Manic Monday! It’s Not The Same

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I cry knowing I can’t talk to you and you reply. I call for you but you don’t answer. I speak your name into existence because I’m afraid of forgetting you. It’s hard not seeing you, touching you, giving you hugs, joking and playing with you.

Baby brother I won’t question your decision but I will your actions, why? Why would you not come to me for support, love, comfort, understanding, or just to vent. I was here! I always been here! I came searching for you only you weren’t to be found. I search, I called, I begged, I pleaded and still nothing. The streets are loyal for all the wrong reasons, but I guess you were fulfilling your destiny. It wasn’t my place to intervene and so you are finally where you belongs. It hurts so bad but I know I can’t be selfish about your journey 💔. However, I know you are in a better place mentally, physically, and spiritually. I have to accept your temple isn’t available but your soul and my memories are forever a part of me.

Rest now for I will have to do without your physical and love and live with your spiritual. Forever loved and remembered Sonny Shears 😭😭💞.

Tell them now before it’s too late that you love them. Forgive them now for it’s not your blessings they need but that of the Higher Power. Pray for them always so their soul can journey on.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Saturday Sit Down With Lady K.

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

People are saying they are doing all they can, but are they really? How is it that modern medicine cannot cure age old warfare? Is it because modern technology was the cause of it being weaponised?

We have to stop thinking that the same people who created this problem will be the Savior. It’s not going to happen! They are getting exactly what they wanted, panic, fear, violence, means to an end. They can’t save you; you have to do it yourself.

This is when the village should stand for something because we already fell for what they were selling. Where have it gotten us; broke, divided, conquered, begging, scared and heading to death. Now for the survivors they say we have nanotechnology and a cure that can help. Was this all just an experiment? Were we all your guinea pigs to see what works and didn’t work?

Are you doomed by the hands we voted to lead or by our own design?

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Confession Thursday – We In It Now!

Goddess evening Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

We all know it’s too late to turn around now, tuck your tail, swallow your statements, cower behind your people, use the media as an excuse, or apologize for what you have done!

We have loss love one, homes have been destroyed, career and job lost, mental health unresponsive, heart health unstable, insanity becoming the new normal, bad habits forming, murder rate is up, racism climbing, fingers point, police morale is no longer, but somehow we still push through because we are in too deep to let go now.

We have to see this thing through to the end, or are we at the end? Pray for better or a new beginning!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Manic Monday! Violence With Pandemic Doesn’t Mix Well

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

The streets of Baltimore has once again proven to be suffering, relentless, withered with death, and hungry from poverty.

A weekend of beautiful skies, warm weather, and of course violence has filled Baltimore streets. The stay at home order doesn’t seem to work for the people of Baltimore or Maryland for no reason. I wish I could say it was just my people but it isn’t. I drove to the store to get my necessities and to my surprise people of all nationalities were roaming, gathering, and taking part in all sorts of activities. Yes the police was present, but not bothered.

A lot of people were out and about without mask, no social distancing practices were in place, sporting events were happening in the park. Cookouts was going on, funerals was happening as normal but most importantly, shootings and stabbings also was happening.

It’s was a violent weekend, everywhere I turned I saw police with tape up because of shootings, stabbings, car accidents, hit and runs. It was a weekend of hell because people were still dying of COVID-19 Coronavirus. I’m not sure about the rest of the world but Maryland is doomed if we don’t get ourselves together.

In my area zone 18 alone it was reported 20 shootings and stabbings back to back. If this is how the rest of the life I have is going to be I rather live in seclusion until my last breath. People aren’t thinking, they just know they are hungry, struggling, and need to feed their family. We get it but you’re not the only one. Of course you can only think about you and yours but killing someone’s family member isn’t going to make your home no better.

I get it, times are the hardest they ever been, but stealing a life isn’t the way. When you take a life, you take away their support, love, happiness, make a void, supply then with anger, and so the process starts. For your act against their family now someone must retaliate for their loss one and so the genocide never ends. The violence continues and the innocent people pay the price; cost of funerals, loss of life, pain and suffering, hate, restless night, terrifying days, deteriorating health and thoughts of revenge.

Please people help one another stop destroying each other for pennies they throw at us. If I have two dollars you are welcome to one. Now we both have shared wealth! You don’t have to kill me for it all, because if it’s that important you can have them both for my life. It means more than money!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Confession Thursday – Unwarranted

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Is it necessary for us to keep practicing social distancing? I’ve seen videos and photos of large groups of people unmasked as well as in settings. Is it likely that people still don’t believe this can happen to them or is it that they don’t care?

No one wants this virus but we all want our lives back. We want freedom! We want to go back to work! We want to eat at restaurants again! We want to be able to make doctor visits again! We want to visit the dentist! We want our hair done, cut, or shaved! We want our nails and toes done! We want to swim, vacation, sun bathe, spa, cookout, club, movies, bar hop, or just chill with friends! We want what we want but at what risk in wanting it?

What level of risk are you willing to take to get your life back?

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoodessLove

Wednesday – Grievance

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

They say in order to grieve you must have to things, a heart and love. Just because you have a heart doesn’t mean you love; and just because you love doesn’t mean you have a heart!

Don’t mistake one for the other and don’t think that everyone can be both. Some people love from the head and not from the heart; it’s called obsession. Wherein they only think they are in love and become possessive of you. Then those who have a heart may love but not sure how to express it.

People with hearts feel and grieve because they have love within them. The grieving process is different for everyone and what’s weird and very disturbing is a person who loves from the mind grieve but with anger as their hurt and revenge as their healing process. If you’re suffering who make another suffer more. You know the feeling and wish that upon someone, then yes you are a monster. The grief period is where comfort is needed not hurt and revenge for more pain and suffering.

I’m hurting, grieve, mourning, suffering, restless, fatigue, slowly dying inside but I don’t wish this on anyone. This demon I will face with my family behind me but I will face it head-on. I will not cover it up, bury it, block out out, pretend I’m not hurting, not will I reduce myself to death. I will cry, laugh, engage with others, remember them, love them continuously, speak of them aloud, dance to their favorite songs, sing their praises, reminisce on the life they lived for they were a part of my life and I am grateful to have loved and known them.

Thank you for sharing in a part of my grieving process.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Timeless Tuesday! Mine Is; Is Yours?

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

Mother’s Day turned out good for me. I spend most needed quality time with my children and we spoke on our loss as well as our feelings. I smiled and cried, laughed and sat in silence. I listened as well as poured out my heart and soul. We ate seafood, pasta, chicken, spaghetti and drunk wine. We came together and we all needed it.

Today I wake from a long over due night of blissful sleep. My heart is still heavy but hurt less. My mind calm but worry like a matriarch is supposed to. My emotions are at easy with patience and understanding. Not fully transformed but at least it’s a start. Dealing with the issue instead of covering it up keeps me from becoming a patient at the nearest hospital.

Thankful for the family I have even if we all don’t see eye to eye but at least we do take into consideration feelings and opinions. We are outside ourselves that we are above the love and live given to us. I love my family; they are my timeless memories and moments.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove