Getting into Love with a closed Heart 🙄

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I GET IT! I DO, I GET IT! You tried loved and your heart got broken. You still want love but aren’t sure if you can do it again and go back through heartache and pain. You shield yourself from love while trying to find it. Honestly, that isn’t right and is going to keep you from love. It’s like trying to look for something in the dark with your eyes closed. Doesn’t make sense right? Right!

But I get it, I swear I do! NO ONE WILL EVER PENETRATE YOUR HEART AGAIN ONLY TO BREAK IT AGAIN! Then I’m sorry to say your not looking for love; you’re looking for sympathy, empathy, and lust but not love. Sure everyone who had their hearts broken could use some sympathy, lots of empathy and a good fuck to get over the ex. Are you really getting over them or just getting through the idea of them.

I mean you can’t go looking for love with a closed heart and expect to find true love. First you’re not being true to yourself. A closed heart will find a lot of things but love isn’t one of them. I GET IT. Shield your heart until I see that the other person cares (not love) for you and then open your heart. See there lies the problem, you can’t want something that you aren’t will to give. Sorry you are going to just have to take that chance and lead with an open heart so that love can find you. I know you don’t want to get hurt but chances are you could be hurting yourself.

Faking a likeness to see if it’s love isn’t finding love is finding lies, hurt, mistrust, empathy, unhappiness, and lust. Well you’re still getting laid and that’s about it. Yeah you talk about your feeling and what your last relationship meant to you and how that person destroyed you but you aren’t listening to your heart which is telling you to shut up! If you already out to scare away prospects then you will end up telling that story to a lot of people who can either empathize with you but doesn’t want crazy already or those who could careless they just want the sex.

If sex leads the way to the heart then you will only have sex. Communication will be lost and so will the relationship then you’re right back where you started; broken hearted and hating life. Why is it that when our heart get broken the first thing out our mouths is how much we hate life? Life isn’t the one who did something to us. We did! First we hear everything with our hearts and not with our ears. Then we stop listening altogether and just hear what we want and but is being said. Leading to poor communication, lack of attention, uncertainty, and worst of all pain.

If you’re not listening then you’ll never know when you’re relationship ended and when that person walked out of your love, life, and happiness. All you will remember is that it was good to you, but never know how it was to the other person. You have to be conscientious about everything so you will know when something is gone wrong. If all you want is the idea of belonging in a relationship then that’s what you will get, the idea. Relationships and love take time, work, communication, give as well as take but most of all listening. You talk but you don’t listen and when you do hear you don’t comprehend because you aren’t listening.

So before you go out looking for love, know your worth; be ready to listen and communicate effectively. Know what you want and not what you see others with, because everything isn’t for everyone. All attention isn’t good attention with the best intentions. Stay positive but mostly open your mind, spirit and heart to new possibilities. The same way you don’t want to be hurt no one else wants to be broken-hearted either.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

A Curious Mind🤔

Goddess afternoon Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I wonder

Have ever watched a western? Of course you have! When the law men found what they were looking for but people (innocent bystanders) stood in their way and the say “We got the order to proceed as planned.” 🤔 Who gave the order and how did they receive it? If in fact there was no phones nor did you see a telegram being delivered! So did they have prior authorization to kill, slaughter and brutally murdered hundreds of people (Indians). If so, that’s premeditated murder of thousands maybe even millions of people but for what? I wonder

When you see people on their phones and they are loud enough for you to hear, do you ever wonder who are they talking to? I mean why is it that whatever needs to be said had to be heard by everyone in ear range? Is it because no one is really there or do they feel so unimportant that they need the attention? 🤔 Maybe it’s they feel lonely or threatened they need witnesses to their life to tell in case of their death.

Reality Television that’s scripted? 🤔😂 First you have to laugh to keep from crying that people life is so boring that they need drama to stay relevant! Who do they think they are fooling? We know it isn’t real and if it is😞🥺😢. Is that’s the reaction they are looking for to feel loved? Is America that bored for entertainment that they want people sympathy for fame? I guess they do because the only thing on tv is reality shows. Welcome to your pathetic life!

Is life so boring because of Covid no one cares about their life anymore except for Covid? Children are running rapid while others are coming up missing, exploited, sex trafficked, and others dead! Parents are making the most out of what life they have left that they aren’t parenting anymore. Excuse the fuck out of the rest of us! Get your fucking family in order and take responsibility for your actions as well as those of your children. You know the government doesn’t give a damn if they did your ass would be locked the fuck up along with your children. Or better yet you need to give a fuck so you’ll know where your children are and not ask America to help locate them or to go-fund- me because preventive measures have tragically torn your family in half. Ripping at the very fabric of your family existence because you were doing you and not your parenting duties. 🤯

I’m just curious because well that’s who I am! Stay safe, healthy and woke!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Recreate You for You

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I hear a lot of people say they need to change for the better. Then change for people in their lives who don’t care to see a change. Let me clarify: they change the outside (their appearance) but remain the same inward until others personify their existence. Then they change inward but not for the best. That hill they climb to self righteousness isn’t the same slope they slide down mentally.

As their egos are manifest into the monster no one wants to be around, their mental capacity to live within this monster isn’t the same. A conscious person or should I say a person with a conscience cannot live with themselves if their ego is bigger than their mindset. Meaning if others built their confidence and stroked their ego doesn’t mean mentally this person was ready for the consequences. They just loved the attention. As we all know all attention isn’t good attention with good intentions.

Now we have a person who is beyond their mental capacity and is spiraling out of control. They will have a mental break which either can put them where they know they belong psychologically or break them mental and leave them psychotic. Psychologically they could go back to their normal state of mind or they can mental alter reality forcing them into a state of delusions, psychotic imprisonment, uncontrollable rage and even suicide.

When it comes to recreating yourself, start where you see a problem not what you are less of yourself compared to another. Just because he or she looks like they got their shit together doesn’t mean they do. Just because they have a nice body doesn’t mean mentally they are in their right state of mind. Change what you need not what others want. In the end you are the one who have to deal with those changes because others can simply walk away from you no matter how you look on the outside. You can look the part but can’t perform the part and that’s where most start to spiral out. They got the role of a lifetime but can’t play their part and even if another isn’t replacing you; mentally you will think so and only the All High knows what you will do then.

Rather we choose to believe it or not we do witness it everyday, whether it’s within our family or within a celebrity lifestyle. Not everyone can handle change and not all should change especially if it is for all the wrong reason or people. You have to love who you are both inside and outside if not can you honestly say you love yourself. I think not. Stay true to you before you can be true to another.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Business As Usual 2022

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Fresh into 2022, and yes there’s murders already. Homicide case ink haven’t dried from last year before business as usual. This cliché “ I must get them before they get me!” Bull shit has to stop because no one is out to get you if you’re not out there doing shit to others or affiliating yourself with those who are. I know people have died or was murdered because of what another has done directly or indirectly to another. The saying … is a lie!

What you eat doesn’t make me shit!


Most deaths are indirectly the result of someone else’s doing, at least in Bodymore they are. Baltimore is famous for being called Bodymore or Bloodymore just like it’s famous for it’s harbor, Orioles and Ravens; not to mention the Black in Wax. Yes it is equally famous for its murder rate isn’t that crazy. The same thing that put Baltimore in the limelight measures out to the same thing that makes Baltimore a scary place to visit. Yet, they still visit despite the murder rate. It seems to be the attraction for people.

Baltimore story lines isn’t enough or news that’s viewed world wide, people still wants to experience it up close and personal. I don’t and will never understand the fascination with death. Me personally love and is fascinated by life. Even though “The Wire”, “Homicide”, and “The Corner” give perspective into the danger and life within Baltimore, people still travel to see if it’s true or not. For some they get what they bargained for but for others they get to live it or shall I say unexpectedly experience it and well they are the ones returned to their loved ones in body bags.

I’m not going to say stay out of Baltimore because there are some greatness to Baltimore but I say proceed with caution when entering. The idea is visiting is exciting as you have entered but with a clear understanding where you belong. If not welcome to Bloodymore or Bodymore, Murderland you’re death wish away from home. This jungle isn’t like other jungles even though there is murders happening everywhere. I can only speak for this place because this is where I reside. These inhabitants are not the same as everywhere else nor do they live the same. I can’t put them down without putting myself down so I won’t but I will say they can smell outsiders and their fear. Come to visit leave to survive, it’s just that simple.

Before you think about taking a life. Think about this man’s family not once but twice. Just think before you do what you’re about to do. Put yourself in this man shoes! Before you pull that trigger. Just think what would you do if you were this man’s mother, brother, sister or father. Before he hit the ground, remember for your children or family you can no longer be around. You are now on the run. Missing out on your family’s growth, worth, and life. All because you didn’t think twice. Scared to be a man, afraid to throw them hands, not sure how to make that stance. Played yourself instead of taking a loss. Had to go and get a gun to show you are the boss. But you’re not, you’re a coward. Couldn’t take that ass whipping and learn how to fight back. Now all do is look over your shoulder and watch your back. Took that man from his loved ones. All because you couldn’t fight so you grabbed a gun. Now you the one! Target in your back, ducking and dodging bullets. Always looking paranoid and stupid, thinking you could have done something different. Before you killed that man, maybe you should have squashed it. Thought about it and just shook that man hand.
Maybe next time. What next time you already did the crime?! Now do the time, either way life or death, because there is nothing left. Before it got this far, you could have walked away and both could have survived to see another day, because there’s always a better way.

Everyone claims maturity but no one shows it. If you stay in grown folks business then you develop grown folk status. If you brag, boast, and flash your business like a child; jealous, thirsty and hungry disrespectful mother fuckers are going to come for you and all you have. You have to move different when you are successful. You have to give back without needing the spotlight or glory to do so. It’s only when you advertise you are better than others do they know to come after you for what you have. Other than that they see you and keep it moving. You don’t have to hide yourself success just don’t flash it or you bring unwarranted attention that you neither want nor deserve.

Find peace within yourself so you are proud of who you are and what you have accomplished. like Biggie said

You’re nobody til somebody kills you! I don’t wanna die.

Biggie Smalls

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Thankful Notes for Thanksgiving

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

I am truly thankful for my sanity.


Ok…I am thankful for my sanity


I am so thank to have beautiful, smart woman like you as a friend.


Good morning gorgeous, I am thankful you are in my life.


First, i am thankful for another day above ground. Second, always for family. Even tho we don’t get to spend time with each other like we should but I love all of yall no matter what. We all that we have at the end of the day…Juurrrheard


I am thankful for life to live through what I have and still be able to carry on. Amazing and inspiring as a family we are growing slowly but the love is there.


I am thankful for my life, my family, and friends and my relationship with God


I am thankful for me 🙂


Add a quote for something you are are thankful for 2021.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

The United States Homicide for 2019

It’s a travesty that people just cannot get along in the same breath. The humanity is lost and the inhumanity is insane. There is no love left!! EVERYONE IS SELFISH AND LOOKING TO GET SOMETHING OUT OF THE NEED TO HELP! The ALL HIGH is not sure of the people.

Before you start to bad mouth Baltimore on what you have been hearing check your state to ensure you can. I know there’s somethings we have here that needs to fix to make right but that’s all across this country. “THE LAND OF THE FREE!” What a joke?

Everywhere have problems but I believe there is a way for healing and recovery for this country! Let’s find it together so we can live comfortable with one another.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Unfair Act and terrorism on Trinidad 🇹🇹 Sea

Where are the help for the massive oil spill in the Trinidad sea? They are in desperate need of help and support. Share this video so they can receive the necessary help and begin recovery.

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Sexually Active Women and Their Prey 🤔

Goddess afternoon Royals 👏. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Does the female sex drive deplete after 40 or does it increase?


Well for this woman it has increased, but I’m quickly learning not for all women. I am 48 years of age and I can honestly admit that I want to more now than I did as a younger woman. My drive is hungry and the feed is slim to none. Does that frustrate me? A little so I concentrate on other things to prevent from wanting it so much. Let me tell you it doesn’t always work. Some days I want it all day and others just enough to get me through the day, but everyday is a must.

Now do I get it like that? No trust if I didn’t I would enjoy every moment of it but unfortunately for me I cannot bring myself to unfamiliar partners. So, I suffer in silence while anger creeps up in my space, forcing it’s way out into hurtful words.

I do self please but it only do so far. Ladies I know I’m not the only one here that goes through this. I know some will not admit to it but it is part of life and the part I chose to talk about today. It is a necessity to release built up and piled on sexual tension. Such actions are frowned upon but it happens everyday by someone to keep from going out of their mind. I know I’m that person as well.

See I am in touch ( no pun intended) with all my lady part and I’m not afraid of showing myself a night of relaxation and self worth to keep my sanity. A free release equals a clear mind. You think better when your hormones aren’t raging against your thought process.

No it’s not perverted it’s just preventive measure to keep yourself from perversion. Perverts don’t care with who, where, how, nor with what; but people with a conscious of their surroundings, family, morals and values care about all that abs then some. Even though they need to release doesn’t mean anyone and everyone is privileged to their body, mind and enlightenment. It is a blessing and a privilege to know someone who wants to give you their all for a set timeframe.

It’s a battle everyone wants to win and lose at the same time. So before you start to judge this post, remember this someone has a sexual desire once in order to conceive you so don’t dislike the idea just let it flow and maybe it won’t be the only thing flowing.

So woman want what she wants and you is who she have chose to give it to her, understand it’s a privilege to be chosen to do so. Congratulations you are going to get your world rocked!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Destroying Your Community

Goddess morning Royals 😘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

It amazes me how people will destroy their own communities but have the audacity to go and fix someone’s community up! What the fuck are you thinking?

Real talk it’s like when people stick their noses in other people’s business when their shit isn’t right either. GTFOH!

Example: I hear people crying and whispering about drug boys in their communities all the time. They only come because you aren’t treating the neighborhood right anyway. If you care about your neighborhood, I mean really care about it there is no way they are moving in. Think about it. If they see you all keep it clean, no abandon houses, cars, or trash cans; the boys will not want to come into that neighborhood because they know you all aren’t going to play that. But if it’s dirty, loud, ran down homes aren’t being properly taken care of, then they will move right in and make it worst. They know the community doesn’t care because of the look of it. Especially, if the neighbors are always arguing and not pulled together, then that is the community they want to be in and run.

You make it easy for them to come in and hard for them to leave. Then you want the police to do something about it but what? You all didn’t do or haven’t done anything about it. You all are selfish and only think of self so they pick and choose who to respect in the community but that’s not how it works. It’s all or nothing either way the community as a whole falls victim.

As soon a the real violence happens then the lives loss, the deterioration happens and property value goes down and what you thought you had is no more. Next thing you know the bulldozers are on the way and what use to be a beautiful community is now a vacant lot; home for dead bodies and more junkies. there is no village without a stand and no community without people.

If they see you all working together then they will pull away because they know you aren’t going to allow the junkies in and they will have no business to run there. No junkies no drugs. It will dry up and they will move on.

A strong community is a village together.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddesLove

People are People

Goddess morning Royals 🌞. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I’m learning life most valuable lesson. “No matter what you do for people they will never appreciate it for it’s worth.” If they cannot appreciate the gesture there is no way they can appreciate the person. #Facts!!!

When they need the favor you are the world to them. You are Gods gift to mankind, you are the water to their thirst; but when the deed or favor is done, you are nothing! You disappear into the background like you never existed. Now we all know you didn’t do it for clout or recognition but out of love.

Then something happens and you are in need of a favor or deed but there is no one to call on or turn to. You feel alone, abandoned, shut out, cut off from the rest of the world; but you know that can’t be right. You know you have friends, family, associates that you have done plenty for so why can’t you get any help?

They aren’t your friends, family or associates; they are leeches. Parasites that crawl into your world when they need to feed or shall I say beg for what you have; what you can do for them; what you will do for them and then like magic they are gone. They leave like they were never there.

They turn their backs on you like you are the plague; like you are a disease they don’t want to catch. The best part is when they say, “You should have called me, I would have, could have…” What they fail to realize or maybe neglect is that you have evidence that you did reach out. Here comes the excuse, “Oh that day I was busy. I meant to call you or text you back but I forgot.” Right, that shit right there; only because right now in your presence they need you for something but aren’t sure of your mindset so they play along and butter you until you are just about greasy enough they can slide their #Bullshit into your lap.

“Look I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you, but I promise the next time I’m so there, all you have to do is reach out.” Then they hit you with their problem and sadly say “if you can it would mean a lot to me. I’ll never forget what you have done for me and my family. You are our savior and I mean that. If it wasn’t for you, I don’t know where we would be without you. But only if you can; if you can’t I’ll understand.” You have been buttered, marinated, and cooked by the time you are ready to go or be alone.

Being the big hearted person you are and not learned your lessons, you leaned a hand again only to realize you’re not really being appreciated. You will never be able to get the support you give in return. It’s just like the #Love you give will never be the love you get in return. What are you supposed to do? Choose what and who you do favors and deeds for because even family turns a blind eye when you are in need. Friends aren’t always friends. You may be their friend but they might not be yours. Yeah you all have been through somethings but think back and see if it was always you rescuing them and never the other way around. Then see where your friendship really stands. You have to stop being the escape goat for everyone.

Stop being their everything while they are their nothing!

By Kenya Denise Spann

Then you will know of happiness and self awareness. You will find people you can rely on in your time of need the same way they can rely on you. Don’t get so bitter in your quest for better friends that you become the people you are leaving behind. That isn’t the mission at all. The mission is to find people of your caliber who can do like you do and who is willing to be there even if you don’t ask.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Is Love Worth It or Are You Worthy Of It

Goddess morning Royals. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Love shouldn’t have to be an apology nor an excuse just an emotion to live with and carry to the end of your time. I heard that love runs it’s course but I don’t think so. I believe people use it that as an excuse to have sex with someone else, not even new. When the sex dries up; because the heart was never in it, then they want that old thing back. It wasn’t yours to begin with. The other person just invested their time in you and like the stock market and you crashed and burned. Trying to purchase all the good stock you could without looking into the company. The one stock you choose to sell,rose and increased in value, but there were no more stock from this company to purchase, now you dried out, poor, broke and lonely. Hoping, wishing, needing, and waiting for an opening.

I think you and that person will always have something special reason you all can’t really let one another go, but in the process others will get hurt behind your uncertainty. It’s either you all love and together or you all love others apart. But this dance is killing the both of you faster than you all want it to, only to be miserable without one another. You need to figure it out before it’s too late.

Somewhere, somehow, someone has to be the bigger person and know better than what the two of you are doing. Stress and love should not dance together for the simple fact one with over power the other. You hope for love but it won’t be it will definitely be stress! We all know stress didn’t come alone, it brings depression, unhappiness, fear, anxiety, false hope, false promises, lies, and uncertainty with it. So when love dances with stress and it dances with death. Is it worth it? Are you worthy of it? Death 💀!

Love shouldn’t have to be a complicated situation but a relief from loneliness, stress, headaches, heartache, suffering, and uncertainty, but hope for happiness, joy, healthiness, reliability, pleasantries, enjoyment, togetherness and blissful life. If applied to the right person it could mean everything beautiful life but with the wrong person it could mean exactly the opposite, death.

True love is worth your everything good but lust is worthy of your death!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Healing Element Event By TwinSoul Goddess

Be there and heal with the Goddess.

Sending you all love and kiss. #GoddessLove

The CDC and ACIP Meeting on COVID 19 Vaccination Deaths and Rare Blood Clots

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This Is The Powerful Sermon

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I usually don’t promote church but this sermon is the deliverance to the family. Pay attention and know your weight class ( your worth).

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

We’re Not Angry…We’re Less Tolerant of Bullshit

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Women of color or black women if you prefer aren’t anger, we’re just less tolerant of the bull shit that people try to put us through!

If you’re not going to play games with the people in our lives at home, friends nor family; then why in the world would we play or take crap from the people at the workplace? Somewhere along the line this has to make sense or this makes the accuser sound bitter and angry. Our ancestors had to tolerate a lot from their oppressors but we do not and we will not. We have evolve pass being treated like a dog just because of the color of our skin.

Women period have to clean, cook, raise the children, keep the family together, hold their tongue to the husbands, keep the peace in the family, bite their tongue to the boss and play nice with their co-workers all while continuing to be a lady if you will. Damn then the expectations come into play, keep your hair done, groom yourself very well, have good pussy or else no one wants you, keep your body fit, keep up your appearances and teach the children manner while maintaining your manners.

Yes we have to birth the next generation and raise them with great health, happiness, expectations… Educate them, learning them the family history. Making sure they get great grade while showing them how a woman supposed to be as well as how they should be treated or treat them. Yes we’re raising the sons as well. Their is no break in our motherhood, teenage years nor our childhood. We are strong that’s a fact but we’re not angry just less tolerant of people mess who doesn’t have anything to do with our existence.

Anger? No just fed up with how we are evaluated, perceived, supposed to behave, loved, played, talked to, sexed, treated and most of all paid. So if that’s what makes us angry then I guess you hit the nail on the head. Question is what are you will to do about it so we don’t appear angry.

Are you willing to share the stress, blame, responsibilities, etc., or will we continue to be everyone’s everything while man role is nothing?

Someone asked me question one time, “What do men really need women for besides birthing a child for them?” I told him to make him a complete man. Because having a child doesn’t make you a man. Having a job doesn’t make you a man. Having a car doesn’t make you a man. Having a home didn’t make you a man. Have a wo-man makes you a complete man with all your shit (ducks) in order. You just better be lucky if she sees fit to give you a child you undeserving prick! That mentality is why men think it is okay to kill, mistreat, violate, disrespect or disregard women but the whole time we stand by them protecting them from harm, praying for their souls, carrying their weight, believing in their dreams, holding their hands, cleaning up after their mess, covering their lies, give them alibis all while carrying their seed. You tell me who really needs who? We are the completion to their evolution! Without us they could never be whole and the oppressors figured that out long time ago, to bad they haven’t!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Educating Our Children About Our Past!

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I understand that educating, conversing, digging into history can be hard, especially if you are still forced to suffer through racism today. #Slavery is a subject that parent of color needs to be teaching their children at home everyday. Not just what the curriculum in school says but what the ancestors have told them in stories they heard all their lives

I understand it is a #hard subject to grasp, tackle, bring up but it has to be done. It has to be addressed to show the connection between slavery (being enslaved) and racism. We can’t keep leaving our children to figure this shit out on their own or just addressing one issue without the other. I read an article in the news, how teachers all across America is teaching your children about slavery, history, and racism. My suggestion to you if you don’t want your children socially, mentally, emotionally, and psychologically scarred for the rest of their life, take the lead on educating your children about the importance and truth of their history. Don’t leave it up to teachers to address the matter because in this article what I’ve read will do exactly that leave our children scared like our ancestors.

Knowing who you are and where you came from is important but mostly knowing what you will and will not tolerate is more important. Don’t send your child to a school thinking they are getting the best education and all they really getting is first hand racism, enslavement, disappointment and a hard lesson in failure. See they have money for you to sue them but that doesn’t stop the problem nor take away the damage that has been done nor bring any one back from the grave.

Stop trying to keep up when you should already be ahead. The problem is never going to go away so make your children aware of their past, present and future so they can do the same for the next generations to come. Empower them with the truth, knowledge and tools to make them better than what we expect this world to do.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove