A Look Into A Woman’s Existence

Watch her eyes
“A little boy asked his mother, “Why are you crying?” “Because I’m a woman, ” she told him.
“I don’t understand, ” he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, “And you never will.”
Later the little boy asked his father, “Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?”
“All women cry for no reason, ” was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry…
Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked , “God , why do women cry so easily ?”
God said
“When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up , and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances , even when her child has hurt her very badly.
I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.
And finally , I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.”
“You see my son , ” said God , “the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears , the figure that she carries , or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes , because that is the doorway to her heart – the place where love resides.”
Please send this to ten beautiful women you know today. If you do , – You will boost another woman’s self-esteem. I’m also waiting
Pass it on to men too – perhaps they will then understand “why women cry….
Dedicated to beautiful ladies.

Understand Me

Understand Me

Goddess Morning Royals

My worth is beyond your measures.
My joy is not measured by your happiness
My beliefs are that of my own & shall be treated as such.
My treasure is worth hunting for but w/guidance & respect for rare jewels.
To take me as a fool or that less than I am will only allow you to fall victim to my venomous prey.
I have a poison within me so destructive it can only be cured by pure love.
The devastation that I can release upon someone is unbearable.
Take heed to my warning for I understand me
The closeness of reality I bring makes you realize I’m not here to fulfill your fantasies only your hopes & dreams.
Only when you grasp the importance of my presence will you understand what life have to offer.
I’m not here as a testimony to your success but as a testament of what God can really do.
If he can make a devastation look so calm before the storm and after show you survival of your own natural disaster.
Then your belief in him should measure pass your materialistic things & rattle your soul.
So as I pass by you or intertwine with you, doesn’t mean you survived or passed his test it just mean you are able to withstand a storm.
Rebuilding without heartache or pain means you pass & survived with faith within your Lord.
Then & only then shall I move on either continuing on with you on your journey or alone As he shall have me do because I understand me & my part here on this planet he has been bee n written for me allow my short well lived life upon.

But my story doesn’t end here for it is just beginning and every year a new chapter has to be read because like it told you my story is written.  Don’t jump ahead to the end for you might miss something thinking you know how the story goes and you don’t.  For this book is full with twists and turns to keep the reader interested in the character herself.

Sending you all Kisses and love.  Enjoy life

Intimate Thoughts Straight From The Heart

Intimate Thoughts Straight From The Heart

Misunderstood Child

People misunderstand that I am a child; a very special child, but a child nevertheless.  Each and every day I try to do my best.  I get out of bed the same way they do, feet first on the floor and into my slippers too.  I do all the things normal people do, but with the help or aide of my sisters and mother true.  It’s not a lot of things I can do by myself, but my mom helps me to pray to God every day for my health.  I might be mischievous sometimes, but tries to be good.  People say, “He is bad,” No I am a child that is misunderstood.

People misunderstand the things I cannot do to be bad.  When they say that, it just makes me mad.  My temper is sometime unexplainable, but deep down inside I am really loveable. They say he is bad as he can be, but they haven’t been through the things I have you see.  I would have been done home, if God hadn’t shined his light on me.  I just tried to live my life, because God allowed me back twice.  But I am still here bad or good.  In my heart, my mind, my body and soul just misunderstood.

Dedication:      September 23, 2002

My son is my world along with his sister. The time we share is priceless.  Sometimes he can be a little difficult to deal with, but he is still my little boy, always and forever.  Love you Ryheem.


Confused Wife

 I woke up this morning feeling good about life, because last night I thought I was someone’s wife.

Said Good Morning just can’t remember to whom.

She/he said “I love you, boo.”

Now I do have a lot of friends, three relationships I cannot end.

They keep me happy for different reasons.

One is a man who helps out with life; wouldn’t mine me being his wife.

The second man who is doing all he can, to make me his woman.

The third a woman who holds the cards to my heart.

Who don’t know what to do, or how to be in charge.

I have love for all three, but confused as to who wife I should be – time is invested in all three.

Life is not simple for me.

How do I let go when my heart is into all you see?

This triangle is fucking with me.

Keep them all I say, until they want to pull away.

Confused wife fucked up life.

Devotion:         September 27, 2002

This might seem wrong, but they know about each other and have no one complained to me about it yet.  They do however, have options to get out while the getting is good. I don’t think that either one wants for the other to have me all to themselves.  So, I am in this triangle but don’t want to let go myself.


Developed Woman

It took some time to see how much you have grown.  I am really proud that you stand on your own.  Just take a minute and realize who you are and have become a very developed woman.

It has been some years since that day you walked into my life then walked out not once but twice.

I can’t have you do that anymore. I am not trying to even the score.

Especially when I say this; this woman here you are sure to miss.

Take my blessings why don’t you. I guess you thought my heart wasn’t true.

You were sure my heart could only belong to a man, so you took you love and ran.

In life you chose your own path.  You thought life with me wouldn’t last.

A few days, months, years or a life time, you couldn’t hang in there until you were mine, or yet a better part of me.  You are developed woman set free.

Unclaimed as is our relationship isn’t that a shame.  Free to believe, free to do as you please, but just not with me.

My heart hurts, but I cannot show you that, my love for you is trapped.

Black holes keep it in the dark with no walls or exits. All I can do is write this message.

Seal it with a kiss and place it in a bottle sends it with love and wait patiently for a signal from above.  With your eyes opened wide and your soul set free.  Wish that you will see that I am here where you need me to be.

Developed woman, Shay set free.

Dedication:      October 5, 2002

Shay is the woman and love of my life.  You hurt my feelings and broke my heart twice, but I will never allow another to do it again.  Once by a female is enough so you will always be the one who got away with all the love for another woman that I can handle.  Afraid of what people say, she is not the one for me.  She is scared to experience true love but at the same time still not ready for her own life style, how can I expect her to adapt to mine.


Shay Love

 The sun, the moon, the earth growing beneath my feet, cannot compete with the love that makes my heart beat.

The water I drink, the thoughts I think, with the eyes that winks and blinks, to the man who takes two looks.

The hollers and whistles she receives, for every moment spent for the time lost, for every second of the day, your spirit and love will carry me all the way.

Will meet you at a place only you and I know, whether it’s up high or down low it doesn’t matter, as long as we are together.

Through the storms and into the fire; Shay love gets me hotter and hotter.

A thick chick, nice breast, thick, thick, thick!

Large hips, sexy lips!

Shay love makes me whipped.  Take in her scent, what a treat?  I am sure this woman, you will love to meet.

Dedication:      October 5, 2002

Shay what will do with you.  This relationship is not working out for me. You being in Louisiana and me here in Maryland, long distance isn’t something that we could have kept with the love we have for one another.  Sorry love, it hurts more when there is no one close to share it with.

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I’m too….

I’m too blessed to be stressed.
I’m too good to be hood.
I’m too nice to be iced so I’ll say it twice, too nice to be iced.
I’m too cute to get the boot.
I’m too hot to be stopped.
I’m too bossed to be lost.
I’m too grown and it’s shown.
I’m too old to be scold, but beauty to bold to hold.
I’m too real you know the deal
I’m too smart for you to wreck my heart or change my thoughts.
I’m too loved from the man above.
I’m too sexy to be messy.
I’m too bad to be sad.
I got life by the hand.
I’m too strong to be wrong.
I’m too in tune with God to get stopped by y’all.
Listen I’m not saying I’m better than you just better than what I use to be.
I  have too much self love to be kicked or shoved.
I’m too black and proud of that.
I’m too up to be down.
Now that’s all I’m going to say about that!
I’m too much of me to allow you to take away from me.

The Wants of Woman

The Wants of Woman

Women want a man that is not afraid to cry.  Women want a man who have no doubts about being a man and can show his boyish ways.  Women want a man to kiss her with passion and know what is going on in his mind.  We want to roll over to breakfast in bed.   We want to roll around on the grass with a man in our arms with smiles and laughter.  We want a man to feel when we are sad, take us in his arms and hold us like everything is going to be alright.  We don’t want to hear it; we just want to be able to feel it.  We want to be laid out on a bed with silk sheets and our man stand there with roses in his hands, telling us that roses aren’t worthy enough to be in our presence, because we are so beautiful and mean it.  We want to feel our man lips softly pressed against our bodies and the heat of his warmth flow through our veins.  We want to be able to be by ourselves and know that our man isn’t somewhere doing something that he have no business doing.  We want to be with our girls and him with his boys and know that we are the only one on his mind.  We want him to know that we are the only woman he will ever need.  We are women listen to our wants we are old enough for our wants not to hurt us, so that’s why we are women who is free.  

Women want a man that will take care of us.  We want him to rub our backs, caress our body, sooth our soul, relax our minds, and make passionate love to us without touching us.  We want him to be able to please us both physically and mentally.  We want the kind of man that is all ours.  We want the kind of man that is real and down to earth.  We want a man to know if we claim that corporate empire that it’s both of ours.  We want a man that is not on a high horse but riding beside us.  We want a man that when our pockets are empty he will fill them.  We want a man that can be our right hand when ours are unable to do.  We want a man that can cook, clean, pay bill, take care of the kids and keep us pleased.  We want a man that can work a 9 to 5 or 10 to 6 and keep home safe, even if he isn’t there.  We want a man that can do all these things and still make us sing, like a bird in love.  We are women hear our wants.  We are old enough for our wants not to hurt us, so that’s why we are women who are free.

We want a man who looks us in the eyes and tells us what’s on his mind without blinking or pausing.  We want a man who wouldn’t lie, because lies led to loneliness.  We want a man that stands tall in any situation and proud of what he is.  We want a man with pride, but isn’t afraid of help.  We want a man who gives us chills when he smiles at us.  We want a man who gives us butterflies in our stomach when he touches us.  We want a man who will push the hair away from our eyes and tell us not to hide our beauty.  We want a man who is there for us when we think that we lost the prettiness in us to tell us that it is gone nowhere and mean it.  We want a man that is handy in all areas of life.  We want a man that we can roll over to in the morning and he calls us his lovely wife.  We want man without a doubt who is always will to work it out.  We are women hear our wants.  We are old enough for your want not to hurt us, so that’s why we are women who are free.  



It’s funny how advice is always given to you even when it’s not needed, by someone who is either in a bad relationship or have no significant other.  They can tell you what’s messed up about your lover.  Can give you the ramifications of your life but have no idea what’s going on in their own.

Relationships are made up of three rules that must be upheld:

Intimacy – The bond which, should never be broken.

Reverence – Opinions of others is worth more than love alone.

Sincerity – the one thing that makes you loves more and want more of your significant other.

With all of these things comes communication and faith amongst one another.  Better sex, love, desire, togetherness, passion, dedication, and the ability to weather any storm, graze any plan, overcome any obstacle in your way. 

Listen because I am only going to say this once if your partner cannot battle the storm, leave in the mist of war or argument, then he/she is not the one. 

Believe it or not the problem is not resolved until it is weighted against all odds. 

Both participants must agree open heartily or lightning will strike again, and when it do if the problem hasn’t been dealt with, then you will feel the power of an hurricane upon your shoulders.

Believe that there is someone for you do not settle for anything, if you do I guarantee that there will be more rough road to surpass.

Where I Live

Where I Live

In the city of shame and yes everyone is to blame.
Abandonment looks so foreal, vacant and burned down houses.
Children walking around ominously, what’s the deal.
Because in this state 16, school you don’t have to attend.
So their English they shall never begin.
Their souls they shall never mend and their needs for the children  has come to an end.
This is where I live.

Where violence is the entertainment and sexuality is a sign of displacement.
Where no one cares anymore,
Where folks even get killed at God’s doors,
And freedom is no more.
Where drugs is the teams project and the corner is the workplace.
Where killing is an acceptance and life is a
This is where I live.
Where gangs is your families, and love one is the target.
Where homes are lost and job applications are no longer expected.
Where hope is gone and pride is pushed aside.
Enough is enough.

Stand up sisters and brothers take back what is yours.
Your children, no our children, our lives, our streets, our dignity, our pride, our hopes, our dreams, our lover, our faith, our destiny, our beliefs, our lives, and now live where you want to live.