddessLove

Happy Valentine Day

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Valentine means Love am I right. It to most is a very important day and for some like myself it is just another day.

For it is when your mate shows how much they really love you. It is when you get a new look into what you believe your significant other thinks about your union together. It is when someone expressions their undying love for you in a manner you deem worthy of your affection and attention. Its when worries are put to rest and dreams are once again restored in your relationships. Its when you both find that happiness, that spark again, that you thought you both had once lost. It’s when side-chicks can’t find their pretend boyfriends and once again feel that sense of loneliness. It’s the day when troubled homes are no longer troubled and dinners are cooked, a night out on the town is planned, and romance fills the sky. It’s when you remember why he loves you and why you chose him in the beginning.

In reality shouldn’t this be the feeling everyday when it comes to true love. There shouldn’t be a one day deal and it definitely should be the only time you feel extremely special. It shouldn’t be the only day there is sparks in your relationship or the only day you feel loved. It shouldn’t be the thing that brings you two together for dinner or for a night of enjoyment. This should be a goal you reach for everyday even if it isn’t achieved but it should be at least a goal or an attempt for daily happiness.

For me it is just a commercialized holiday and where big businesses dwell and pray on your loneliness or unhappiness. They show you commercials wherein there is a happy and loving couple who just have to have that special piece of something that will make their life well worth the journey. When in fact they will be just as happy if it was July or September if they put their heart and soul into making life worth the journey.

Just ask yourself one thing is tomorrow just as good as today or will next week be the same energy? If no is the answer then find out why not? Where did that energy and love go? How can you keep this going? When did the excitement die and is it just a facade?

Sending you all kisses and love. #GoddessLove

Stealing

Goddess morning Royals πŸ‘‘. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Clearly, this is my home and this isn’t get package, but that didn’t stop her from taking it. I tell you one thing I have for a police report but informed them when I catch her she will be dealt with accordingly. My words exactly “I’m gonna trash her.” 😱

However, I do blame the Amazon driver who didn’t afford me the courtesy of knocking on my door. I waited for this package all day. It is a birthday gift and now my friend has to wait.

It isn’t unfair and quite disrespectful for someone to think that this is ok. What is someone was trying to Jill me and this stupid 😠motherfucker took it and blew up. Then what? Am I responsible then? This is absolutely wrong and immoral. Where is people since of values and morals? I guess there are no decency left on this planet.

Even though my money is being refund doesn’t make me happy. It make me feel like horrified to know that my information is out laying on the streets for anyone to take and use as they please. 😑😑

So please make sure in the comment section you already tell the delivery person it is not okay to leave your package out and open to the public. Just a warning though it’s only going to get worst if the shut down resume.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove