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Timeless Tuesday…Back

Timeless Tuesday…Back

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

We haven’t explore a timeless moment in a while so I thought it would be nice to make a new memory. Today I am going to spend most of my time with my sister. I gave two of them necklaces that shows their position within my heart. It wasn’t much, but I like for them to know how much I care.

We are great when we are together. We laugh, sing, dance, and share stories of our past. We also talk about where we are heading for the future. We speak on politics, love, friendship, and relationships. We remember our parents whether its a good or bad memory, but we always show them love. We respect one another by remembering we all lost both parents and not just one of us. I remember our oldest brother for everyone since they were quite young when we loss him. We pay homage to the ancestor and their struggle to provide, shelter, and survive. We live by the code we all we got. We eat together and then play together. Yes, I know we’re up in age but that doesn’t stop us from being children at heart and showing our children a great time. We reminisce on the birth of the children we can remember and welcome the new ones we had no idea were coming or exist.

There is conflict within our circle but for that moment we put it aside so that everyone can enjoy being a family. We can be hateful when everyone has depart and back to their own lives, but in that moment in time, it is timeless and we cherish it like it is our last. We capture it because we don’t plan the next one, somehow it just happens. I guess its the ancestors telling we need a get together because from nowhere we emerge and from within we come together as one. The joy we have at those moment will never tell the story of what is really going on within our family and shall never tell the story to outsiders. Its not fake its just we can’t help but love one another as a whole, because together we all we need, and separately we all have. Family is all we have to look forward to and in a crisis it is all we want.

No matter what our bond is unbreakable and many have tried but all have failed. It is the same way for the rest of my family, especially my brothers, don’t mess with us because we are one when we have to be and greater when we need to be. We may not have much but we do have one another, there is nothing I desire to have more than my FAMILY. They are my TIMELESS LOVE. So no matter what is going on in your family be proud, honored, and blessed to have them for they are your heartbeat, air, thoughts, and most importantly, your DNA. Enjoy them while you have them.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Loving Yourself

Goddess morning Royals. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I know I’ve touched on this issue before but I don’t think that most are getting it. It is a know fact that you can’t love someone and not love yourself. Without self love there cannot be any love for another. That just doesn’t make any sense at all.

Tell me how can you love someone and hate yourself or not know how to love yourself? The problem is I don’t think people really hate themselves, I think they haven’t experienced true love not even from their parents which in tells makes it harder to experience true love from another. They try but it falls short because they can’t tell if it’s real because they have no clue what love is.

Some gets a glimpse of love and then try to enhance that feeling into what they believe is true love. They think money makes it better when it seems like it is failing. Not so, for a matter of fact it makes it worse. Then you think that they don’t love you because they won’t accept your token of affection when in fact it is just the opposite.

When it comes to loving yourself, that means your self respect is in tact. That mean that you care about you and all that entails. That means that you don’t allow people to feed you bullshit and tell you that it is food. That means that you nurture and nourish yourself from head to toe and within, out. You believe in your abilities to do what you want and need for you. When responsibilities comes along you take care of them. You are in touch with who you are and know that know one needs to tell you who you are. Not where you come from but who you are within yourself. You go the distance for you and not limit yourself despite with others think about you. You challenge yourself for yourself and not for the like of others. You feel when you are hurt and laugh when you are joyful. Smile when you are happy and cry when there is a reason to do so. Knowing who you are and what you are capable of allows you to know love someone who will fit well with you and you with them. Like puzzle piece you all will fit well and not force it just because it looks like it belongs there. Once all the pieces are in their rightful place, then and only then will you be able to see the whole picture.

So love you and understand you don’t need to play nor fool anyone with love. You have to love within before you can love without.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

A Conversation Between Two College Students

A Conversation Between Two College Students

Goddess morning Royals. Giving praise and worship to the all High.

This is a passage from my book, “The Family Bond.” It is a encounter that could take place on the campus grounds between a “light skinned” and “dark skinned” student. This didn’t actually happen and it is a two part scenario so enjoy.

School Scenario: Two Colored Guys – One is Dark-skinned and stays to himself. The other Light-skinned and always with a group of followers not of color.

Dark skinned brother enters a room – “Good morning everyone.”

Light skinned brother – “And who you suppose to be?”

Dark skinned brother – “I’m a brother like you’re a brother, trying to make it in a dream, where everyone seems to want me to fail.  Who you want me to be?”

Light skinned brother – “Who you talking to?”

Dark skinned brother – “Oh, it’s not a debate my brother. It’s just, I want you to understand I come from almost the same places you came from. Just because I speak properly doesn’t mean I wasn’t raised in the hood.  It just means I was raised by people who cared how I pronounce and announce word and how I sound. That’s about it!  My color is the same as yours.  No, it’s not about color and no it’s not a race war, but a little something more!  Something that we should be doing, we should be Uniting instead of Fighting! We should be wanting more for each other.  I’m here just like you are here, to get an Education.  To walk through those doors, just like you walk through those doors.  I’m trying to better myself and make a way for my people, my young one, my children, the generation coming up behind me.  No, I’m not trying to display you, nor diss you. I’m not even trying to displace you.  All I’m trying to say, we are in the same place. That mean that your grades are just as good as mine grades.  Don’t down play me because I am here to fulfill a dream and you’re here to make a scene.  I’m not about that, I’m about another thing. I’m about trying to help the next, you down here trying to break a neck. Oh, My God, I feel my pressure getting high but why?  Because, I don’t feel like I should be the one that’s about to die.  I didn’t do anything to you!  Are you tired of seeing that?  The same thing on TV. Every time you turn around you see blacks killing blacks, I know that sounds whack.  But in reality, that’s what you are threatening me about.  How you going to take my life.  Yet in still you sit up here worried about the next white man and his life.  You are trying to be better than me.  I’m trying to be better than everybody.  Oh, not saying just you.  I’m trying to be better than him, him, and him.  I’m not trying to be that person sitting over here in the corner singing my “should’ve,” “could’ve,” “would’ve”.  I’m not trying to blame “society” for my down falls.  I’m not even trying to blame my parents for not being able to take care of me properly, but someone loved me because I am here.  Someone loved you because you’re here.  I don’t care if you fought the fight and loved yourself enough to get here.  I fought the fight and someone else loved me enough to get me here. All that really matter is that we are here! So, this way we can better ourselves.  Yeah, I know you want to be the tough man on campus.  I’m not even going to debate it.  Just because I am another brother on campus doesn’t mean I am here to be better than you in the fight race, I’m here to be better than everyone in the educational race.  That’s it!  My mindset and your mindset could be on the same page.  Just because my grades are higher than yours doesn’t mean I can’t get you up on that level.  Why I can’t pull my brother up, because that’s my whole means, the whole reason I am here, is to help better my society.  Help better my people. I’m not here to kill nobody, not here to degrade nobody.  I’m only here to help me. That’s what my loved ones sent me here for.  I’m saying you don’t have none, I’m not say no one cares.  That’s not what I am trying to say, so don’t read into this the wrong way.  I need you to understand. I’m just here trying to be a man, the same reason you are here.  I’m not here to show up nobody, nor raise nobody’s hopes pass where they are.  I’m not here to even the score.  Naw, that’s not what I am here for.  I am here to better me, because that’s who I know.  The only person I know. I don’t know you, but Hi! I would like to introduce myself.  I’m your brother from another mother. My name is “Love,” that’s me.  Oh, you don’t want to shake my hand? That’s fine! Still makes you a man.  It didn’t make you less than, just because you didn’t want to do one thing, introduce yourself to me.  See I already know who you are!  I always know who everyone is, everywhere I go. I make it my business to know who’s around me. I need to know what kind of danger my life is in, whether they are of color or not, because no one can be trusted.  You are proving that to me right now.  Our colors are the same.  You match me perfectly.  Don’t even know if you are related to me. All I know is every black is not black and every white is not white, every green is not green and every blue is not blue. Some are off white, eggshell white, cream but not all white, just representative of white. Some is midnight black, blue black, black but once again just a representative of black.  Some are greenish blue, and representative of green and blue.  Some browns are tan, khaki, beige and cocoa.  So, every color isn’t the same color and every heart isn’t the same heart.  Just like every person of color isn’t the same person of color.  So, what I need you to do is understand this, is that I am here to run the race and nothing more.  So, allow me to run the race and make it to where I am going, and I’ll stay out of your lane.  By the way my brother, you have a great day! PEACE

Don’t look at people for who you want them to be but for they really are. Give them time and they will show exactly who they are and if they then you have met who you are looking at, spending time with, and care for. Change people! this world sure can use a lot.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

When in need!

When in need!

Goddess Evening Royals.  Sorry for the late post, really long day.

People seem to forget when they were in need of you or your services to the point they start to believe that you have a problem with them instead of the other way around.  When they get in a bind or in trouble they seem to remember you are the family, friend and resource.  As long as you are needed they are sweet, kind and humbled, until the moment you finish fixing their problem then they are rude, distasteful, disrespectful, obnoxious, and ignorant.

They seem to forget in that moment that you are the one who just save their home, car, life, job, hopes, dreams and maybe their relationship.  They seem to think after you have solved their problem that you needed them.  They can’t remember favors you have done for them, money you have lend them, or a place you have given them.  They gain amnesia right fast and will have the audacity to challenge you to the time they returned some of your money, like they lent it to you.  They will recall they time they gave you a ride after they have borrowed your car a million and one times.  They will recall watching your child after you have been the daycare provider to all their children.

They will turn tail and run when you recall all the things you did and still are doing for them.   As soon as you decide you aren’t doing for them or anyone else no longer then you are the worst person they have ever met.  You are no longer loyal or family.  You are a two-faced person or maybe even a liar and petty, but they can never understand until they are the ones in the position they put you in.  Then they want to come to you and tell you all about how someone always need them.  All you can do is look because you know you just had this discussion with them not even that long ago.  It may have gotten ugly but you still being you listen and then walk away.

Here is what I say to you when you are always the giver.  Learn NO!  It may sound cruel but it will save you a lot of arguments, and headaches.  It may even say you heartache depending on the person in questioning.  If you just can’t say NO then you are in for a long life of the same thing for the rest of your life and from all people who are just users and never will be givers, well not to you at least.

Stop being the welcome mat and start being the leave your problem at the door mat. Make a mental note this vessel isn’t for bargaining if you are for giving as well as taking.

The Truth About Her

Introduction

Have you ever met a woman who you just had to have?  Have you ever wanted her to yourself?  If she had children, you wanted to send them away to be with their father or just away period?  She was the kind of woman who made you laugh, cry, smile, blush, shy away, nervous and horny all in one breath.  She could make the muscle in the pit of your stomach hurt for days and you had no idea why.  She could make you desire the deadliest poison even if in your right mind you knew it could kill you.  If not then let me introduce you the Mercedes Walker.  Her body alone makes you want her but her mind in its self is a whole other concern by itself.  She let you know from the beginning it will only be about sex and then when you do, you forget about life and want only to do what she wants and says.

Mercedes Walker was born ordinary but she grew to learn that it’s Mercedes’ world and she used that power to where she is today.  Did she use the numerator to get to the denominator?  The truth is she know things that most know but are afraid to use it to the best of their abilities.   So, the answer is simply, yes.  Without lifting a hand, she always gets what she wants because she always has someone and everyone to answer her every waken beck and call.

What do you asked could a woman do with so much power and why would any want to rule in such a dysfunctional manner?  Well Mercedes is not your average woman and she will never be any less than what she can be.

This World

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This world has some serious problems not oh here we go again problems but why do these type of people exist problems!

Why racism doesn’t seem to be up close and personal to most it is quite the opposite for others. The south and many third world countries are plagued with such discrimination still. We as people are not evolving, our mindsets will not allow us as humans to get alone. To look at each other as one and not as two. To be honest somehow some way we all emerge from one uterus. Think about this; if Eve was the first woman and she was given the task to birth the world, then im sorry people that is one vagina not two. Just because there would be more soon after to birth the world doesn’t mean that’s not where it started. So with that being said you hate your family, you kill your family, you rape your family, you brutalize your family, you rob your family, you curse your family, you assault, hurt, destroy, intimidated, manipulate, criticize, molest, neglect your family! What would it take for you to stop? Because what we have learned as people is that what we put out in this universe comes back to us, whether good or bad, right or wrong, it comes back to us time three, or ten fold. Wow isn’t that amazing that you can do right and get it back times three or ten fold, meaning better than what you’ve done, and in the same breath do something bad and it comes back worst then what you have done.  I know that you all are saying some people get what they deserve but isn’t that for the creator to decide not mere mortals. I know in some circumstances you question his judgement but think about this you would have to if you didn’t do wrong in the beginning. Its just karma, it happens to all of us not just some of us but all of us. We are all born into innocence but not of innocence. We are taught violence, hate, betrayal, love, life, survival, discrimination, happiness, joy, pain and suffering. It is also instructed in our DNA. Its what we choose to do with it that make us who we are and who we become! The question is do you want to live in this world or survive in this world?
Greed will not define me, nor nepotism, jealousy, hatred, plagiarism, or condemnation. I am not profound by others ignorance, beliefs or will of destruction. I shall not be judge by another because of the hate, beliefs, greed or what have you, because of who I am as a human being, because of my heart, likes, beliefs and judgement. I will not dislike, like or harm you because another feels as though I should. I am my own person, with my own thoughts, feelings, actions, abilities, concepts, and views! I don’t need yours in order to live in this world, because struggling stops now! I shall not or no longer be bound and gagged by your ways, your rules or your laws but by those of the Lord shall free me from your strong hold!
This World I laugh at you! Pahahahahahahahaha!   

Hatred!

Hatred such a ugly word, but one often heard.
Is it possible to hate what you have created?
Pregnancy over masturbation; sex or abstinent.
Reality hits hard when a struggle becomes desire.
Your worst fear becomes your world.
Failure is what your dreams are about and success is your nightmares.
Hating the world for your lost but loving on one for your gain.
Embracing heartache and pain.
closing out happiness and love.
Hated by all and loved by one.
Dare to be real and want to be fake.
Hatred lyes deep down inside until you allow it to live on the surface.
Walk around everyday with a frown on your face.
Sitting in corners with a room full of people, hoping no one wants to meet not talk to you.
Never wishing for happiness on depression.
Distancing yourself from the world but never get far.
Feeling closed off and not accepted.
Lying to yourself about your feelings, wanting to cause pain but not sure where or how.
Hating yourself because of uncertainty, but devoted to confusion.

If it doesn’t stop now and change for the best you could end up in the darkest hole by yourself for real. Then you’ll see pain, frustration, anguish, desperation, and dysfunction like you never saw or felt before in life.