Getting To The Truth Thursday

Getting To The Truth Thursday

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Lets jump straight into it shall we. How many of you all think you are in a one on one relationship only to find out you’re not? Well don’t be discourage because a lot of people found that out over the Valentine Day extravaganza, that they are in multiple situations. This is why this holiday doesn’t hold water to me. Yes I know I always get something and this year made no difference, but in reality if I didn’t get anything I wouldn’t be disappointed. I mean I get gifts and love 365 days a year so one day will not destroy me in any way.

What I do understand is that this is all that most have to look forward to and that is because this is what they allow. Is this your fault? Yes and no. I say that because you didn’t get involved in your life or your relationship. What you have been doing in belonging into a relationship or an endless marriage but not involved. I know you all do so much together, but how many of you share the deepest darkest secrets? How many of you know what your mate is doing when you decide to do you? Think about it, if you think you are getting away with it, so do she or he. When you think that you are in this committed relationship and find out that you are in a triangle web of lies is horrifying. When you find out that there is multiple partners involved is more devastating. When there is a child now present that wasn’t there when you met. When there is a boyfriend wherein you thought you were the husband or a girlfriend wherein you thought you vowed your life to him forever. When you find out an ex is a still ongoing thing and now you are the side piece. I see it all the time and much too often. How about when you find out that everyone knew but you? Then you blame everyone for not telling you about it. Please open your own damn eyes to see the truth and not hide behind what is given to you or what is being said to you. Yes, anyone can say that they love you but if they aren’t showing it then that’s where the problem lye. Why do you make it someone else’s business to get in your life, love and relationship? When they are there you then tell them to mind their business when isn’t beneficial to you. Then question their loyalty when it is hurtful only because you didn’t want to hear it in the beginning. Well my friends we all stand in our own way to shame the hurt and cover up the pain. We force ourselves to believe that there is no way this person could do this to me. “Not after all I have done for them!” “Not after all I have given up for them!” “Not after what I have given them!” “Not when I could have been with or loved, or done or did!” My question to you is why didn’t you just go with your instincts? Because you got in your own way and thought you could change a person instead of just moving to the side and allow nature to take it course. We have that I am better than; I can make you feel; I know I have; I am the right person syndrome and come to find out you weren’t. Your aren’t or weren’t the better; You couldn’t make them feel; You didn’t have; and of course they end up with someone else still.

The problem is no communication. People are afraid to ask the hard questions. Are you seeing someone else? Is there a new child I need to know about? Where is you loyalty and love in this relationship? Is there new skeletons I need to be aware of? Make bold statements like, I scheduled both of us for STD testing. I am going to the doctors with you and no I will not sit in the waiting room. There is no confidentiality when it comes to my health and we are married or in a committed relationship. I do it all the time. I tell my mate come go in the room with me and be there for the examination. There is no secrets when it come to me. If we are sharing bodily fluids we might as well share a doctors appointment, health report, dental visit, eye examination, or specialist visit. People say there are in a relationship and then do everything by themselves. Reason for uncertainty and secrecy. Not me I am an open book and invite my mate to all my appointments, even Gynecology because if anything is different then you made it different. I don’t play with my health, life, family, love, or money and yes in that order. So get all involved in your life, love, health, and family business. Because at the end of the day it matters to you as well. Do not rely on someone who barely holds their head up when speaking to you the truth to tell you the truth. Because I know that I am who I am and I am not here to make your feel better and me feel worse. I am not here to make life better for you while I live like shit. I am not here to play guessing games with my life, health, nor this relationship. I am here to better us and if there is no us then I surely know how to leave for the better. I am not going to throw dirt on your name because that isn’t in my character. I will however, turn a blind eye when you see the grass wasn’t greener. I will however, forgive you for your ignorance. I will however, continue to wish you the best of luck because you did me a favor. You help me dodge you; that bullet that is killing that current relationship. Thank you for showing me a different side of the mirror. I only saw the reflection I wanted to see and not the image that was stirring back.

Your life is in your hands so don’t just give someone the power of your freedom, love, health, journey, nor destiny. Don’t allow anyone to decide when any of it is over. You are your director, publicity, narrator, producer, writer and critic. So feel free to live your life like you think it should go and not how someone else views it. Get Involved in your relationships, marriage, family, home, and life. If you don’t someone else will!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Timeless Tuesday…Back

Timeless Tuesday…Back

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

We haven’t explore a timeless moment in a while so I thought it would be nice to make a new memory. Today I am going to spend most of my time with my sister. I gave two of them necklaces that shows their position within my heart. It wasn’t much, but I like for them to know how much I care.

We are great when we are together. We laugh, sing, dance, and share stories of our past. We also talk about where we are heading for the future. We speak on politics, love, friendship, and relationships. We remember our parents whether its a good or bad memory, but we always show them love. We respect one another by remembering we all lost both parents and not just one of us. I remember our oldest brother for everyone since they were quite young when we loss him. We pay homage to the ancestor and their struggle to provide, shelter, and survive. We live by the code we all we got. We eat together and then play together. Yes, I know we’re up in age but that doesn’t stop us from being children at heart and showing our children a great time. We reminisce on the birth of the children we can remember and welcome the new ones we had no idea were coming or exist.

There is conflict within our circle but for that moment we put it aside so that everyone can enjoy being a family. We can be hateful when everyone has depart and back to their own lives, but in that moment in time, it is timeless and we cherish it like it is our last. We capture it because we don’t plan the next one, somehow it just happens. I guess its the ancestors telling we need a get together because from nowhere we emerge and from within we come together as one. The joy we have at those moment will never tell the story of what is really going on within our family and shall never tell the story to outsiders. Its not fake its just we can’t help but love one another as a whole, because together we all we need, and separately we all have. Family is all we have to look forward to and in a crisis it is all we want.

No matter what our bond is unbreakable and many have tried but all have failed. It is the same way for the rest of my family, especially my brothers, don’t mess with us because we are one when we have to be and greater when we need to be. We may not have much but we do have one another, there is nothing I desire to have more than my FAMILY. They are my TIMELESS LOVE. So no matter what is going on in your family be proud, honored, and blessed to have them for they are your heartbeat, air, thoughts, and most importantly, your DNA. Enjoy them while you have them.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Learning People in Your Circle

Goddess afternoon Royals. First give praise to the all High.

When I tell you learning things about people in your circle is like learning how to love them all over again. The question is can you learn to love someone once you have found out something that make you not want to know them at all. I am having a hard time trying to look this person in their face and continue to have the same love for them I once had or shall I say I do have. It is not the same for me because once someone have changed my opinion about them it is had to go back to the way things use to be.

I can see if someone else played a part in the changing of my opinion about a person but this isn’t the case. It is the person themself that have changed my mind, heart, and outlook on them. This is hard for me but in the same sense I know that I still have love for them just not the same kind of love. My war status has changed as well as my standing in their corner no matter what.

Judge me for I have judged another, but only by his standards and not by mind. For he is ashamed of himself as well as he should be but there is still love for him in me just not as strong as it once were.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

A Conversation Between Two College Students

A Conversation Between Two College Students

Goddess morning Royals. Giving praise and worship to the all High.

This is a passage from my book, “The Family Bond.” It is a encounter that could take place on the campus grounds between a “light skinned” and “dark skinned” student. This didn’t actually happen and it is a two part scenario so enjoy.

School Scenario: Two Colored Guys – One is Dark-skinned and stays to himself. The other Light-skinned and always with a group of followers not of color.

Dark skinned brother enters a room – “Good morning everyone.”

Light skinned brother – “And who you suppose to be?”

Dark skinned brother – “I’m a brother like you’re a brother, trying to make it in a dream, where everyone seems to want me to fail.  Who you want me to be?”

Light skinned brother – “Who you talking to?”

Dark skinned brother – “Oh, it’s not a debate my brother. It’s just, I want you to understand I come from almost the same places you came from. Just because I speak properly doesn’t mean I wasn’t raised in the hood.  It just means I was raised by people who cared how I pronounce and announce word and how I sound. That’s about it!  My color is the same as yours.  No, it’s not about color and no it’s not a race war, but a little something more!  Something that we should be doing, we should be Uniting instead of Fighting! We should be wanting more for each other.  I’m here just like you are here, to get an Education.  To walk through those doors, just like you walk through those doors.  I’m trying to better myself and make a way for my people, my young one, my children, the generation coming up behind me.  No, I’m not trying to display you, nor diss you. I’m not even trying to displace you.  All I’m trying to say, we are in the same place. That mean that your grades are just as good as mine grades.  Don’t down play me because I am here to fulfill a dream and you’re here to make a scene.  I’m not about that, I’m about another thing. I’m about trying to help the next, you down here trying to break a neck. Oh, My God, I feel my pressure getting high but why?  Because, I don’t feel like I should be the one that’s about to die.  I didn’t do anything to you!  Are you tired of seeing that?  The same thing on TV. Every time you turn around you see blacks killing blacks, I know that sounds whack.  But in reality, that’s what you are threatening me about.  How you going to take my life.  Yet in still you sit up here worried about the next white man and his life.  You are trying to be better than me.  I’m trying to be better than everybody.  Oh, not saying just you.  I’m trying to be better than him, him, and him.  I’m not trying to be that person sitting over here in the corner singing my “should’ve,” “could’ve,” “would’ve”.  I’m not trying to blame “society” for my down falls.  I’m not even trying to blame my parents for not being able to take care of me properly, but someone loved me because I am here.  Someone loved you because you’re here.  I don’t care if you fought the fight and loved yourself enough to get here.  I fought the fight and someone else loved me enough to get me here. All that really matter is that we are here! So, this way we can better ourselves.  Yeah, I know you want to be the tough man on campus.  I’m not even going to debate it.  Just because I am another brother on campus doesn’t mean I am here to be better than you in the fight race, I’m here to be better than everyone in the educational race.  That’s it!  My mindset and your mindset could be on the same page.  Just because my grades are higher than yours doesn’t mean I can’t get you up on that level.  Why I can’t pull my brother up, because that’s my whole means, the whole reason I am here, is to help better my society.  Help better my people. I’m not here to kill nobody, not here to degrade nobody.  I’m only here to help me. That’s what my loved ones sent me here for.  I’m saying you don’t have none, I’m not say no one cares.  That’s not what I am trying to say, so don’t read into this the wrong way.  I need you to understand. I’m just here trying to be a man, the same reason you are here.  I’m not here to show up nobody, nor raise nobody’s hopes pass where they are.  I’m not here to even the score.  Naw, that’s not what I am here for.  I am here to better me, because that’s who I know.  The only person I know. I don’t know you, but Hi! I would like to introduce myself.  I’m your brother from another mother. My name is “Love,” that’s me.  Oh, you don’t want to shake my hand? That’s fine! Still makes you a man.  It didn’t make you less than, just because you didn’t want to do one thing, introduce yourself to me.  See I already know who you are!  I always know who everyone is, everywhere I go. I make it my business to know who’s around me. I need to know what kind of danger my life is in, whether they are of color or not, because no one can be trusted.  You are proving that to me right now.  Our colors are the same.  You match me perfectly.  Don’t even know if you are related to me. All I know is every black is not black and every white is not white, every green is not green and every blue is not blue. Some are off white, eggshell white, cream but not all white, just representative of white. Some is midnight black, blue black, black but once again just a representative of black.  Some are greenish blue, and representative of green and blue.  Some browns are tan, khaki, beige and cocoa.  So, every color isn’t the same color and every heart isn’t the same heart.  Just like every person of color isn’t the same person of color.  So, what I need you to do is understand this, is that I am here to run the race and nothing more.  So, allow me to run the race and make it to where I am going, and I’ll stay out of your lane.  By the way my brother, you have a great day! PEACE

Don’t look at people for who you want them to be but for they really are. Give them time and they will show exactly who they are and if they then you have met who you are looking at, spending time with, and care for. Change people! this world sure can use a lot.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

When Life Have You on Pause

When Life Have You on Pause

Goddess morning Royals.

Sometimes we get stuck and then fall into a world of despair and leave no room for repair. We get lost in our own imagination and thoughts that it becomes overwhelming. We think the worst and fear it as well. We just want life to go back to the way things use to be. We rather live in the past and hope that we don’t change much in the future. We pray for things to remain the same in this time of hopelessness. We start to shut ourselves off from the rest of the world. We go into a dark place and dare light to shine anywhere near our comfort zone. Is this what we really need or want for ourselves or is it this is what is safe at the moment? Do we wish the safety zone could last forever because we fear the unknown?

The truth of the matter is we need repair or rebooting. We need that little push or hint to get us going. We need to feel wanted in order to have a sense of self worth. Many people say that don’t need any validation but we do need acknowledgement of our existence. We might not want to be seen all the time but we do want to be remembered occasionally. We want to be liked by at least one person in our life time to have a sense of love, happiness, and even life itself. Someone who knows that you were nice, loving, caring, thoughtful, and alive. Most people who have disassociated themselves from this reality, was hurt by someone whom they really loved, cared about and gave their all to, but didn’t received it in return or maybe that  special person died with their love. This doesn’t mean that you check out, that mean that you have been validated in the fullest of life, love and experienced true happiness. Don’t give up on people just because death came between you or hurt found your doorstep. Remember not all people are hurtful, destructive with their words or selfish. As for death we all have to meet the creator someday. Sad that some go sooner than others but it is of the great design. While you here though make the most of it and enjoy it.

Getting lost in your imagination isn’t always a bad thing. Some times it is a great thing, especially if you create something wonderful from it. Don’t slip into a fantasy that will never come true or in a reality you can’t make it come true. This can be very damaging to your psyche, giving you false hope of any future. Dream big and then do something about it. Create hope for generations to come and know that you have done something you never thought would happen in reality, change. Everything you have seen whether good or bad had came from one idea, dream, or someone’s imagination. So don’t allow time to freeze you but allow it to show you where you are and where you are going. Head for the future!

I know we love a certain point in our lives wherein we were our happiest, brightest, fun loving, caring and most inspirational selves, we could have been. We want to relive that moment over and over again. Once it happened we want it to last for a life time, but when it doesn’t, we feel hurt and wish for that moment again. Stop! Create new moments when you start to feel like all the excitement and joy is gone. Every moment should mean something to you but it shouldn’t be a place you stay. Memories is just that a place to revisit but not a place to stay. The fact of the matter is if you relive the good time then eventually you will have to relive the bad as well. So remember the good and move on into a new memory to look back on and say “good times,” but don’t stay. You can come back whenever you feel like it but remember keep looking forward because you never know where you are heading.

If you don’t explore what the world has to offer you will miss your calling. Don’t just assume because you are good at one thing you wont be great at something new. Don’t get hooked on what people say you are good at but get into things they say they can’t see you doing because it isn’t you. Explore what greatness you haven’t master yet and discover things about yourself even you weren’t aware of, passivity is creativity. Motivation is self contagious. Dreaming is just what you haven’t created yet. Darkness is just a closed door waiting to be opened, or a empty space wanting you to shed light to fill it. Your possibilities are infinite.

Don’t live or love in your should’ve, could’ve would’ve and regret not doing it but just dreaming it.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Update on My Existence

Goddess Morning Royals

Sorry I haven’t been sharing with you all and yes I know I missed “Timeless Tuesday and Monday as well which is usually Manic but what can you do.  I have a reason but not an excuse.

My son has an amazing opportunity to do STEM (Science Technology Engineering Mathematics) at the Naval Academy for this week and so we have been getting up extra early and leaving for Annapolis to do that.  It is only for a week but it is a grueling week for him.  Then we he is finished there he has been accepted in the STEM Robotics program as well STEM Technology programs for the summer.  This child of mine is great and showing.  On top of all that he will be perfecting the Violin and competing in Karate as a Brown belt.  So yes I have been extremely busy.

My daughter has re-enrolled in school to get her Doctorate in Pediatrics while continuing to work at the Private practice she works now, nursing.  This mean I have become a full-time Grandma now and have to keep up with the glambaby.  She is my life anyway so I am already to do that.

My oldest son will be perfecting his craft in drumming and electric Keyboarding.  He also received his BAHA attachment which mean he will be hearing clearer now.  So I am excited about that.  He will continue to work and love life he tells me.  No arguments there.

As for me, myself and I slowing down on my PH.D in Neuroscience once again so my children can pursue their dreams. I have no problem in doing so because I have a wonderful family.  I may fuss and yell but they are my world and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. I am however proceeding with The Village Cry foundation to help family rebuild, restore and return to the strong family and community we need to keep our children future alive.

There you have it what I have been doing and why I haven’t been blogging.  Not to mention for a few days I was under the weather but I am alive and on my feet so I am still able to make things happen.  So #GOTEAM on all fronts.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Just One of Those Days

Goddess Morning Royals

First giving praise to the Lord for blessing me with another day to enjoy life, love and the pursuit of happiness for financial growth. Second, sending condolences and blessings to all the families of those who have suffered a loss. May the Lord provide you with strength mentally, spiritual and physically to continue on with the absence of your love one.

Have you ever had one of those day you wish you woke with a different attitude or feeling? This is that morning, I do declare. I wish that the headache I woke with wouldn’t have been there. I already prayed that the Lord take it away but in the meantime I am cooping. I didn’t sleep well last night and for the life of me I have the foggiest notion of why. I know one thing with all that I didn’t accomplish, good sleep, well rest body and mind, headache (well that I accomplished but didn’t want) it is going to be one of those days. I am not going to be up for much nonsense today I can tell you that.

However, I am blessed with this day and I will not squander it just lying around. I will do something if not much today but hair or clean my room. Something light will be done today. Wish me luck on accomplishing something meaningful today. Anyway, dinner was great last night. Oh and I don’t know about you all but leftovers of a great meal mean twice as nice for me.

You all have a great, blessed day and don’t allow the rain to get in the way of your sunshine.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove