Unlocking The Truth Within

Unlocking The Truth Within

Goddess morning Royals. First give praise and worship to the all High.

How honest are you with yourself? How much do you lie to get ahead in life, love, and business? How many times have you been caught in your web of deceit?

Honestly we all have done it and frankly gotten away with it at some point. Am I correct? Of course I am. We have all lied to ourselves, to our significant others, friends, family members, our children, and others just to either look good at the moment or just because we can’t help it.

Question: How many of us have gone back and made the lie a reality to stay face or told the truth that you lied? Not many some even pile onto that lie and make it worse. Why in the world would we ever do that but we have? How many of you all are cheating on your significant other, taxes, diets, church, or family? When I say cheating on your family, you pretend that the family you were born into isn’t your family or prefer another family and spend more time with that family. Again everyone have done it, whether it is your significant other’s family because they make you feel special; or you taken on the role of a mother or father to someone else child because they respect your more. How about lied on an application because you thought you were best qualified for the job? Then realize you have over stepped your boundaries. Lied about degrees you don’t have and when it was time to produce them couldn’t. Lied about your abilities to function in a fast pace work environment and well fell short. Still we have all committed some sort of facade in our lives that we aren’t proud of or wish we never done it to begin with, but did and now have to live it out to its fullest.

What to do? What to do? Well I tell you what we can all confess to the mess we have created. We can hold our heads up high and be proud of who or what we are instead of creating a person who we know we can’t live up to. For those who have cheated on someone, just let them go, because clearly they aren’t the one for you or else you wouldn’t have been able to cheat on them, even in revenge. Now I don’t have to tell you about those taxes because the IRS will get you soon enough and at this rate they are going they are more vigilant of those falsifying information. Don’t go to jail or ruin your life over a few hundred dollars. I promise you the lawyer will cost more, so why bother. Unless you are so dumb or cheap to opt out for a public defender, then you already know your fate. As far as life goes, we all want or have wanted to be someone else at a moment in time, but remembered we are just who we are. I say be proud of that and own it. We have all wanted to be better than the person we think people see. Unsure who that is through their eyes we try to make ourselves more and still end up being less. Then feel sorry about it and wallow in self pity, doubt and hatred not only for ourselves but for those we tried to impress.

The thing is I like who I am and don’t need any hallelujah or thank you Jesus from no one to just be me. I am comfortable in my skin and whoever don’t like it then they don’t have to deal with it. When I look in the mirror I see who I am and not who everyone wants me to be. If you start trying to change for other then when you look in the mirror and don’t recognize who you have become, then who are you? You can’t claim yourself because you need validation from whoever you changed for to tell you who you are or have become. Now I get it some of us need change but for yourself not for others. If you know that you are a horrible person then yes by all means change and quickly please. But it you are a good person and don’t quite fit in then you just don’t fit in. Make yourself a magnet and have them try to fit onto you and who you are not the other way around. If they still don’t attach themselves to you then maybe you are trying to fit in the wrong places, and faces.

Believe me there is a group for everyone just like that is a person for everyone. Who knows you might just end up being that life of the party that you were hoping for in the beginning. Then again you might just fine that piece that fits so well that you don’t care if the rest doesn’t match up well at all. You may land that job that you have been wanting for so long that you now have the opportunity to turn them down. You could start that successful business you been working on for years but didn’t have the nerve or will to put yourself out there. Trust it feel good being the boss of your own destiny. No matter what unlock the true you so that you can be happy, and love who you are as a person and not what others think about you. Remember it is only an opinion and not a fact unless you accept it as who you are.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Learning People in Your Circle

Goddess afternoon Royals. First give praise to the all High.

When I tell you learning things about people in your circle is like learning how to love them all over again. The question is can you learn to love someone once you have found out something that make you not want to know them at all. I am having a hard time trying to look this person in their face and continue to have the same love for them I once had or shall I say I do have. It is not the same for me because once someone have changed my opinion about them it is had to go back to the way things use to be.

I can see if someone else played a part in the changing of my opinion about a person but this isn’t the case. It is the person themself that have changed my mind, heart, and outlook on them. This is hard for me but in the same sense I know that I still have love for them just not the same kind of love. My war status has changed as well as my standing in their corner no matter what.

Judge me for I have judged another, but only by his standards and not by mind. For he is ashamed of himself as well as he should be but there is still love for him in me just not as strong as it once were.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Sacrifices

Sacrifices

Goddess morning Royals

Today, I am paying the price. I put myself through so much for the sake of my children and now my temple is saying job well done.

I get up everyone at 4 a.m., to start my day. First, it is to make them fresh bread for breakfast lunch and dinner. Then I get on my laptop and see what Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, SnapChat and MissK22.com have to offer me. Afterwards, I start my blog at 5 a.m., which is now my thing but before when I was on my writing binge my 5 o’clock hours was used for that. That only take 15 minutes of my time, so I use the rest of the 45 minutes to go to the kitchen once again and start making pasta for dinner, which by the way is being worked on while in the middle of me doing all I need to do.

Six o’clock I begin breakfast for the King, Queen, Prince and Princess in my household. Then back to the web so I can post all my merchandise after sorting it to find out I am willing to display. http://www.magnoliaandvine.com/7395 then to Instagram @beautifulme_Kenya for posting of my shoes, latest hairstyles and upcoming meals for sale. After I have done all that it is time for everyone to be leaving the house. So I gather everyone up and get them to their destinations.

My daughter off to work, she’s a CMA at a local hospital. My oldest son to work, he’s a maintenance worker for a local police department. My youngest son to school, he’s an eighth grader, preparing for High School. My granddaughter to school, she’s in the Pre-Kindergarten and doing well I might add.

At roughly, 8:00 or so I then head to the work room to start working on my fashion line. I am currently putting several jeans and tops into play. By time I give that attention it is time for the pasta to be cooked and sauces to be made. The dinners in which I am selling goes on the menu board and sales start to commence on all products for sale.

Yesterday, my day went just like that with these extras in play. My sons bedroom sets came and needed to be assembled. I did so. The contractor finished the kitchen floor and placed major appliances back in the kitchen. The new refrigerator came and the man connected that, and took the old one. Right behind him came the UPS man with deliveries. When I tell you I didn’t get to sit down until 9 p.m., and was in so much pain. I showered and fell asleep on the living room couch. This is where this blog is being written from at this moment.

I Heard The Village Cry

Goddess Morning Royals.

First, Praise THE LORD for allowing the surgery to go as well as it did for my daughter yesterday and blessing my daughter will continuous life.  Thank him for the blessing the surgeon and keeping him and his mind, body and soul in great spirits.  Bless the staff at the hospital for taking such good care of her.  Thank you Lord, thank you!

Welcome to life and love this Saturday morning.  I’m going to start a small women’s group to assist with life in general.  We will deal with issues of our children, love, life and finances.  We will build on positivity and work on entrepreneurship.  We will start small hopefully and grow into a movement of women empowering other women.

I am calling it #TheVillageCry.  We have to do something because our children, and young fathers are leaving our families to fast and very frequently.  They are ending up dead or in jail, which to me is like been wounded and no one is there to care for them.  I am starting it in a few weeks so I am making plans now this day.  I’m making T-shirts and pamphlets as we speak.  I can no longer standby and watch the destruction of our youth, which is our future.  I am looking for a space to rent until I am able to purchase a permanent space.  This movement is of the Lords because he is the one that sent it to me.  Look for it coming soon.

THE MESSAGE

As I sat down on the steps of my home tired from my day, I could hear weeping.

It was mild but still I could hear it.

At times it would get so loud I could barely think.

I got up from my steps in search of its location

I thought it sounded like it was coming from the West of me.

So, I traveled West.  No, I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I return to my home, and the weeping start to form from the East.

So, I traveled East.  No, I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I returned to my home, and the weeping started to come from the South of me.

So, I traveled South. Still I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I returned to my home, and the weeping started again but now North of me.

So, I traveled North. I did not find it, but it was strong in that direction this I swear by.

Then I returned to my home.  The weeping never stopped but got louder at times.

It sounded like a mother, then again it sounds like a father, either way I wanted to know who was crying.

Then a scream hit me like a ton of bricks almost knocking me to my feet it was harsh.

That’s when it became clear and the sound was now just a steady cry, Why Lord?! Why?!

I had no idea where it was coming from, so I felt to my knees and started to pray with the cry.

Dear Lord

Hear our cry for we are hurting and suffering and asking why.

We want the pain to stop but aren’t sure how but we need for it to stop and now.

We just want to live in peace and walk with joy, for happiness is our goal and love is the mission.

We want to watch our children grow and nourish into families as you have planned, but the Devil is diverting your plans.

Lord we are on our hands and knees asking for your mercy.

Spare your children from the pain and suffering.

Cover them in the blood and protect them from harm.

We have suffered enough and plea on the blood for redemption and mercy.

Stop the violence that plague our communities and the loss that haunt the mother’s and father’s soul.

Provide them with strength and guide them with love so they will have the knowledge they seek to help stop the young children from self-destruction.

Be the foundation for the village needs you and cry out for you in ways that makes the heart bleed.

See the blood shed for we know it is too much, whether it is rap, murder, shootings, stabbings, or vehicular.

Know we understand and is calling on you Lord for guidance, for we are no more.

In the holy name we pray AMEN.

When I rose, I was told to bring the people together and create a new Village and so I am.

Welcome to the Village.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Let’s Hump This Day

Goddess Morning Royals. Excerpts from the books “The Perfect Man” and “The Truth About Her”

“The Perfect Man”

You sleep as I stare. I lurk, crave your move, your look, your touch, your beat, your passion. Why must I want you so bad? Just a glance and I’m yours for the taken. I’ll be your private dancer if you’ll let me. Slowly I’ll grind and thrust for you. Don’t touch just watch. See how you make my hips sway from side to side. You make me drop it down ever so gentle for you. Grind back to the top. Watch me as I make it clap for you all the way to the floor. Wow, didn’t even know I could do that. Giggle just a little with this ass as I wiggle. Do you want to spank me?!

Now i shall take all these clothes of for you while you watch me. Oh baby did i wake you didn’t mean to just wanted to fantasize about you staring back at me while i make it wet for you. It doesn’t take much, it’s yours lover.

Look deeply into my eyes, hands soft in my back. Our bodies so in tune with each other they move like a note being played. not only do you capture my mind, you capture my body, and essence, love me uh!

“The Truth About Her”

I tear up just thing about you when I’m away from you I crave you, I want you, I have an orgasm, I fucked you, I suck you, I have an orgasm. Damn I love you!

The journey will blow your mind but the finding will stimulate your soul. Come explore. You’re welcome! My mind, body and soul is a terrible, but powerful tool any time of the day. So be careful where you tread for you may like where I take you. Just be ready for anything because anything might happen. I’m a wonder of great possibilities. Limitless and endless discoveries.

Side Bar: Working on these two books together is almost like living to different lives. I can’t wait until you all get the finished project of them both. I hope you all enjoy reading them as much as I enjoyed writing them.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Broken Children

Goddess Morning Royals

This is really hurting my heart to see, hear and be a part of; children of broken families.

Why are innocent children the pulley system between parents?  Why must they be torn between mom and dad or mom’s side of the family and dad’s side of the family?  This is why they are unhealthy and discombobulated.  This is why they are uncertain of their status and who they can turn to when there is a crisis in their existence and they turn to the wrong people.

When mom and dad is beefing and there is turmoil in their hearts to one another in reference to their fail relationship, why are the children their leverage.  That is not why children exist! When the mother cannot get her way she turns to the government to hurt the father and when the father can’t get his way he uses his absence to hurt the mother.  When in fact the only person getting hurt in the whole situation is the child or children. When is this ever going to end?  It takes place the whole time the children are growing and make matters harder when the children are adults.  Why you ask?

When children grow to be adults and they lived through such hate they tend to think it is the way to get what you want and need for the child.  They tend to do exactly what was done to them to their children.  Thinking they were raised just fine and see no problem but there are a lot of hidden problems occurring and anger manifesting into stress and hatred.  Then health issues occur and they swear they have no idea where it comes from or label it “hereditary”, when indeed it is just something learned and taught.  Just like history bad habits repeats themselves over and over again until the cycle can be broken and if you aren’t one willing to break it then your children are just going to repeat history.  So when you are preparing to be a grandparent and praying for your grandchild to live a healthy normal life but didn’t give your children one nor did you have one, just expect for the child or those children not to have one as well.

Come on break the cycle.  Learn to love and live happily as a family even if it is separate.  Yeah I know he did you wrong and she isn’t no good, but do the children have to know that.  No they don’t.  All they ever have to know is that Mom and Dad loves them and show them every day.  Speak positivity where negativity manifest.  Speak encouragement when your heart is discouraged.  Speak truth where lies use to live and try to make a different life for your children so they will know only of love from Mom and Dad.  When they are in need they know that they can turn to Mom and Dad not the unknown.  Later that turmoil can be your worst enemy and manifest inward and your children end up hating just themselves and no other.  Killing themselves so that they don’t have to worry about keep making their parents unhappy.  Think about that they next time you want to argue with your children’s Mother or Father in front of them or even speak bad about them when the children are around.  If you can’t be cordial to one another how can you all expect the children to behave in public when you all aren’t around.  They will act as they have learned, disrepectful, ignorant, loud, argumentative, judgemental, disobedient, rude, and childish.  We have to do better, no we will do better than what we have been doing for the children’s sake and future.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Wicked Wednesday

Goddess Morning Royals.

So I know it is hump day but I want to weigh on topics on my mind.

First, people and their lies. I mean come on if you know you are lying then just don’t say anything.  I witness this shit every day.  Motherfuckers don’t know how not to lie once someone believe in their first lie.  I just want people to learn to live in their truth.  I’m saying if you are married then be married, don’t be unhappily married and looking.  Stop playing games with other’s intelligence, hearts and lives.  This is how people are dying every day.  The world is made up of people who are looking for real love and willing to kill and die for the right person.  When they feel as though you are the right person but you are holding onto your married significant other and the shit hits the fan.  Lord have mercy.  Why make life that much difficult for you, your significant other, and the third-party.  This side business isn’t a joke and I witnessed it destroy people lives.  So please learn to live in your truth before someone isn’t living at all.

Secondly, you sad sacks of shit who play on people’s hard-working money just to get high.  Now you know no one is for that bull shit.  If you want to get high then you should be able to buy not beg for money to get high.  If you cannot afford to pay for your highs then I suspect this is your time for recovery.  No one should be losing their lives because you have an addiction.  If you don’t go somewhere with that shit already!  Why is it that you are the one with the problem and everyone else around you have to pay for it?  The worst part of it all is when you say stupid shit like, “I can quit whenever I want to.”  but continue to do so and think everyone is against you.  No everyone is tired of paying out of the ass for your addiction.  You know what really turns my ass is when they go to rehabilitation and come back to doing the same exact thing.  Wow and with support that wants to keep them clean and healthy!

Third, money hungry people.  Okay everyone wants to make money and should but when you take advantage of others just to do so, I want to punch you in your face.  People who keeps other’s income and tell them they can’t live with them or come to their house.  Who in the hell does shit like this?  Or when they don’t have an income but live off someone else’s income and demand shit?  I know you are lying.  If you don’t get your ass a job or a career, hobby with benefits and get the fuck out of my face with that nonsense, I am going to clock you one good time.

Fourth, you cowards who just murder people for no reason, just to get street creds.  Now you know where is the morals and values for life that needs to be taught in the homes.  I’m not sure what happened and when the communication and value of life fell but I know it needs to be picked back up and fast.  Family members murdering one another over nothing or for stupid shit that could have easily be avoided.  This isn’t time change this is ignorance, stupidity, and blatant disregard for life.  Realize you are taking away someone’s child, love one, father, sister, daughter, son, grandmother, grandfather, and definitely someone’s future.  Carjacking, gang violence, illegal drugs, prescription drugs, money, mistaken identity, clothes, shoes, chains, watches, and just because doesn’t give you a reason or a cause to murder someone in cold blood.  Then like a coward run and hide.  The Lord sees everything so judgement will be handed down whether you believe it or not.

Last but not least, you miserable as people who hate everything about life.  You don’t want anyone to advance because you are afraid of advancements or you are stuck in life.  I’m sorry your feet is stuck in cement but I didn’t plant you there and I didn’t trap you in.  I will help you out but you are so angry with the world for your mistakes that you believe that everyone owe you something for nothing.  I mean you have done anything for yourself but expect someone to give you something.  My famous quote is “I can’t be your everything and you be your nothing!” by Kenya Spann.  That doesn’t make any sense at all.  You all need a hand up and all you want is a handout.  I’m sorry that isn’t going to happen.  I can offer you a hand up but a handout mean you are incapable of doing anything.  If you are capable of begging then you are capable of doing something with your life.

Finally, these child molesting, raping ass, they need to kill themselves, motherfuckers.  I can’t with none of them.  They all need to be hung by the balls and split from dick to throat.  I have no remorse for anyone being male or female who prey on children or the unsuspected.  They really should be killed on sight either in the act of violence or once proven guilty.  Nothing else to say about that.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove