Manic Monday! See Me; See Me, Find Me!

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High. Saturday and Sunday post have finally been added, go and check them out. I apologize for the delay.

Have you ever gotten lost or found yourself lost? All you want is to be found. All you want is for someone to see you. All you want is someone to find you. No not hide and go seek but lost! I mean they see you but do they really see you. You don’t look lost to them but deep within yourself you are, lost. You can’t seem to get it right, together or understand life. You seem to do well, but it just doesn’t feel right. It feel inevitable but will never end, like it just keep starting over and over again. You just want answers but all you get is more questions. I get that!

The feeling of being lost is so real that you feel trapped when you are around people because they seem like they are clueless to what is going on around them. Like they all want to be found but no one is looking or them because they can’t see the real them. They only can see what facade they display, but you can see their pain, hurt, insecurities, and shame. You know because you are lost with them. You think that you have no shame, no hurt, no insecurities, but you definitely know of pain. You want to scream, SEE ME! SEE ME! SEE ME!, but you know no one will hear you. You know no one will see you. You just sit, wait and praise that someone will see you, to find you, and to help save you from you.

Find me, find me, find me, I am right here. I am here, please find me. I don’t want to be lost anymore. You can be right in the same house with someone, laying in the same bed, eating the same meal, but still they can’t see you nor find you. You want it to end but how? How can I end this feeling and find myself, because no else is looking? You want to be free, you want to be found, you want to be seen! Look in the mirror, see yourself for who you really are and who you can be. Don’t see yourself for who you think other will want to see or be around or noticed, really see yourself for you. You are the one that is lost so you must be the one to find yourself. You are the one that wants to be seen then finally see yourself, especially if you been seeing isn’t who you are.

Take time to look for you, look at you, love you, in order to see you, find you, and love who you are. People aren’t going to make you happy if you aren’t happy and pleased with yourself. SEE YOU! SEE YOU! SEE YOU! Because I do. FIND YOU! FIND YOU! FIND YOU! Because I found you. BE YOU! BE YOU! BE YOU! Because I see you!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Family

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

We all have a family whether big or small; good or bad; blood or not. It could be someone or a group of people you grew up with or the real deal. See in my family I have 23 siblings, hundreds of cousins on my father’s side and equal as many on my mother’s side but I only beginning to realize the intensity of having so many family member. I thought having 23 siblings was tough imagine having hundreds of personalities to deal with and trying not to burst. See we are a close knit family and get even closer when we are threatened.

We all have our own lives yes but we can’t seem to stay out of each others lives as well. We fuss and fight sometimes with the physical but we always manage somehow to work it out. We dance, sing and eat together more often than most families. We share our history with our new generations. The one thing we haven’t done is abandoned one another. We have yet to see our family out on the streets or in rare form suffering. We weren’t raise to leave one another behind and so we don’t. We bare and grin but we don’t close our doors nor turn our backs on one another. We have our grandparents to thank for that passion and compassion. Even though there have been some abandonment involved by those who shouldn’t have the rest of the family picked up the slack.

We have nursed our sick and elder into health or made it comfortable in their last days with us. We have fed the whole family and didn’t care the cost. We have adopted other’s babies within the family so that no one else will have to do what our family can do. Some have slipped through the cracks but we never stopped looking for those ones. We teach our children the meaning of family with hopes that they continue on the traditions and love. We are an affectionate bunch and show it as well as say it. We gather in honor of graduations, great achievements, proud moments, births, as well as death. We are a enormous family but we have big hearts and large shoes to fill. So when we leave we pray that the ones we leave behind will remember us like we remember the one’s who have went on.

So on this day and everyday, I honor my family with love, encouragement, dedication, determination, motivation, reconciliation, passion, compassion, empathy and sympathy. I glorify them because of their achievements, persistence, ability to get back up when it seems as though the world has knocked them down. I praise them for not giving up on themselves and the others around them. I accept that some need more help than other and I don’t deem them less worthy of being praised because it take a lot of courage to ask for help or to receive it when you feel as though you don’t deserve it. I commend them on going after their goals and passion. To make life better for themselves and their families. To show our children that any and everything is possible if you just believe in yourself and allow other to believe in you as well. I cherish your dreams as if they were my own. Follow your heart to the fullest because we got your back.

Way to go and continue on FAMILY. I LOVE YOU FOR JUST BEING YOURSELF AND NEVER COMPRISING WHO YOU ARE FOR ANYONE.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove