The Summer Is Upon Us

Goddess afternoon Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the Lord.

Secondly, hope all is well with you all.

The birds are up early. The trees are in full bloom and the sun is brightly shining. The warm days are among us and I’m loving it. Summer is a great time of the year. It’s when families comes together and fill the atmosphere with joy and laughter. It’s when children get their break from school and get to stay up longer. Days are longer and nights are beautiful; full of romance. It’s also when the pest of bugs and bees makes life a little uncomfortable, but we manage.

With all that Joy and excitement comes, what we in Baltimore, call hatred. It’s when the killings get worse and right now we can’t afford any worse. Right now we can use all the good and love in the world. If a person could get rich from the words “REST IN PEACE”, they would be there richest in the world because that’s all we see and hear in Baltimore. I’m tired if it! We as people seem to think one person shine, sparkles more than another, but no one knows the hurt , pain, blood, sweat, not tears that went into that shine.

Why turn someone else’s smile into frown because you aren’t sure how to get that shine? Why ruin what someone else worked hard for because you are lazy as fuck or just too distracted by their shine to get yours? Why destroy lives because you refuse to focus on your future?

Don’t make what they believe to be true, a fact! Us killing us Genocide is a horrible way to live. There is no love in killing the next man, woman, nor child to get shine when your grind should get you where you want to be. Who knows with the right mindset your shine might be greater than the one you want to kill for his.

Just know this, the universe is horrible with karma and she will deliver unto you a fate worse than the one you put out there. The Lord himself will allow the vengeance that you seeked when you started the war you wasn’t prepared for. He will allow a death far worst than the one you created to fall upon you or your love ones. He will take from you more than you took from another. Be careful of your karma!

Summer is among us but so is either the serpent of hell or the angel of happiness. The choice is yours.

Sending you kisses and hugs. #GoddessLove

Parenting

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

I’m no expert on the situation but I do have something to say to these parents who are being their child or children friend instead of parenting. The way you raise your child is up to you and for you to decide but if there is no moral and values being instilled then why are you wasting your time and theirs as well. Society has rules and most of you are not teaching your children respect, person space, morals, nor values of life. Instead you are allowing the social media, television, streets, and other children to raise your children. You all think it is cute allowing your child freedom to do them but without proper guidance they have no idea what freedom means. As we can see to them it means they can kill, rape, molest, torture, and bully other children. The worst part is some parents are now facing this problem in their own home because they have lost control of their own lives, homes, and children. Then we have all these young children having children but without anyone ever raising them. I mean what in the hell have this world come to?

Where is the parents who believe in their children future and is willing to go the distance to fight the good fight for their children? Parent them and make them understand the value of life and give them morals to stand on. Where is the parents who still believe that run their own household and will not allow their very children they brought into this world to run over top of them just to keep them from being a part of the system. Well I mean if you aren’t raising them they will be a part of the system of some sort. Whether it is the foster care system or the prison system either way you have no control over them at that point either way. I mean you need to buckle down and parent no matter how bad that may seem to you or hard it may seem to be. These kids are crying for parents by acting the hell out and we are ignoring them by rewarding them with things that make them even more disrespectful, disloyal, angry, and fueled to misbehave and show you up.

I saw yesterday, a girl had to be about 14 years old yell at her mother and call her by her first name. She then started to curse her mother like she was just a bitch in the street. She then told her to give her the keys to the car so she can sit there until she finish shopping. Then called I think was her father and curse him for being with the mother or ever having sex with her in the beginning. I could only imagine me doing some shit like that to either one of my parents at the age of 14. My father’s foot would still be planted in my ass if I ever thought about cursing him or my mother and living under their roof. I know I would have taken up permanent residence at the nearest hospital until I turned 18. My parents did what they did but at the same time they raised me and no we weren’t friends. They were my parents and I will always be their child. May they both rest in peace but I don’t think I would have done any of the things that these children are doing these days.

I’m glad that all my children are well mannered and respectful to not only me but their elders and the people they come in contact with that doesn’t make them want to run and hide. I can see them not speaking to those who they sense are just plain evil but my children will never disrespect anyone just because life allows them to do so. I can’t take a disrespectful child and I definitely know I cannot converse with the parent if they aren’t sure their role in their own life.

WE REALLY NEED TO GET IT TOGETHER BEFORE YOUR FUTURE IS LESS THAN WHAT YOU HAVE WORKED SO HARD TO ACCOMPLISHED. WE WILL NOT HAVE A FUTURE IF WE ALLOW THE BAD SEEDS TO BRING DOWN THE GOOD ONE OR JUST BRING DOWN THE POPULATION WITH ALL THE VIOLENCE, HATRED, KILLING AND SO FORTH. PLEASE GET YOUR CHILDREN BEFORE THE SYSTEM HAVE TO OR SOMEONE SEND THEM TO SEE THE MAKER.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Time Alone

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

There are moments in time when your life seems to be spiraling out of control or maybe in a place unfamiliar to you. A time when you are out of touch with reality and not sure how to separate fiction from facts, lies from the truth, right from wrong and so on and so forth. You know yourself and this doesn’t seem to be the norm or what you would do. This isn’t of your character, and if no one else can see it, you can. Your behavior is that of a savage, your mindset is of suicide, and your motivation is that of a murderer. Hate had fueled you with anger and destruction. You aren’t quite sure who you are nor what you’ve come to be, but deep down inside you know this isn’t you.

Step back and look within yourself to find that person you know you are. Don’t feed into the “this is exactly who you always were it just had to come out of you” bullshit. Take time alone and fight your demons. Close your ears and open your heart, feel your way back to life and love. Close your eyes and recall your memories of happier times of joy and passion. Remember how it made you feel. Allow that feeling to take control of your soul once again before you do something that you will regret, can’t take back, can’t stop yourself from doing that may cause you or someone else hurt and pain. Breathe in life and exhale death. Embrace love and shun hate. Kiss joy and refuse destruction. Hold hands with passion, compassion, empathy and sympathy. Leaving behind misery, pain, agony, devastation and horror. Goodbye darkness, and evil; for I have found the light. A path in which I got off and now have returned to for me and not for others, to redeem my soul and my destiny.

This was me! I had to regroup and get back on track. I had to come to terms with myself before I got in that place I knew I couldn’t come back from. Sometimes it takes a while but this time it took longer. I was in such a terrible state of mind and action. I lost focus of me. Never mind the love ones around me, I lost me. I had to find me because I had no idea who I was and where I was going. I sat in darkest room with silence until I was sure it was me who would emerge. I needed this for me in order to be me once again.

I speak from experience, #Depression is real and shouldn’t be taken lightly. Find what makes you whole and hold onto that when you are falling apart. I had to hold onto me because I know that I am a great mother, friend, wife, daughter, sister, and most of all great person all the way around. I have moments when all the evil in life comes to the surface and all I want is to destroy anyone and everything in my path. Then a little part of me, a little voice says, “This isn’t you! Find yourself and make you whole again.” That’s when I withdrawal from society and find myself, so I can be whole for my love ones and family, but mostly for myself.

I love me and wouldn’t have it any other way. I tell you all this because I know there is someone who is going through it right now and need to know they aren’t alone. Even though it feels like they are, they aren’t. Just take sometime and find yourself and if you need some help reach out, I’m always here to help. I know the feeling all to well. We all have some things we must fight through but if you can’t do it by yourself then reach out and ask for help. The right people are out here and are will to help. All you have to do is be willing to receive. It’s hard I know but don’t allow the darkness to win, fight back!

Sending you all kisses and love. #GoddessLove.

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Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Ladies and gentlemen we have a problem that can be solve as well as resolved. See what I have noticed is that we have this certain persona that we display when we are in the company of various people. We give off a scent that attract people in all the wrong ways and send them all the wrong messages. Well some of us at least, the rest just like to be messy and it shows.

We flirt and giggle or smile in a manner that tells someone who is on the other end of this flirtation or smile we are available. If you are available that is fine but if there is only one thing you want out of this encounter please say so? If you aren’t available then there lies the problem? Don’t led someone down a path of uncertainty just because you yourself is confused about what you want, or what it is that you think this person can give you. Don’t get stuck in a triangle that you created, then pretend you don’t know how it came about. If your game plan is just sex then say just that, and if it is only the one time, then make sure you can handle the encounter. After all this was your mission, and not the person on the receiving end. If money is the only thing you are after, then don’t catch feelings when it is nothing there, because you thought the look was money. See all things that shine isn’t fine, and all things that glitter isn’t gold. So if platinum is what you were looking for, and all you found was copper? That’s your problem! Maybe you should have done your research before you executed your pursuit.

Diamonds definite are a girls best friend but if all you really are is cubic zirconia then that is all she will treat you like. Dog are man best friend so if she bark like a dog and howl at the moon then you got your friend. Don’t try to trade it in when that is exact what you were looking for. We as people put on such a facade to make ourselves look more appealing than what we really are, then tell the other person you knew what you were getting into when you met me. How could they know, when you were in costume, pretending to be more than who you are and had more than what you have? FALSE ADVERTISEMENT!!! Don’t get me wrong we all have done it and it is the reason so many people end in heartache, hatred, anger, name calling, court, death, or in a dead as relationship going nowhere fast.

It’s like being on a stationary bike, you pedal hard as you can, but get nowhere, and know you’re not going nowhere. It is great exercise, but that is all it’s every going to be. Now pat yourself on the back for a workout, and a waste of time. For some of us it works, but for the most part it ends in disaster. Then to keep the facade going you continue on so you can look good in those around you eyes, but in reality you are suffer miserably, and want out. Because you don’t want to be the bad guy, you stay, and try to make something work that have no business being together. To top it all off some of you take it as far as marriage, and then cheat to make the marriage worth the effort. HOW DUMB DOES THAT SOUND? What is the purpose of marrying someone if you know you made a mistake in the beginning? After time the marriage fail, but now children are involved, and hell has broken loose. Now it is war, and you have no other alternative, but to go all in with war instead of admitting defeat, and throwing in the flag.

Pride won’t allow you to admit when you are wrong, hurt, or defeated. You rather just die then to allow someone else a victory. When you don’t even know if you leave now with your dignity, sanity, and heart intact you are the winner of the war, and the battle. Ladies and gentlemen, please stop with the bull and maybe you will send the right signals to the right person and get the results you were hoping for in the beginning. Not the look, but the results; happiness, love, excitement, great sex, laughter, joy and someone to share it with for the rest of your life.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Deal With Your Own Shit

Deal With Your Own Shit

Goddess morning Royals.

I have been dealing with other people’s mess for as long as I can remember. I have intervened where I was needed and nothing more. I just go where I am allowed or asked to be. Once I have put my two cents in I try to leave it alone but parties involved don’t allow that to happen.

Everyone knows I raised my siblings from children to adults. I even call their children my nieces and nephews/glam babies. Honestly, I have my own problems that come up that I don’t really deal with because I am always dealing with someone else’s shit. Sometimes I don’t mind, but it be times when I just want to yell “DEAL WITH YOUR OWN SHIT!” What pisses me off the most is when they try to be as clueless as hell to their problems, but very knowledgeable about other’s problems. “Oh really, now you have an opinion about what and why?” Then it causes controversy and then there is more I have to defuse or settle. I just want people to at least try to handle it before you all bring me into it. When I get involved all parties are part of the problem and none of the solution. If they were then I wouldn’t be needed at all. The worst part about the whole thing is they want me to take side and when it doesn’t happen, I am the mean one or the bitch of the whole situation. Do you think I care at that point? “Hell NO!” I really don’t have cut cards with people who doesn’t address their issues as they have created their issues. I am a straight shooter and I shoot right from the hip no lie. I have told that I have a temper but I really don’t I just have an opinion that is strong, forceful and blunt. If you don’t like it then don’t ask for my advice, opinion or my intervention. It is 2019, and the way this world is going, we are heading straight to hell in a hand basket with gasoline draws on. Think its a game look out of your box and see what the world went through and still haven’t recovered for us to be about to head into the fire.

Where is the recovery point? When did the recovery happen? It didn’t we are just going to keep spiraling into hell until we get our shit together. Wake the fuck up and pay attention, we cannot keep allowing history to repeat itself. The results aren’t never good but always the same, DEATH of MILLIONS. Are we sure we are ready to say goodbye to millions, with the great chance that hundreds if not thousands will be family, friends or love ones so close you want to kill yourself as well. Enough is enough! Put on your grown folks pants and stand for something because we are failing and at a rapid rate. Extinction is clear and then what? NOTHING! There is not what after the extinction of man! There is no future in this direction so deal with the shit at hand so that there will be a future, even if you can’t see.

STEP UP, STEP IN AND DEFUSE SITUATION NOT KILL TO MAKE A STATEMENT WHICH NO ONE HEARS.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

A Conversation Between Two College Students

A Conversation Between Two College Students

Goddess morning Royals. Giving praise and worship to the all High.

This is a passage from my book, “The Family Bond.” It is a encounter that could take place on the campus grounds between a “light skinned” and “dark skinned” student. This didn’t actually happen and it is a two part scenario so enjoy.

School Scenario: Two Colored Guys – One is Dark-skinned and stays to himself. The other Light-skinned and always with a group of followers not of color.

Dark skinned brother enters a room – “Good morning everyone.”

Light skinned brother – “And who you suppose to be?”

Dark skinned brother – “I’m a brother like you’re a brother, trying to make it in a dream, where everyone seems to want me to fail.  Who you want me to be?”

Light skinned brother – “Who you talking to?”

Dark skinned brother – “Oh, it’s not a debate my brother. It’s just, I want you to understand I come from almost the same places you came from. Just because I speak properly doesn’t mean I wasn’t raised in the hood.  It just means I was raised by people who cared how I pronounce and announce word and how I sound. That’s about it!  My color is the same as yours.  No, it’s not about color and no it’s not a race war, but a little something more!  Something that we should be doing, we should be Uniting instead of Fighting! We should be wanting more for each other.  I’m here just like you are here, to get an Education.  To walk through those doors, just like you walk through those doors.  I’m trying to better myself and make a way for my people, my young one, my children, the generation coming up behind me.  No, I’m not trying to display you, nor diss you. I’m not even trying to displace you.  All I’m trying to say, we are in the same place. That mean that your grades are just as good as mine grades.  Don’t down play me because I am here to fulfill a dream and you’re here to make a scene.  I’m not about that, I’m about another thing. I’m about trying to help the next, you down here trying to break a neck. Oh, My God, I feel my pressure getting high but why?  Because, I don’t feel like I should be the one that’s about to die.  I didn’t do anything to you!  Are you tired of seeing that?  The same thing on TV. Every time you turn around you see blacks killing blacks, I know that sounds whack.  But in reality, that’s what you are threatening me about.  How you going to take my life.  Yet in still you sit up here worried about the next white man and his life.  You are trying to be better than me.  I’m trying to be better than everybody.  Oh, not saying just you.  I’m trying to be better than him, him, and him.  I’m not trying to be that person sitting over here in the corner singing my “should’ve,” “could’ve,” “would’ve”.  I’m not trying to blame “society” for my down falls.  I’m not even trying to blame my parents for not being able to take care of me properly, but someone loved me because I am here.  Someone loved you because you’re here.  I don’t care if you fought the fight and loved yourself enough to get here.  I fought the fight and someone else loved me enough to get me here. All that really matter is that we are here! So, this way we can better ourselves.  Yeah, I know you want to be the tough man on campus.  I’m not even going to debate it.  Just because I am another brother on campus doesn’t mean I am here to be better than you in the fight race, I’m here to be better than everyone in the educational race.  That’s it!  My mindset and your mindset could be on the same page.  Just because my grades are higher than yours doesn’t mean I can’t get you up on that level.  Why I can’t pull my brother up, because that’s my whole means, the whole reason I am here, is to help better my society.  Help better my people. I’m not here to kill nobody, not here to degrade nobody.  I’m only here to help me. That’s what my loved ones sent me here for.  I’m saying you don’t have none, I’m not say no one cares.  That’s not what I am trying to say, so don’t read into this the wrong way.  I need you to understand. I’m just here trying to be a man, the same reason you are here.  I’m not here to show up nobody, nor raise nobody’s hopes pass where they are.  I’m not here to even the score.  Naw, that’s not what I am here for.  I am here to better me, because that’s who I know.  The only person I know. I don’t know you, but Hi! I would like to introduce myself.  I’m your brother from another mother. My name is “Love,” that’s me.  Oh, you don’t want to shake my hand? That’s fine! Still makes you a man.  It didn’t make you less than, just because you didn’t want to do one thing, introduce yourself to me.  See I already know who you are!  I always know who everyone is, everywhere I go. I make it my business to know who’s around me. I need to know what kind of danger my life is in, whether they are of color or not, because no one can be trusted.  You are proving that to me right now.  Our colors are the same.  You match me perfectly.  Don’t even know if you are related to me. All I know is every black is not black and every white is not white, every green is not green and every blue is not blue. Some are off white, eggshell white, cream but not all white, just representative of white. Some is midnight black, blue black, black but once again just a representative of black.  Some are greenish blue, and representative of green and blue.  Some browns are tan, khaki, beige and cocoa.  So, every color isn’t the same color and every heart isn’t the same heart.  Just like every person of color isn’t the same person of color.  So, what I need you to do is understand this, is that I am here to run the race and nothing more.  So, allow me to run the race and make it to where I am going, and I’ll stay out of your lane.  By the way my brother, you have a great day! PEACE

Don’t look at people for who you want them to be but for they really are. Give them time and they will show exactly who they are and if they then you have met who you are looking at, spending time with, and care for. Change people! this world sure can use a lot.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Making Your Mark on this World

Goddess morning Royals.  First I need to address a mistake I made yesterday but not paying my respects to the woman who have a great hand in raising me.  Happy Belated Birthday to my Grandma Mildred Moore, may you continue to Walk with the Lord.  Also sending love and birthday wishes to my twin cousins, Anthony and Antoine Moore.  Enjoy fellows and may the Lord bless you with many more.

Now down to business.  I wasn’t sure what title fit these post so if you think I need to change it say so.  These thoughts woke me out of my sleep so this post is actually being written at 12:25 am.  Anyway, we as parents, as people of color needs to learn how to use our voices to be heard.  We don’t speak up for the things we want, as well as the things we need.  We need to speak even louder for those who have no voice and scream if you have to for those who have a voice but are special and will not be heard.  We are their advocates and if we don’t speak, scream and fight for what they need our future and theirs are even more lost then what we face at this moment in time.

We tend not to want to fight so we don’t rock the boat but sometimes the boat needs to be rocked in fact it needs to be tilted the hell over.  If we don’t show them you are their strength then they will show us.   If we don’t show them respect, how can they display it.  If we don’t show them At this moment that is what they are showing us but they are doing it wrong and who are allowing it, us.  They are killing one another at an alarming rate and if you think that the government is going to really step in you are clearly mistaken.  To them all they see is savages doing exactly what savages do, destroy, kill, be destructive, display their ignorance amongst other things.  If we don’t show them peace, how can they live in it.  If we don’t show them love, how can they give it.  If we don’t show them a better way, they surely will make one, even if it isn’t better.  If we don’t bring peace to them now how can we say rest in it later, if they damn sure didn’t live in!  I am not a great fan of violence but I will fight when I have to, so I don’t allow people to put me in that predicament.

If you don’t back yourself in the corner than there is not reason to feel like you have to come out swinging.  Take pride in what you have to offer this world, because when we show weakness is when they strike.  Get that fear out of your heart for what you fear is what you think you cannot have or believe that you should not have.  When you speak fear in existence then it shows in everything you do and it becomes failure.  Not all failures are disappointing some are just lessons that you did something wrong and should go back and correct it.  When we allow the failure to defeat us is when we have allowed fear to take over and we dare to try again.  That is that weakness showing its ugly head and we break into a daily routine.  Just to keep ourselves from trying again.  Yeah I know it was scary but not living is even scarier, not fulfilling a dream is horrifying, not learning from mistakes is devastating.

Don’t be that person because we show the children that fear and then they take matters into their own hands.  Without knowing what is really going on, they by all means necessary, become our protectors but that is in reverse.  We know it but our fears are now what we are using as excuses, shields, and barriers to keep us from getting hurt again.  In all retrospect that isn’t the way, we have to take back that fear and raise our children properly, efficiently, productively, spiritually, mentally, and physically, with love, respect, determination, and patience.  We as parents aren’t doing that anymore we are allowing the streets and the system to do it and frankly have the audacity to get upset when they aren’t doing such a great job.  HELLO, they are doing your job.  STEP UP AND DO YOUR OWN JOB.  YOU MADE THEM THEN YOU SHOULD TAKE CARE OF THEM BY ALL MEANS NECESSARY.  If the children can adopt this concept why the hell can’t we.  Because of fear the system will not allow us to do so.  So we give up and allow the system to have their way.  I’ll be damn!  The system didn’t go through my hours of labor, nor was they there for my time of pleasure.

I am going to stop here because I have too much to say on the subject.  I would love to hear you feed back on this one.  Am I wrong or do you think I am just venting?

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove