Twelve

Good morning Royal 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Introduction
The life of Peter Jones was cut short because of a lie. Ashley Montes is a beautiful
young lady but only on the outside for on the inside she is a horrible person. A liar
if Peter Jones ever met one. She is going make life for everyone every difficult.
People life styles will change but their conscience will remain the same. They will remember
what they have done but dare to speak of it again.
he night that Peter Jones goes missing will be the night life changes for all in Baton
Rouge, Louisiana. They will have to live with a lie or die from it, either way their
lives and the lives of their family members will be different forever.
shley will pay the ultimate price for her mistake and lose everything she ever had for
one lie she couldn’t keep herself from telling and to the wrong people. She will not
only ruin her life but the lives of those who know her and her family.
eter will not allow her to ruin the life of the family that loves him and accepts him for
who he is. He will fight for what he believes is the right thing to do, even if that means
murder for revenge. He will rest when his deed is done and his spirit is at peace with
the lie that has be bestowed upon his name and soul.

Peter Jones’ Beginning
eter Jones is a small boy with a big heart. He loved playing with everyone but his
parents warned him that not everyone will want to play with him. They told him
that Louisiana had a different way of living then what he sees on the television. His
father expressed how different he was then those children with lighter and white skin.
Peter heard and listened to his father for his father knows best. Still Peter just wanted to
play and befriend everyone. He didn’t notice the difference in the children skin he wanted
to play with just that he wanted to have fun and enjoy being a child. Peter father was a
carpenter and everyday went to work for the same people he was warning Peter about.
Some days Peter even went to work with his father. They would go to some of the
most elegant homes. Homes that was so big that it would take them a while just to walk to
the door. Peter would ask his father why didn’t we just drive the car to the front door and
his father would tell him we aren’t allowed to park our car in this people driveways. Still
Peter thought it would have been smarter and easier just to have drove, but like always his
father knew best. Peter was learning how to do what his father was known best for in their
Parish. The people house they went to was smitten with Peter’s manners, charm and
cuteness. Some of the ladies would take Peter away from his father just to feed hm and
show him off to their guest. Peter father had a problem with that but he learned from his
father don’t talk back and to make sure he had an exit strategy whenever things didn’t feel
right within himself.
Time was moving fast and Peter was growing into a handy helper for his father. He
asked less question and paid more attention to what was going on around him. His father
had noticed the difference in Peter and wanted to know if anything had happened to make
him change his mind about wanting to play with the children. Peter told him that he was
just trying to grow up and learn to earn his way like his father do. This made his father very
happy but he didn’t want to take away his childhood either. So, every once in a while, he
would leave him with his mother to help around that house and have the opportunity to go
out and play with the children in the neighborhood.
Peter like helping both of his parents and learned a lot from them both. He was
learning how to cook and keep house if need be as well as how to build and repair a house
when he had to. Peter was almost 8 years of age his next birthday but he had already
learned a lot for such a child his age. He loved school and all that the teachers were
teaching him. He like being around children his age but didn’t understand why they had to
play separately. When he would ask the teacher, they would just tell him to mind his

manners and he would do so. Knowing that means that as a child he had stepped out of
place he would just go and sit down to collect himself. Peter never wanted to be in trouble
with anyone not even the teachers, because they wouldn’t let you do anything anymore and
wouldn’t call on you in class to participate. Summer was coming and Peter knew if he got
in trouble in school, he definitely wasn’t going to have a summer of fun.
One day while Peter was having recess he walked up to a white boy and asked him if
he wanted to play. The boy told him that he doesn’t play with darkies and Peter had no
idea what that meant so he asked again. Anger that Peter didn’t go away the boy turned
and called Peter a nigger as loud as he could, telling his to go away and leave him alone.
Peter was never called a nigger but somehow it hurt his feelings. As Peter stood there
trying to process what just happened, he lunged out and pushed the little boy down to the
ground. Before he could apologize for doing so the other little boys that was standing
there with him started to beat Peter up collectively. Peter yelled and screamed out for his
teacher but she didn’t come to his rescue. When the boys were done beating him up, she
came over and told him that he done something very bad and needed to go home.
The teacher then called his mother and told her what had happened at the school.
She also told him that the little boy Peter pushed was the son of a man who was friends
with the local sheriff. Peter’s mother knew exactly what that meant so she hung up the
phone and rushed to the school to get Peter. When she got there a deputy sheriff was
already there. Fearing the worst, she walked into the school with her head down while
praying softly that didn’t do anything to her son. She reached the principal office and Peter
was in handcuffs sitting with a bloody nose, scars and scratches on his body. She rushed to
his aide.
“Peter are you alright? They didn’t hurt you did they! Is anything broken on you,
are you in pain?”
Peter as frightened as he could be replied no. His mother then asked the deputy
was it necessary for her son to be in handcuffs and he told her yes. She asked why and he
told her that he was a violent offender. She looked at him in disbelief,
“No, not my son. He is the sweetest, kindest child in this parish, I promise you
that.”
She said as softly as she could without raising her voice to this very white deputy.
She knew that if she raised her voice her and her son would be going to jail. They could
afford to get Peter out so to get both of them out would be costly.

That very may be ma’am but that doesn’t excuse him of what he did. He pushed a
child down for using his words to him. He then started a riot in the school, disrupting the
entire recess.”
“I find that hard to believe sir, like I said he is quiet, sweet and very nonviolent. If
he pushed a child down, he must have been defending himself. I guarantee he is sorry and
would never do it again.” Peter’s mother pleaded with the deputy.
“Well, if he apologizes if guess everything will be alright.” The deputy replied.
Then he walked over to Peter and told him to apologize for his actions and then he
would be able to go home with his mother. Peter looked up and said,
’I am sorry for pushing my classmate but I did nothing wrong. He called me a bad
word and then the other boys started beating me up for no reason.”
The deputy told him to just apologize without an excuse or back talk. Peter did and
so he was free to go home with his mother. As they exited the school, Peter’s mother
looked back to see the looks on the deputy and teacher’s face was not inviting. She knew
that it meant trouble. She didn’t know when or where but she knew that what Peter done
would cause them trouble. This is Louisiana and no black child is going to push a white
child down without their being repercussions. She quickly got him in the car and told him
home.
When they got there, she called his father immediately to tell him what had
happened. He told the owner that he had a family emergency and that he would have to
finish the work tomorrow. The owner of the house told him that he would only pay him
for the one day and not a cent more. He agreed and rushed off to his family. When
Peter’s father arrived at the house, he told Peter’s mother to gather him a going away bag
and get him in the car. He then called his sister in New Orleans and told her of the
problem Peter had caused. She told him to bring Peter right away and she would look
after him for a while. Knowing she is ill; she didn’t mind protecting her nephew from the
danger that will be following. She then hung up the phone and went to get the room ready
for him to sleep in and rest up. It was going to be a long road ahead of them.
Even though the ride was only an hour away it felt like an eternity for them. They
were shipping off their only son and days before his eighth birthday. They promised him
that they would come back and get him for his birthday to celebrate

This is a sample of my up and coming book, Twelve.

Sending you all kisses and hugs. #GoddessLove #GoddezzKPublishing

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Saturday Sit Down with Lady K

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Today I want to touch on two subjects; one tax season and the ridiculous spending habits that comes with it and social media hype that brings about catfishing. I wanted to speak on these two subjects because I was asked to give my opinion on them.

I’m no expert on either matter but what I see and have witnessed on both is utterly ridiculous. The amount of energy vs the lack of intelligence is astonishing. We as people especially blacks have to do better when it comes to spending vs saving vs investing. We as people have the notion to spend but fail to see the importance of saving or budgeting never mind the investing aspect of finance. Keeping up with the latest fashion vs purchasing stock, bonds, or property scares the hell out of me for our future. With the way the economy is going in this day and time you would at least think a nest egg would be justifiable, but it’s not even a thought process. So where is all your hard earned money going? Well let’s see; you must have the latest Jordans which is the same as the retro Jordan’s you purchase a week ago. Not to mention those jeans that was $130 is now on sale for 30 dollars, I mean you could have waited. What about that new shirt you just saw Chris Brown in, think about it? CB have money to waste because you keep his pocket filled while you live paycheck to paycheck. I mean come on I like fashion just as much as the next but a budgeted outfit can look just as nice as an expensive one. Especially if you know how to bargain as well as dress, if not then we all know where your hard earned money went. Then when tax season hit, yeah I know that tax money hit different; you spend it like you hit the lottery. Hello, you worked all year to give your money to the government only to get a fraction of it back to spend it like it’s nothing. Where is the thought process in trying to remain broke or breaking the bank?

You have to live in a different mindset in order to acquire wealth more important to substantiate continuous wealth. If you hit the lottery once and five years later your broke then you got exactly what you wanted; the opportunity to say you use to have…but do that make sense? Where you are now if you have acquired stability it should shorten the idiotic dream of keeping up with the “Jones.” Remember they have old wealth you have blue collar paychecks, now is the time to think different to live different for sustainable financial freedom. Here’s what you should do and remember this is only my opinion. When tax season blesses you with your money, cause it is your money; even though only a fraction it’s still yours. You should have yearly bills. Let’s say you electric bill is 92 dollars months times that by 12 and pay $1104, so you are paid for year. This way even if you go over you know you don’t have to worry because you already paid. Same thing for your heating bill, water bill, cell phone bill, car insurance and note if possible. We all know that you might not be able to complete the rent/mortgage and maybe car note, but at least when you pay them it won’t be a struggle because the other bills are paid in full. Also if you get paid twice a month then split the rent/mortgage and car note accordingly. Half the first check the rest the second check just in case you splurge a little. This way you can start saving every check because you did the right thing during tax season. Next year you won’t even rush taxes because you are prepared for the year to come. I hope this helped!

Now social media…smh. What is there really say but I’m going to say it anyway? Unhappy people live better lives on social media than in real life! Hear me clearly, people who reinvent themselves to be more than what they are, aren’t happy with their life. They are dangerous, plain and simple. Those who change themselves for the likes of others aren’t comfortable in the body, mind, or soul the was given to them. They will catfish you into believing they take vacations, the have a nice body (thanks for filters), have a nice face as well as a great personality. They believe in the lies they tell themselves and will argue you to the end of their breath that who you see is who you get! When the truth hits it hits different and become harder to face and swallow, think on that!

Let’s get deeper shall we? By now everyone have seen the black-facing catfishing, correct? Need I say more! You want black beauty but have no idea what struggle we go through to maintain just beautiful. You can’t live black if your ancestors owned black people; that’s just fucking wrong! Just like those black peoples who is completely brainwashed into believe that if they whiten their skin somehow they aren’t black any longer or will be treated differently but aren’t. What in the whole fuck are you thinking? Knowing your worth solidify your history to make you work harder and smarter to a better future. Not knowing your worth makes you enslaved in your mind, body and soul; may you receive mercy! Stop trying to be someone or something you aren’t. I know it make you feel good but when the phone or electronic devices goes away and you have to look in the mirror the truth comes back stronger causing pain, hurt, mental anguish and turmoil. You hate more of yourself which could lead to delusions, destructive, hate for others, jealousy, even homicidal thoughts which leaves to detachment from reality. Plus you don’t give the other person on the receiving end a chance to know the real you only the deception you have lead them to believe was you.

Before you start lying again, try looking into the mirror and figuring out who is looking back! Be who you are so that you’ll know who you are! You can’t be Megan because Megan is Megan! You can’t be Cardi B because she is Cardi B. You can’t be Floyd, Bossie, Will, or Michael B Jordan; basic because they are themselves. The really tough questions are…why are you? What do you want for your life? Is impersonating or lying about being someone you’re not, going to help you be a better you? Where do your self-esteem real live within you? Who are you fooling? Asking yourself these questions before you question who you allowed in your circle or shall I say web of lies? If you can’t answer then willing or honestly then you need help finding out who you are and what do you contribute to your life? Not what do others bring into your life but what do you bring to your life? I would say it’s a simple answer but it’s never simple when you have to find you behind all the false advertisement you invented for yourself. Which leads to pain, murder, stalkers, rape retaliation and all sorts of fuckery that one wants, needs or deserves. Ladies this goes for most of you but for those who keeps it 💯 , thank you for staying true. Fellas don’t think you all aren’t doing the same thing and for the same reasons, clout, fame on your name, likes, and women to jump in your inbox, dm, messengers or whatever platform you are using. For my men who keep it 10 toes down, stay that way. It’s not a lot is solid people in this world anymore. Everyone wants fame but not all can handle what comes with it. Good luck and may the all High give you strength, understanding, and peace in your quest!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove #GoddezzKPublishing LLC

A New Chapter

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Starting a new chapter in one’s life can be scary. Everyone says step out on faith, easier said than done. Am I right? That fear of failure jumps right into play, even though you know you got the know how, education, understanding and fundamentals together, but somehow your nerves gets the best of you.

I wish I could tell you any different, but honestly I can’t. I walked that same line so many times; operating and managing my blog, my salon, my small cafe, and now with my publishing company and small clothing line. Fear rose in my throat and has not left but I do it at my leisure so I won’t feel overwhelmed. Each day I do a little here and there.

I might do hair for three hours and what I can fit in that window I do. Nails for two hours and write for about four hours. Then I cook to create a new dish as well as feed my family. They are my critics and give me the strength to carry on. Some days I can’t do anything because I suffer badly from chronic depression. That’s when I’m at my lowest but my family tries to break me out of it and I can see them trying but I’m not able to break from it, so I wait it out.

Just like that I’m back and my creativity is on fire so I get a lot done before it’s not a good time for me, again. I love being creative so I’m also trying to stay a 503c. The paperwork is exhausting but I’m motivated enough to get it going. I love helping other people with life’s journey. I only help where I can and allowed. I never force myself into others lives because I know my worth and where my boundaries are in all situations. My inner voice tells me to back off and believe me, I listen. I pick my battles because of my life’s mess.

I don’t rush in like a super hero. People have to come to me to be helped and actually want it. I don’t waste my resources and waste other’s time on those who don’t want to be helped. I don’t stress myself out about others problems because I do that enough with my own. Stress sends me right into shutdown mode and nothing gets done when I’m down.

So I’m this chapter of my life, I started GODDEZZ K PUBLISHING when I’m publishing my own material with the help of some hired help. I’m also going to be branching out to work with other artists and writers. So if you we me post other’s work, please support. I promote across a lot of social platforms so you might see it anywhere. Look for my new website, logo, newsletters and merchandise coming soon. I will continue my other chapters but not as much as the new ones. Yes, I still have that fear factor but I’m walking it down and with the help of all High I will be successful in this journey as well.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove. #GoddezzKPublishing new chapter

A Message to all my Readers

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Peace and Blessings

I send you love, courage, joy, and blessings for your soul, heart, and mind to grow, flourish, project, accomplish, understand, nourish, and replenish as you continue to build success and wealth in your journey to greatness this world will forever know about you.

#GoddessLove

GoddezzK Publishing

Freaky Friday

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Have you ever thought your past was just that and then boom 🤯 your mind is blown because it’s now your present? I mean you are living your past all over again but differently. Meaning who and what you left in the past is now staring you right in the face. You know you left it behind but somehow it had come full circle ⭕️ and bringing up what use to be.

Well spooky things have been happening to me on the road to exactly that! My past has come full circle and I’m looking at it as if it didn’t already happen. Current events have my mind boggled “like seriously though I know I did this shit already.” Then you sit back and wonder how and why now? What the hell is going on? Not to mention; feelings, where are they coming from? All of Sudden, you get some clarity but still a little foggy about the how and why? Forgetting that there is always other people involvement that explain the unexplained phenomenon, because their life has intertwined with yours. Somehow it is good but as it goes on you remember not so good to rekindle or harvest those old feelings.

So the encounter finally happens and there’s way more involvement than you want to remember or know. You try being cordial with everyone but deep inside you just want to explode but for the sake of your mental health you breathe, relax, try with a smile. Your insides and mind is everywhere on the issue and your tongue wants to say exactly what’s on your mind but others feelings are involved so maintain your composure. Well freaky Friday you have come full circle and bit me on the ass.

This time I’m going to allow the past to stay in the present only to satisfy another’s feelings, life, and love. Honestly, I will stay my distance and allow the past and my everlasting future their own space to grow, nourish, and get to know one another. For now I’m just the entity that brought history to life.

Just because it didn’t work out for you doesn’t mean it won’t work for others. You have to allow others to have there turn at life.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Accepting Your Role and Playing Your Part

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

So I’ve been conversing with several people and they admitted they want change but several of things haven’t accepted the idea of change. I have friends who always believe there’s good in everyone they meet but come to realize it isn’t.

Some know how to move on but others well they beat the dead horse hoping it jumps up and gallop to freedom. I tell them it’s dead what else is there after death? No one can answer because none have died and came back. Exactly, once it’s dead, end it and move on. I know easier said than done. It is better than wrecking your life and brain about it. There is nothing no one can do from the moment on but to let death be that; the end. Instead you keep trying in an relationship that’s never going to go anywhere just because you are afraid of being alone. You keep working in a dead end job with no line to promotions, increase in pay or credit for your work. You keep allowing yourself the same pity party and want everyone to attend. You keep doing the same thing that makes you miserable only because you are afraid to try new things or accept change. You want so much to do and live differently but afraid to step out of your old pattern. You have become accustomed to defeat, pity, self loathing, failure, and misery that you don’t know what happiness is anymore.

Admitting when you have taken on more than you can handle is excepting your change. Some people put it on themselves and then wonder why God is allowing all this stress when in fact it is you and not God. You have to learn to take responsibility for your own actions and not always think it is the High putting something out for you to achieve. Sometimes obstacles are put in your way by those you affiliate yourself with and not by God. Meaning you allow others to put their burdens on you and instead of telling them to work it out you take them on. That’s not accepting change that’s just stupidity on your behalf. Give them people back their problems and deal with your own issues. Stop trying to be the savior when you’re only the messenger. Know your position in others lives so you won’t be overwhelmed in yours. You’re not always the root; sometimes you are just a leaf sent to help that tree nourish. Is not up to you if they will or not. You aren’t supposed to pick this person up from the ground you are supposed to encourage them to get up and that’s it.

You will know the ones that you are supposed to go beyond for when it’s your turn to be the savior and no longer the messenger. See if you don’t know when to be what to whom then you overwhelm yourself and fail at it all. Not everything that’s broken need you to fix it and not everything that’s fix needs to be encouraged. Sometimes fixed people needs to be broken in order to know their worth and broken people needs to stay broken to find their strength to be whole again. Stop meddling where your not needed and ignoring where you are! It’s not your place to fix everyone you come encounter with because some just need a listen ear to hear them. If they already have the solution to their problems then allow them to solve it. Don’t jump in and make it about you when it isn’t. Say your peace and be done with it, whether encouraging or not just be done with it. Don’t start beating that dead horse you know isn’t going to move. If what you spoke was the truth and from the heart it will either get heard or fall on death ears either way you done your part.

Don’t beat yourself up when you see that person spiral out of control either because that maybe what they need to get themselves together. You aren’t in charge of their life nor their death. You don’t know their destiny so don’t interfere where you don’t belong. I’m not saying standby and watch anyone die but their death might be someone else’s wake up call. You can’t stop it all you can do is delay it at that moment but if death is their destiny then it will happen. Knowing your role will sustain your strength, love, life, mentality, mental health, and pain. Accepting your role will guide you to where you are needed to assist growth in the right person life.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

A Woman Trapped In Thought

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

The things she wants to do vs the things she must and the things that gets done. She is a ordinary woman nothing grand about her at all. She walks and talks like everyone else. She bath and put on clothes like everyone around her. The only thing that separates her from the rest is her thought process.

She knows all the things she wants to say but what she needs to say doesn’t get said but the things she say gets heard. She may not be a genius but she’s far from dumb. She can be harsh at time with the words she chooses to use but she can also be kind and spare your heart. She have an tendency to careless about your feelings. Sounds mean I know but at least she cared about your heart. Verbally, she has no holds barred when it comes to protecting her own feelings. She will do what she have to do to keep her feelings from getting involved as well as getting hurt. But she has a weakness, and it makes her vulnerable to a lot of things.

When her feelings get involved she breaks down all barriers and allows love to speak where her mind should. She gets lost in her thoughts and wonder how she ends up in situations she can’t recall getting into. She becomes trapped and everything that comes out of her mouth is spoken from the heart and not the mind. This is how people who aren’t a part of her tree become branches when they are only supposed to be leaves. Once her heart is involved it is hard to break a branch from her tree. So she deals until she gets to see that branch can’t grow leaves. It is dead and should be removed.

Once she come to her senses and cut the branch then she is able to regain focus and give you what you so deserve; a piece of her mind. Feeling nothing for you from that moment on! She also have a habit of having sex with someone mentally. If it turns out it wasn’t good in her mind then she will not have sex with you physically. Whether she’s interested in you or not. Sex will not be a discussion nor a factor in you all connection to one another. So if you are looking for a relationship you’ll get a associateship. If you make it to the friends zone which is rare that’s where it will remain unless she starts to to have feelings for you. Then and only then will it progress into something else.

Right now she lost in thought asking herself how can she post this about me but she have no control over what I do. Why? Because she loves me beyond anything in this world. She is me!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Getting into Love with a closed Heart 🙄

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I GET IT! I DO, I GET IT! You tried loved and your heart got broken. You still want love but aren’t sure if you can do it again and go back through heartache and pain. You shield yourself from love while trying to find it. Honestly, that isn’t right and is going to keep you from love. It’s like trying to look for something in the dark with your eyes closed. Doesn’t make sense right? Right!

But I get it, I swear I do! NO ONE WILL EVER PENETRATE YOUR HEART AGAIN ONLY TO BREAK IT AGAIN! Then I’m sorry to say your not looking for love; you’re looking for sympathy, empathy, and lust but not love. Sure everyone who had their hearts broken could use some sympathy, lots of empathy and a good fuck to get over the ex. Are you really getting over them or just getting through the idea of them.

I mean you can’t go looking for love with a closed heart and expect to find true love. First you’re not being true to yourself. A closed heart will find a lot of things but love isn’t one of them. I GET IT. Shield your heart until I see that the other person cares (not love) for you and then open your heart. See there lies the problem, you can’t want something that you aren’t will to give. Sorry you are going to just have to take that chance and lead with an open heart so that love can find you. I know you don’t want to get hurt but chances are you could be hurting yourself.

Faking a likeness to see if it’s love isn’t finding love is finding lies, hurt, mistrust, empathy, unhappiness, and lust. Well you’re still getting laid and that’s about it. Yeah you talk about your feeling and what your last relationship meant to you and how that person destroyed you but you aren’t listening to your heart which is telling you to shut up! If you already out to scare away prospects then you will end up telling that story to a lot of people who can either empathize with you but doesn’t want crazy already or those who could careless they just want the sex.

If sex leads the way to the heart then you will only have sex. Communication will be lost and so will the relationship then you’re right back where you started; broken hearted and hating life. Why is it that when our heart get broken the first thing out our mouths is how much we hate life? Life isn’t the one who did something to us. We did! First we hear everything with our hearts and not with our ears. Then we stop listening altogether and just hear what we want and but is being said. Leading to poor communication, lack of attention, uncertainty, and worst of all pain.

If you’re not listening then you’ll never know when you’re relationship ended and when that person walked out of your love, life, and happiness. All you will remember is that it was good to you, but never know how it was to the other person. You have to be conscientious about everything so you will know when something is gone wrong. If all you want is the idea of belonging in a relationship then that’s what you will get, the idea. Relationships and love take time, work, communication, give as well as take but most of all listening. You talk but you don’t listen and when you do hear you don’t comprehend because you aren’t listening.

So before you go out looking for love, know your worth; be ready to listen and communicate effectively. Know what you want and not what you see others with, because everything isn’t for everyone. All attention isn’t good attention with the best intentions. Stay positive but mostly open your mind, spirit and heart to new possibilities. The same way you don’t want to be hurt no one else wants to be broken-hearted either.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

A Curious Mind🤔

Goddess afternoon Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I wonder

Have ever watched a western? Of course you have! When the law men found what they were looking for but people (innocent bystanders) stood in their way and the say “We got the order to proceed as planned.” 🤔 Who gave the order and how did they receive it? If in fact there was no phones nor did you see a telegram being delivered! So did they have prior authorization to kill, slaughter and brutally murdered hundreds of people (Indians). If so, that’s premeditated murder of thousands maybe even millions of people but for what? I wonder

When you see people on their phones and they are loud enough for you to hear, do you ever wonder who are they talking to? I mean why is it that whatever needs to be said had to be heard by everyone in ear range? Is it because no one is really there or do they feel so unimportant that they need the attention? 🤔 Maybe it’s they feel lonely or threatened they need witnesses to their life to tell in case of their death.

Reality Television that’s scripted? 🤔😂 First you have to laugh to keep from crying that people life is so boring that they need drama to stay relevant! Who do they think they are fooling? We know it isn’t real and if it is😞🥺😢. Is that’s the reaction they are looking for to feel loved? Is America that bored for entertainment that they want people sympathy for fame? I guess they do because the only thing on tv is reality shows. Welcome to your pathetic life!

Is life so boring because of Covid no one cares about their life anymore except for Covid? Children are running rapid while others are coming up missing, exploited, sex trafficked, and others dead! Parents are making the most out of what life they have left that they aren’t parenting anymore. Excuse the fuck out of the rest of us! Get your fucking family in order and take responsibility for your actions as well as those of your children. You know the government doesn’t give a damn if they did your ass would be locked the fuck up along with your children. Or better yet you need to give a fuck so you’ll know where your children are and not ask America to help locate them or to go-fund- me because preventive measures have tragically torn your family in half. Ripping at the very fabric of your family existence because you were doing you and not your parenting duties. 🤯

I’m just curious because well that’s who I am! Stay safe, healthy and woke!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Recreate You for You

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I hear a lot of people say they need to change for the better. Then change for people in their lives who don’t care to see a change. Let me clarify: they change the outside (their appearance) but remain the same inward until others personify their existence. Then they change inward but not for the best. That hill they climb to self righteousness isn’t the same slope they slide down mentally.

As their egos are manifest into the monster no one wants to be around, their mental capacity to live within this monster isn’t the same. A conscious person or should I say a person with a conscience cannot live with themselves if their ego is bigger than their mindset. Meaning if others built their confidence and stroked their ego doesn’t mean mentally this person was ready for the consequences. They just loved the attention. As we all know all attention isn’t good attention with good intentions.

Now we have a person who is beyond their mental capacity and is spiraling out of control. They will have a mental break which either can put them where they know they belong psychologically or break them mental and leave them psychotic. Psychologically they could go back to their normal state of mind or they can mental alter reality forcing them into a state of delusions, psychotic imprisonment, uncontrollable rage and even suicide.

When it comes to recreating yourself, start where you see a problem not what you are less of yourself compared to another. Just because he or she looks like they got their shit together doesn’t mean they do. Just because they have a nice body doesn’t mean mentally they are in their right state of mind. Change what you need not what others want. In the end you are the one who have to deal with those changes because others can simply walk away from you no matter how you look on the outside. You can look the part but can’t perform the part and that’s where most start to spiral out. They got the role of a lifetime but can’t play their part and even if another isn’t replacing you; mentally you will think so and only the All High knows what you will do then.

Rather we choose to believe it or not we do witness it everyday, whether it’s within our family or within a celebrity lifestyle. Not everyone can handle change and not all should change especially if it is for all the wrong reason or people. You have to love who you are both inside and outside if not can you honestly say you love yourself. I think not. Stay true to you before you can be true to another.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Business As Usual 2022

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Fresh into 2022, and yes there’s murders already. Homicide case ink haven’t dried from last year before business as usual. This cliché “ I must get them before they get me!” Bull shit has to stop because no one is out to get you if you’re not out there doing shit to others or affiliating yourself with those who are. I know people have died or was murdered because of what another has done directly or indirectly to another. The saying … is a lie!

What you eat doesn’t make me shit!

Unknown

Most deaths are indirectly the result of someone else’s doing, at least in Bodymore they are. Baltimore is famous for being called Bodymore or Bloodymore just like it’s famous for it’s harbor, Orioles and Ravens; not to mention the Black in Wax. Yes it is equally famous for its murder rate isn’t that crazy. The same thing that put Baltimore in the limelight measures out to the same thing that makes Baltimore a scary place to visit. Yet, they still visit despite the murder rate. It seems to be the attraction for people.

Baltimore story lines isn’t enough or news that’s viewed world wide, people still wants to experience it up close and personal. I don’t and will never understand the fascination with death. Me personally love and is fascinated by life. Even though “The Wire”, “Homicide”, and “The Corner” give perspective into the danger and life within Baltimore, people still travel to see if it’s true or not. For some they get what they bargained for but for others they get to live it or shall I say unexpectedly experience it and well they are the ones returned to their loved ones in body bags.

I’m not going to say stay out of Baltimore because there are some greatness to Baltimore but I say proceed with caution when entering. The idea is visiting is exciting as you have entered but with a clear understanding where you belong. If not welcome to Bloodymore or Bodymore, Murderland you’re death wish away from home. This jungle isn’t like other jungles even though there is murders happening everywhere. I can only speak for this place because this is where I reside. These inhabitants are not the same as everywhere else nor do they live the same. I can’t put them down without putting myself down so I won’t but I will say they can smell outsiders and their fear. Come to visit leave to survive, it’s just that simple.

http://chamspage.blogspot.com/2021/01/2021-baltimore-city-homicides-list.html?m=1

Before 
Before you think about taking a life. Think about this man’s family not once but twice. Just think before you do what you’re about to do. Put yourself in this man shoes! Before you pull that trigger. Just think what would you do if you were this man’s mother, brother, sister or father. Before he hit the ground, remember for your children or family you can no longer be around. You are now on the run. Missing out on your family’s growth, worth, and life. All because you didn’t think twice. Scared to be a man, afraid to throw them hands, not sure how to make that stance. Played yourself instead of taking a loss. Had to go and get a gun to show you are the boss. But you’re not, you’re a coward. Couldn’t take that ass whipping and learn how to fight back. Now all do is look over your shoulder and watch your back. Took that man from his loved ones. All because you couldn’t fight so you grabbed a gun. Now you the one! Target in your back, ducking and dodging bullets. Always looking paranoid and stupid, thinking you could have done something different. Before you killed that man, maybe you should have squashed it. Thought about it and just shook that man hand. 
Maybe next time. What next time you already did the crime?! Now do the time, either way life or death, because there is nothing left. Before it got this far, you could have walked away and both could have survived to see another day, because there’s always a better way.

Everyone claims maturity but no one shows it. If you stay in grown folks business then you develop grown folk status. If you brag, boast, and flash your business like a child; jealous, thirsty and hungry disrespectful mother fuckers are going to come for you and all you have. You have to move different when you are successful. You have to give back without needing the spotlight or glory to do so. It’s only when you advertise you are better than others do they know to come after you for what you have. Other than that they see you and keep it moving. You don’t have to hide yourself success just don’t flash it or you bring unwarranted attention that you neither want nor deserve.

Find peace within yourself so you are proud of who you are and what you have accomplished. like Biggie said

You’re nobody til somebody kills you! I don’t wanna die.

Biggie Smalls

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Thankful Notes for Thanksgiving

Goddess morning Royals. First, give praise and worship to the all High.

I am truly thankful for my sanity.

Shante

Ok…I am thankful for my sanity

Sterling

I am so thank to have beautiful, smart woman like you as a friend.

D.C.

Good morning gorgeous, I am thankful you are in my life.

LeRoy

First, i am thankful for another day above ground. Second, always for family. Even tho we don’t get to spend time with each other like we should but I love all of yall no matter what. We all that we have at the end of the day…Juurrrheard

Rodney

I am thankful for life to live through what I have and still be able to carry on. Amazing and inspiring as a family we are growing slowly but the love is there.

Me

I am thankful for my life, my family, and friends and my relationship with God

Kevin

I am thankful for me 🙂

Bri

Add a quote for something you are are thankful for 2021.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

The United States Homicide for 2019

www.cdc.gov/nchs/pressroom/sosmap/homicide_mortality/homicide.htm

It’s a travesty that people just cannot get along in the same breath. The humanity is lost and the inhumanity is insane. There is no love left!! EVERYONE IS SELFISH AND LOOKING TO GET SOMETHING OUT OF THE NEED TO HELP! The ALL HIGH is not sure of the people. 

https://ucr.fbi.gov/crime-in-the-u.s/2019/crime-in-the-u.s.-2019/topic-pages/tables/table-6

Before you start to bad mouth Baltimore on what you have been hearing check your state to ensure you can. I know there’s somethings we have here that needs to fix to make right but that’s all across this country. “THE LAND OF THE FREE!” What a joke?

Everywhere have problems but I believe there is a way for healing and recovery for this country! Let’s find it together so we can live comfortable with one another.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Unfair Act and terrorism on Trinidad 🇹🇹 Sea

www.instagram.com/tv/CSbwwLqDCFc/

Where are the help for the massive oil spill in the Trinidad sea? They are in desperate need of help and support. Share this video so they can receive the necessary help and begin recovery.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Sexually Active Women and Their Prey 🤔

Goddess afternoon Royals 👏. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Does the female sex drive deplete after 40 or does it increase?

Wondering

Well for this woman it has increased, but I’m quickly learning not for all women. I am 48 years of age and I can honestly admit that I want to more now than I did as a younger woman. My drive is hungry and the feed is slim to none. Does that frustrate me? A little so I concentrate on other things to prevent from wanting it so much. Let me tell you it doesn’t always work. Some days I want it all day and others just enough to get me through the day, but everyday is a must.

Now do I get it like that? No trust if I didn’t I would enjoy every moment of it but unfortunately for me I cannot bring myself to unfamiliar partners. So, I suffer in silence while anger creeps up in my space, forcing it’s way out into hurtful words.

I do self please but it only do so far. Ladies I know I’m not the only one here that goes through this. I know some will not admit to it but it is part of life and the part I chose to talk about today. It is a necessity to release built up and piled on sexual tension. Such actions are frowned upon but it happens everyday by someone to keep from going out of their mind. I know I’m that person as well.

See I am in touch ( no pun intended) with all my lady part and I’m not afraid of showing myself a night of relaxation and self worth to keep my sanity. A free release equals a clear mind. You think better when your hormones aren’t raging against your thought process.

No it’s not perverted it’s just preventive measure to keep yourself from perversion. Perverts don’t care with who, where, how, nor with what; but people with a conscious of their surroundings, family, morals and values care about all that abs then some. Even though they need to release doesn’t mean anyone and everyone is privileged to their body, mind and enlightenment. It is a blessing and a privilege to know someone who wants to give you their all for a set timeframe.

It’s a battle everyone wants to win and lose at the same time. So before you start to judge this post, remember this someone has a sexual desire once in order to conceive you so don’t dislike the idea just let it flow and maybe it won’t be the only thing flowing.

So woman want what she wants and you is who she have chose to give it to her, understand it’s a privilege to be chosen to do so. Congratulations you are going to get your world rocked!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Destroying Your Community

Goddess morning Royals 😘. First give praise and worship to the all High.

It amazes me how people will destroy their own communities but have the audacity to go and fix someone’s community up! What the fuck are you thinking?

Real talk it’s like when people stick their noses in other people’s business when their shit isn’t right either. GTFOH!

Example: I hear people crying and whispering about drug boys in their communities all the time. They only come because you aren’t treating the neighborhood right anyway. If you care about your neighborhood, I mean really care about it there is no way they are moving in. Think about it. If they see you all keep it clean, no abandon houses, cars, or trash cans; the boys will not want to come into that neighborhood because they know you all aren’t going to play that. But if it’s dirty, loud, ran down homes aren’t being properly taken care of, then they will move right in and make it worst. They know the community doesn’t care because of the look of it. Especially, if the neighbors are always arguing and not pulled together, then that is the community they want to be in and run.

You make it easy for them to come in and hard for them to leave. Then you want the police to do something about it but what? You all didn’t do or haven’t done anything about it. You all are selfish and only think of self so they pick and choose who to respect in the community but that’s not how it works. It’s all or nothing either way the community as a whole falls victim.

As soon a the real violence happens then the lives loss, the deterioration happens and property value goes down and what you thought you had is no more. Next thing you know the bulldozers are on the way and what use to be a beautiful community is now a vacant lot; home for dead bodies and more junkies. there is no village without a stand and no community without people.

If they see you all working together then they will pull away because they know you aren’t going to allow the junkies in and they will have no business to run there. No junkies no drugs. It will dry up and they will move on.

A strong community is a village together.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddesLove

People are People

Goddess morning Royals 🌞. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I’m learning life most valuable lesson. “No matter what you do for people they will never appreciate it for it’s worth.” If they cannot appreciate the gesture there is no way they can appreciate the person. #Facts!!!

When they need the favor you are the world to them. You are Gods gift to mankind, you are the water to their thirst; but when the deed or favor is done, you are nothing! You disappear into the background like you never existed. Now we all know you didn’t do it for clout or recognition but out of love.

Then something happens and you are in need of a favor or deed but there is no one to call on or turn to. You feel alone, abandoned, shut out, cut off from the rest of the world; but you know that can’t be right. You know you have friends, family, associates that you have done plenty for so why can’t you get any help?

They aren’t your friends, family or associates; they are leeches. Parasites that crawl into your world when they need to feed or shall I say beg for what you have; what you can do for them; what you will do for them and then like magic they are gone. They leave like they were never there.

They turn their backs on you like you are the plague; like you are a disease they don’t want to catch. The best part is when they say, “You should have called me, I would have, could have…” What they fail to realize or maybe neglect is that you have evidence that you did reach out. Here comes the excuse, “Oh that day I was busy. I meant to call you or text you back but I forgot.” Right, that shit right there; only because right now in your presence they need you for something but aren’t sure of your mindset so they play along and butter you until you are just about greasy enough they can slide their #Bullshit into your lap.

“Look I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you, but I promise the next time I’m so there, all you have to do is reach out.” Then they hit you with their problem and sadly say “if you can it would mean a lot to me. I’ll never forget what you have done for me and my family. You are our savior and I mean that. If it wasn’t for you, I don’t know where we would be without you. But only if you can; if you can’t I’ll understand.” You have been buttered, marinated, and cooked by the time you are ready to go or be alone.

Being the big hearted person you are and not learned your lessons, you leaned a hand again only to realize you’re not really being appreciated. You will never be able to get the support you give in return. It’s just like the #Love you give will never be the love you get in return. What are you supposed to do? Choose what and who you do favors and deeds for because even family turns a blind eye when you are in need. Friends aren’t always friends. You may be their friend but they might not be yours. Yeah you all have been through somethings but think back and see if it was always you rescuing them and never the other way around. Then see where your friendship really stands. You have to stop being the escape goat for everyone.

Stop being their everything while they are their nothing!

By Kenya Denise Spann

Then you will know of happiness and self awareness. You will find people you can rely on in your time of need the same way they can rely on you. Don’t get so bitter in your quest for better friends that you become the people you are leaving behind. That isn’t the mission at all. The mission is to find people of your caliber who can do like you do and who is willing to be there even if you don’t ask.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove

Is Love Worth It or Are You Worthy Of It

Goddess morning Royals. First give praise and worship to the all High.

Love shouldn’t have to be an apology nor an excuse just an emotion to live with and carry to the end of your time. I heard that love runs it’s course but I don’t think so. I believe people use it that as an excuse to have sex with someone else, not even new. When the sex dries up; because the heart was never in it, then they want that old thing back. It wasn’t yours to begin with. The other person just invested their time in you and like the stock market and you crashed and burned. Trying to purchase all the good stock you could without looking into the company. The one stock you choose to sell,rose and increased in value, but there were no more stock from this company to purchase, now you dried out, poor, broke and lonely. Hoping, wishing, needing, and waiting for an opening.

I think you and that person will always have something special reason you all can’t really let one another go, but in the process others will get hurt behind your uncertainty. It’s either you all love and together or you all love others apart. But this dance is killing the both of you faster than you all want it to, only to be miserable without one another. You need to figure it out before it’s too late.

Somewhere, somehow, someone has to be the bigger person and know better than what the two of you are doing. Stress and love should not dance together for the simple fact one with over power the other. You hope for love but it won’t be it will definitely be stress! We all know stress didn’t come alone, it brings depression, unhappiness, fear, anxiety, false hope, false promises, lies, and uncertainty with it. So when love dances with stress and it dances with death. Is it worth it? Are you worthy of it? Death 💀!

Love shouldn’t have to be a complicated situation but a relief from loneliness, stress, headaches, heartache, suffering, and uncertainty, but hope for happiness, joy, healthiness, reliability, pleasantries, enjoyment, togetherness and blissful life. If applied to the right person it could mean everything beautiful life but with the wrong person it could mean exactly the opposite, death.

True love is worth your everything good but lust is worthy of your death!

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove