Time Alone

Goddess morning Royals đź‘‘. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

There are moments in time when your life seems to be spiraling out of control or maybe in a place unfamiliar to you. A time when you are out of touch with reality and not sure how to separate fiction from facts, lies from the truth, right from wrong and so on and so forth. You know yourself and this doesn’t seem to be the norm or what you would do. This isn’t of your character, and if no one else can see it, you can. Your behavior is that of a savage, your mindset is of suicide, and your motivation is that of a murderer. Hate had fueled you with anger and destruction. You aren’t quite sure who you are nor what you’ve come to be, but deep down inside you know this isn’t you.

Step back and look within yourself to find that person you know you are. Don’t feed into the “this is exactly who you always were it just had to come out of you” bullshit. Take time alone and fight your demons. Close your ears and open your heart, feel your way back to life and love. Close your eyes and recall your memories of happier times of joy and passion. Remember how it made you feel. Allow that feeling to take control of your soul once again before you do something that you will regret, can’t take back, can’t stop yourself from doing that may cause you or someone else hurt and pain. Breathe in life and exhale death. Embrace love and shun hate. Kiss joy and refuse destruction. Hold hands with passion, compassion, empathy and sympathy. Leaving behind misery, pain, agony, devastation and horror. Goodbye darkness, and evil; for I have found the light. A path in which I got off and now have returned to for me and not for others, to redeem my soul and my destiny.

This was me! I had to regroup and get back on track. I had to come to terms with myself before I got in that place I knew I couldn’t come back from. Sometimes it takes a while but this time it took longer. I was in such a terrible state of mind and action. I lost focus of me. Never mind the love ones around me, I lost me. I had to find me because I had no idea who I was and where I was going. I sat in darkest room with silence until I was sure it was me who would emerge. I needed this for me in order to be me once again.

I speak from experience, #Depression is real and shouldn’t be taken lightly. Find what makes you whole and hold onto that when you are falling apart. I had to hold onto me because I know that I am a great mother, friend, wife, daughter, sister, and most of all great person all the way around. I have moments when all the evil in life comes to the surface and all I want is to destroy anyone and everything in my path. Then a little part of me, a little voice says, “This isn’t you! Find yourself and make you whole again.” That’s when I withdrawal from society and find myself, so I can be whole for my love ones and family, but mostly for myself.

I love me and wouldn’t have it any other way. I tell you all this because I know there is someone who is going through it right now and need to know they aren’t alone. Even though it feels like they are, they aren’t. Just take sometime and find yourself and if you need some help reach out, I’m always here to help. I know the feeling all to well. We all have some things we must fight through but if you can’t do it by yourself then reach out and ask for help. The right people are out here and are will to help. All you have to do is be willing to receive. It’s hard I know but don’t allow the darkness to win, fight back!

Sending you all kisses and love. #GoddessLove.

Unlocking The Truth Within

Unlocking The Truth Within

Goddess morning Royals. First give praise and worship to the all High.

How honest are you with yourself? How much do you lie to get ahead in life, love, and business? How many times have you been caught in your web of deceit?

Honestly we all have done it and frankly gotten away with it at some point. Am I correct? Of course I am. We have all lied to ourselves, to our significant others, friends, family members, our children, and others just to either look good at the moment or just because we can’t help it.

Question: How many of us have gone back and made the lie a reality to stay face or told the truth that you lied? Not many some even pile onto that lie and make it worse. Why in the world would we ever do that but we have? How many of you all are cheating on your significant other, taxes, diets, church, or family? When I say cheating on your family, you pretend that the family you were born into isn’t your family or prefer another family and spend more time with that family. Again everyone have done it, whether it is your significant other’s family because they make you feel special; or you taken on the role of a mother or father to someone else child because they respect your more. How about lied on an application because you thought you were best qualified for the job? Then realize you have over stepped your boundaries. Lied about degrees you don’t have and when it was time to produce them couldn’t. Lied about your abilities to function in a fast pace work environment and well fell short. Still we have all committed some sort of facade in our lives that we aren’t proud of or wish we never done it to begin with, but did and now have to live it out to its fullest.

What to do? What to do? Well I tell you what we can all confess to the mess we have created. We can hold our heads up high and be proud of who or what we are instead of creating a person who we know we can’t live up to. For those who have cheated on someone, just let them go, because clearly they aren’t the one for you or else you wouldn’t have been able to cheat on them, even in revenge. Now I don’t have to tell you about those taxes because the IRS will get you soon enough and at this rate they are going they are more vigilant of those falsifying information. Don’t go to jail or ruin your life over a few hundred dollars. I promise you the lawyer will cost more, so why bother. Unless you are so dumb or cheap to opt out for a public defender, then you already know your fate. As far as life goes, we all want or have wanted to be someone else at a moment in time, but remembered we are just who we are. I say be proud of that and own it. We have all wanted to be better than the person we think people see. Unsure who that is through their eyes we try to make ourselves more and still end up being less. Then feel sorry about it and wallow in self pity, doubt and hatred not only for ourselves but for those we tried to impress.

The thing is I like who I am and don’t need any hallelujah or thank you Jesus from no one to just be me. I am comfortable in my skin and whoever don’t like it then they don’t have to deal with it. When I look in the mirror I see who I am and not who everyone wants me to be. If you start trying to change for other then when you look in the mirror and don’t recognize who you have become, then who are you? You can’t claim yourself because you need validation from whoever you changed for to tell you who you are or have become. Now I get it some of us need change but for yourself not for others. If you know that you are a horrible person then yes by all means change and quickly please. But it you are a good person and don’t quite fit in then you just don’t fit in. Make yourself a magnet and have them try to fit onto you and who you are not the other way around. If they still don’t attach themselves to you then maybe you are trying to fit in the wrong places, and faces.

Believe me there is a group for everyone just like that is a person for everyone. Who knows you might just end up being that life of the party that you were hoping for in the beginning. Then again you might just fine that piece that fits so well that you don’t care if the rest doesn’t match up well at all. You may land that job that you have been wanting for so long that you now have the opportunity to turn them down. You could start that successful business you been working on for years but didn’t have the nerve or will to put yourself out there. Trust it feel good being the boss of your own destiny. No matter what unlock the true you so that you can be happy, and love who you are as a person and not what others think about you. Remember it is only an opinion and not a fact unless you accept it as who you are.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Loving Yourself

Goddess morning Royals. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I know I’ve touched on this issue before but I don’t think that most are getting it. It is a know fact that you can’t love someone and not love yourself. Without self love there cannot be any love for another. That just doesn’t make any sense at all.

Tell me how can you love someone and hate yourself or not know how to love yourself? The problem is I don’t think people really hate themselves, I think they haven’t experienced true love not even from their parents which in tells makes it harder to experience true love from another. They try but it falls short because they can’t tell if it’s real because they have no clue what love is.

Some gets a glimpse of love and then try to enhance that feeling into what they believe is true love. They think money makes it better when it seems like it is failing. Not so, for a matter of fact it makes it worse. Then you think that they don’t love you because they won’t accept your token of affection when in fact it is just the opposite.

When it comes to loving yourself, that means your self respect is in tact. That mean that you care about you and all that entails. That means that you don’t allow people to feed you bullshit and tell you that it is food. That means that you nurture and nourish yourself from head to toe and within, out. You believe in your abilities to do what you want and need for you. When responsibilities comes along you take care of them. You are in touch with who you are and know that know one needs to tell you who you are. Not where you come from but who you are within yourself. You go the distance for you and not limit yourself despite with others think about you. You challenge yourself for yourself and not for the like of others. You feel when you are hurt and laugh when you are joyful. Smile when you are happy and cry when there is a reason to do so. Knowing who you are and what you are capable of allows you to know love someone who will fit well with you and you with them. Like puzzle piece you all will fit well and not force it just because it looks like it belongs there. Once all the pieces are in their rightful place, then and only then will you be able to see the whole picture.

So love you and understand you don’t need to play nor fool anyone with love. You have to love within before you can love without.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

When Life Have You on Pause

When Life Have You on Pause

Goddess morning Royals.

Sometimes we get stuck and then fall into a world of despair and leave no room for repair. We get lost in our own imagination and thoughts that it becomes overwhelming. We think the worst and fear it as well. We just want life to go back to the way things use to be. We rather live in the past and hope that we don’t change much in the future. We pray for things to remain the same in this time of hopelessness. We start to shut ourselves off from the rest of the world. We go into a dark place and dare light to shine anywhere near our comfort zone. Is this what we really need or want for ourselves or is it this is what is safe at the moment? Do we wish the safety zone could last forever because we fear the unknown?

The truth of the matter is we need repair or rebooting. We need that little push or hint to get us going. We need to feel wanted in order to have a sense of self worth. Many people say that don’t need any validation but we do need acknowledgement of our existence. We might not want to be seen all the time but we do want to be remembered occasionally. We want to be liked by at least one person in our life time to have a sense of love, happiness, and even life itself. Someone who knows that you were nice, loving, caring, thoughtful, and alive. Most people who have disassociated themselves from this reality, was hurt by someone whom they really loved, cared about and gave their all to, but didn’t received it in return or maybe that  special person died with their love. This doesn’t mean that you check out, that mean that you have been validated in the fullest of life, love and experienced true happiness. Don’t give up on people just because death came between you or hurt found your doorstep. Remember not all people are hurtful, destructive with their words or selfish. As for death we all have to meet the creator someday. Sad that some go sooner than others but it is of the great design. While you here though make the most of it and enjoy it.

Getting lost in your imagination isn’t always a bad thing. Some times it is a great thing, especially if you create something wonderful from it. Don’t slip into a fantasy that will never come true or in a reality you can’t make it come true. This can be very damaging to your psyche, giving you false hope of any future. Dream big and then do something about it. Create hope for generations to come and know that you have done something you never thought would happen in reality, change. Everything you have seen whether good or bad had came from one idea, dream, or someone’s imagination. So don’t allow time to freeze you but allow it to show you where you are and where you are going. Head for the future!

I know we love a certain point in our lives wherein we were our happiest, brightest, fun loving, caring and most inspirational selves, we could have been. We want to relive that moment over and over again. Once it happened we want it to last for a life time, but when it doesn’t, we feel hurt and wish for that moment again. Stop! Create new moments when you start to feel like all the excitement and joy is gone. Every moment should mean something to you but it shouldn’t be a place you stay. Memories is just that a place to revisit but not a place to stay. The fact of the matter is if you relive the good time then eventually you will have to relive the bad as well. So remember the good and move on into a new memory to look back on and say “good times,” but don’t stay. You can come back whenever you feel like it but remember keep looking forward because you never know where you are heading.

If you don’t explore what the world has to offer you will miss your calling. Don’t just assume because you are good at one thing you wont be great at something new. Don’t get hooked on what people say you are good at but get into things they say they can’t see you doing because it isn’t you. Explore what greatness you haven’t master yet and discover things about yourself even you weren’t aware of, passivity is creativity. Motivation is self contagious. Dreaming is just what you haven’t created yet. Darkness is just a closed door waiting to be opened, or a empty space wanting you to shed light to fill it. Your possibilities are infinite.

Don’t live or love in your should’ve, could’ve would’ve and regret not doing it but just dreaming it.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Just One of Those Days

Goddess Morning Royals

First giving praise to the Lord for blessing me with another day to enjoy life, love and the pursuit of happiness for financial growth. Second, sending condolences and blessings to all the families of those who have suffered a loss. May the Lord provide you with strength mentally, spiritual and physically to continue on with the absence of your love one.

Have you ever had one of those day you wish you woke with a different attitude or feeling? This is that morning, I do declare. I wish that the headache I woke with wouldn’t have been there. I already prayed that the Lord take it away but in the meantime I am cooping. I didn’t sleep well last night and for the life of me I have the foggiest notion of why. I know one thing with all that I didn’t accomplish, good sleep, well rest body and mind, headache (well that I accomplished but didn’t want) it is going to be one of those days. I am not going to be up for much nonsense today I can tell you that.

However, I am blessed with this day and I will not squander it just lying around. I will do something if not much today but hair or clean my room. Something light will be done today. Wish me luck on accomplishing something meaningful today. Anyway, dinner was great last night. Oh and I don’t know about you all but leftovers of a great meal mean twice as nice for me.

You all have a great, blessed day and don’t allow the rain to get in the way of your sunshine.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Timeless Tuesday

Timeless Tuesday

Goddess Morning Royals

Well we are back with another Timeless Tuesday and all I can say is how thankful and grateful I am to have timeless moments to share with the people I love. I have always had someone to share in special moments with because I have an enormous family.  We may all get along but I get along with them all and some more than others.  See I love my family and pray they love me as well.  If not I can deal, but I still love them.  Every now and again I spend quality time with someone who wants me to be around, and we manage to always have a great time.

We all may not have a wonderful time as a whole but in parts it is just wonderful.  I understand that not all personalities can get along even though they are from the same tree.  I understand that not all the branch like to be bonded together by the bark of that tree but the leaves on tree can get along and sway in the wind together just fine.  Still I try my best to make every moment count and worth my attention and love.  I can only continue to pray for the day when we all can just get along and be the family in which the Lord have made.  That my friends will be the ultimate Timeless Tuesday that will warm my heart until the Lord calls me home.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

I Heard The Village Cry

Goddess Morning Royals.

First, Praise THE LORD for allowing the surgery to go as well as it did for my daughter yesterday and blessing my daughter will continuous life.  Thank him for the blessing the surgeon and keeping him and his mind, body and soul in great spirits.  Bless the staff at the hospital for taking such good care of her.  Thank you Lord, thank you!

Welcome to life and love this Saturday morning.  I’m going to start a small women’s group to assist with life in general.  We will deal with issues of our children, love, life and finances.  We will build on positivity and work on entrepreneurship.  We will start small hopefully and grow into a movement of women empowering other women.

I am calling it #TheVillageCry.  We have to do something because our children, and young fathers are leaving our families to fast and very frequently.  They are ending up dead or in jail, which to me is like been wounded and no one is there to care for them.  I am starting it in a few weeks so I am making plans now this day.  I’m making T-shirts and pamphlets as we speak.  I can no longer standby and watch the destruction of our youth, which is our future.  I am looking for a space to rent until I am able to purchase a permanent space.  This movement is of the Lords because he is the one that sent it to me.  Look for it coming soon.

THE MESSAGE

As I sat down on the steps of my home tired from my day, I could hear weeping.

It was mild but still I could hear it.

At times it would get so loud I could barely think.

I got up from my steps in search of its location

I thought it sounded like it was coming from the West of me.

So, I traveled West.  No, I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I return to my home, and the weeping start to form from the East.

So, I traveled East.  No, I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I returned to my home, and the weeping started to come from the South of me.

So, I traveled South. Still I didn’t find it, but it was strong in that direction I could swear.

Then I returned to my home, and the weeping started again but now North of me.

So, I traveled North. I did not find it, but it was strong in that direction this I swear by.

Then I returned to my home.  The weeping never stopped but got louder at times.

It sounded like a mother, then again it sounds like a father, either way I wanted to know who was crying.

Then a scream hit me like a ton of bricks almost knocking me to my feet it was harsh.

That’s when it became clear and the sound was now just a steady cry, Why Lord?! Why?!

I had no idea where it was coming from, so I felt to my knees and started to pray with the cry.

Dear Lord

Hear our cry for we are hurting and suffering and asking why.

We want the pain to stop but aren’t sure how but we need for it to stop and now.

We just want to live in peace and walk with joy, for happiness is our goal and love is the mission.

We want to watch our children grow and nourish into families as you have planned, but the Devil is diverting your plans.

Lord we are on our hands and knees asking for your mercy.

Spare your children from the pain and suffering.

Cover them in the blood and protect them from harm.

We have suffered enough and plea on the blood for redemption and mercy.

Stop the violence that plague our communities and the loss that haunt the mother’s and father’s soul.

Provide them with strength and guide them with love so they will have the knowledge they seek to help stop the young children from self-destruction.

Be the foundation for the village needs you and cry out for you in ways that makes the heart bleed.

See the blood shed for we know it is too much, whether it is rap, murder, shootings, stabbings, or vehicular.

Know we understand and is calling on you Lord for guidance, for we are no more.

In the holy name we pray AMEN.

When I rose, I was told to bring the people together and create a new Village and so I am.

Welcome to the Village.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove