Standing in ?

Goddess Morning Royals.

Have you ever given someone your all and in return got nothing back?  Have you?

Well I have thought that they were the one at fault for not giving me their all.  I felt like they didn’t love me or that they were just bad for my well-being.  I argued and fussed until I couldn’t do it no more.  They cheated and so did I, thinking two wrong made it right but it didn’t.  They lied and so did I, thinking what good for them is better for me, it wasn’t.  I prayed for better days but they only got worse.  When they did I blamed God for my misery.  I even stop going to church just because I thought he turned his back on me.  All this was wrong and I had to find myself in order to believe in Love, Life, Happiness, Joy, and most important God.

No one can give you something that is already embedded in you.  If you love yourself who care if no one else does.  If you are happy with yourself who care if other aren’t happy around you.  I had to stop allow others misery into my life and making itself comfortable.  I have to realize that my joy was within me and that no one else could bring me something I had to release myself.  I had to realize that God didn’t want those relationships to develop because they will only cause me exactly what I was praying to get better, more misery.  I had to understand that I hold the key to my happiness because I loved me enough to enjoy me, care for me, live for me, and no other can live my life for me.  I have to be my everything because others proved that they were my nothing.  I was losing sleep, weight and out on life because I stood still waiting for someone else to assist me in getting through life.  Please don’t get me wrong, I had made time for the wrong people and I couldn’t see it because I allow myself to believe it was true love when in fact it was a failing lust of attraction or want of belonging.

Now that I am being sorted and pursued by someone who may be the one, I am so not sure how to allow someone in my life again.  I gave so much of myself to the wrong person that I am afraid to give of me to the right person.  This is a broken record for most of us but for me it is a rotating wheel of embarrassment.  I know I shouldn’t be embarrassed because it is just life and we all must experience the bad in order to make it through the good.  Lessons have taught me how to weather a storm and prepare for battle when it is my turn to fight.  It also taught me how to humble myself and know when the battle isn’t mine to fight. The roads that I have traveled is road that I don’t regret but ones that I know not to travel again.  I may have been down a few streets that lead to dead ends and saw the sign but ignored it because I figured there was a way out somehow, but had to end up turning myself around and driving back down the same street sign that told me it was a dead-end in the beginning.

All I am saying is that the signs be there and we ignore them to satisfy our own needs but then when the roads get too rough we want to point fingers but how and why.  We are the ones that ignored the signs in the beginning.  If only we took the time and paid, respect and ahead to the signs in the beginning we would have reason to say things like, “My mother told me it would be days like this.”  “I should have seen this coming from a mile away.”  “I knew you wasn’t any good from the beginning but.”  “I wish I had listened to myself when my conscience told me not to do it.”  or my favorite of all “Why Lord, why!”

Well I can just imagine him saying “I told you so.  I sent you all the signs that you ignored so I had to allow you to take this mission on your own and come around when you really wanted to listen to me.  Now my child you are in timeout until I give you the right person.”  Still we try our hands and ignore him because we are so afraid of growing old without someone.  In fact as long as he continue to provide us with breathe that we are never to old to find true love.  But we are human with faults and will continue to do it our way until we are fed up, then we want to sit down and listen, because at this point we are tired of the bull and can’t take it no more.

Well this is me right now, but still I love in fear of getting hurt.  I won’t allow myself to get close to anyone anymore because I am afraid of the pain I have already experienced.  So what I have done is put that out there and told the person that I am not into casual anything.  If you are sure this is where you want to be, just be patient with me and ride along until we are where we both need to be.  Our wants can hurt us but our needs won’t.  He agreed and so we are on this journey together.  Thank you for listen to my stand because I am still sitting still but with a slight movement when the Lord allow me to.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Wicked Wednesday

Goddess Morning Royals.

So I know it is hump day but I want to weigh on topics on my mind.

First, people and their lies. I mean come on if you know you are lying then just don’t say anything.  I witness this shit every day.  Motherfuckers don’t know how not to lie once someone believe in their first lie.  I just want people to learn to live in their truth.  I’m saying if you are married then be married, don’t be unhappily married and looking.  Stop playing games with other’s intelligence, hearts and lives.  This is how people are dying every day.  The world is made up of people who are looking for real love and willing to kill and die for the right person.  When they feel as though you are the right person but you are holding onto your married significant other and the shit hits the fan.  Lord have mercy.  Why make life that much difficult for you, your significant other, and the third-party.  This side business isn’t a joke and I witnessed it destroy people lives.  So please learn to live in your truth before someone isn’t living at all.

Secondly, you sad sacks of shit who play on people’s hard-working money just to get high.  Now you know no one is for that bull shit.  If you want to get high then you should be able to buy not beg for money to get high.  If you cannot afford to pay for your highs then I suspect this is your time for recovery.  No one should be losing their lives because you have an addiction.  If you don’t go somewhere with that shit already!  Why is it that you are the one with the problem and everyone else around you have to pay for it?  The worst part of it all is when you say stupid shit like, “I can quit whenever I want to.”  but continue to do so and think everyone is against you.  No everyone is tired of paying out of the ass for your addiction.  You know what really turns my ass is when they go to rehabilitation and come back to doing the same exact thing.  Wow and with support that wants to keep them clean and healthy!

Third, money hungry people.  Okay everyone wants to make money and should but when you take advantage of others just to do so, I want to punch you in your face.  People who keeps other’s income and tell them they can’t live with them or come to their house.  Who in the hell does shit like this?  Or when they don’t have an income but live off someone else’s income and demand shit?  I know you are lying.  If you don’t get your ass a job or a career, hobby with benefits and get the fuck out of my face with that nonsense, I am going to clock you one good time.

Fourth, you cowards who just murder people for no reason, just to get street creds.  Now you know where is the morals and values for life that needs to be taught in the homes.  I’m not sure what happened and when the communication and value of life fell but I know it needs to be picked back up and fast.  Family members murdering one another over nothing or for stupid shit that could have easily be avoided.  This isn’t time change this is ignorance, stupidity, and blatant disregard for life.  Realize you are taking away someone’s child, love one, father, sister, daughter, son, grandmother, grandfather, and definitely someone’s future.  Carjacking, gang violence, illegal drugs, prescription drugs, money, mistaken identity, clothes, shoes, chains, watches, and just because doesn’t give you a reason or a cause to murder someone in cold blood.  Then like a coward run and hide.  The Lord sees everything so judgement will be handed down whether you believe it or not.

Last but not least, you miserable as people who hate everything about life.  You don’t want anyone to advance because you are afraid of advancements or you are stuck in life.  I’m sorry your feet is stuck in cement but I didn’t plant you there and I didn’t trap you in.  I will help you out but you are so angry with the world for your mistakes that you believe that everyone owe you something for nothing.  I mean you have done anything for yourself but expect someone to give you something.  My famous quote is “I can’t be your everything and you be your nothing!” by Kenya Spann.  That doesn’t make any sense at all.  You all need a hand up and all you want is a handout.  I’m sorry that isn’t going to happen.  I can offer you a hand up but a handout mean you are incapable of doing anything.  If you are capable of begging then you are capable of doing something with your life.

Finally, these child molesting, raping ass, they need to kill themselves, motherfuckers.  I can’t with none of them.  They all need to be hung by the balls and split from dick to throat.  I have no remorse for anyone being male or female who prey on children or the unsuspected.  They really should be killed on sight either in the act of violence or once proven guilty.  Nothing else to say about that.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Mother’s Day Weekend

Goddess Morning Royals.

First and foremost Happy Mother’s Day to all my Queens who are real mothers.  I didn’t blog over the weekend so I can have this opportunity to share with you all my whole Mother’s Day Weekend.

Secondly, did you all enjoy your mother’s day with your love ones?  Tell me about your Mother’s day.

Now down to business, this weekend had every emotion you could possibly think of involved.  I laughed, cried, smiled, was, sad, was, happy, danced, rejoiced, prayed, blushed and more.

I meet new people and spent time with the family.  I wasn’t sure what this weekend was going to bring because I had cancelled my dinner for the whole family due to me taking care of my daughter in her recovery stage after her accident.  By the way she is recovering just well.  Today she will try to return to work, and move on from this accident.

Anyway my sisters, cousins, and friend came to visit during the weekend and I cooked dinner but didn’t realize that family other than my children would be joining us.  Good thing I cook a lot anyway, or some of us would have been starving.  We played games, sung songs, danced, got to meet new friends of the family, and said goodbye to the ones we lost to a lack of confidence to be apart of this enormous family.  We colored and painted with the children.  We just enjoyed ourselves as mother, but most importantly as a family.

There were sleep overs happening, and kick ball being played, we joked and laughed until it hurt.  We reminisced until we cried.  We signed all the Mother’s day cards for my mother’s and we said our peace for her to continue to rest in it.  We know she’s watching over us because ever time we get together she is our topic.  Good looking Mommy.  Considering I wasn’t expecting anyone I would love to say I have a great time with my family.  Father’s day will be even better.

Continue to Walk with the Lord Betty S. Moore.  We love you always and forever.

Sending you all love and kisses.  #GoddessLove

Goddess Evening Royals.  Yes today was  hectic but I recovered from it by spending the remainder of the day with my sister.

So first I know that all my days are supposed to be timeless but I try my best to make Tuesday’s timeless because I getting over Monday blues, and know Wednesday is hump is hard to get over if I didn’t nothing to make it worth living that Tuesday.

On this Timeless Tuesday, I took in breakfast with my sister Kinisha and then we have a nice relaxed day after the chaos first.  Not to spoil my day I will not talk nor introduce you to that madness but instead I will share my moments of joy with of my sister and I.

It is always a pleasure spending time with family if you ask me and well even if you didn’t I love to share.  Since I always pick up my granddaughter London from school, my sister joined me in doing so today.  We all went to the playground and played on the swings, and chased each other around.  I felt like old but enjoyed myself like a child.  I know I am going to pay for it in the morning but who cares, I love spending that quality time with my family.  Who know what tomorrow will bring, I don’t so I try to live in the moments given.  Besides it was a warm and sunny, beautiful day.  I will see what tomorrow will offer me and I will share it tomorrow but today welcome to my Timeless Tuesday.

Go and make the rest of you day Timeless and enjoy life as it is yours to enjoy.

Sending you all love and kisses.   #GoddessLove

Prayer Request

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Lord I come before you with troubling hearts of worry for love ones; friends of love ones; and so many more. We are in need of your mercy Lord for our love one’s suffer. Only you knows their pain we just know of our love for them because we have become accustom to their presence and their hearts. But you Lord you know so much more, you know what right for them we only know what we aren’t ready to accept and that death. So even though my prayer is for the sick, weary, and shut in, its for those who hearts will ache in their absence. I ask Lord that in you movement because you never move wrong you reach out and touch the hearts of those who are aching from worry for those love ones lost, gone home, bare holding on, and just getting started w/life. I ask that you cover the family and friends in the blood of Jesus and help them to remember you pain as well. Help them to understand you suffered a great lost as well and that their lost is no lesser than your but you will/walk w/them in their time of need. Not all will cross over some will make a recovery because it maybe their storm but not their time. So help weather the pain of all who is of your loving, merciful, wonderful, anointed powers and bless their hearts and spirits. Guide their footsteps, mind, body and soul away from selfish thoughts and ignorance. Place them in a better mind frame and space so they too can understand your direction. In Jesus name I pray, hear my prayer request, Amen!

Oh How Good the Lord has Been to Me!

Psalm 13:1-6 KJV

How long wilt thou forget me, O Lord? for ever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me? Consider and hear me, O Lord my God: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death; Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved. But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto the Lord, because he hath dealt bountifully with me.

Oh He woke me up this morning and gave me strength to realize I didn’t need to hold on to the past to make the future look bright! He brought me from hurt and pain to comfort and understanding! He touched each and every last child of mine and allowed them to breathe another day, to live another day, to rejoice another day! I couldn’t ask for more, but he saw within Himself to give me more! He made a way when I thought I was at my end and He continue to bless me as we speak because the spirit in me is allowing me to share with you all. Oh you have no idea what He can do and what He has done for me and my family and we are and always will be eternally grateful to Him and for Him. We praise him all day and all night. We are even thankful when we think we should have and He doesn’t allow us to have, because we understand it is not ours or our season to have. Oh thank you Lord God for everything, in Jesus name, Amen!