1 Corinthians 15:1-58 KJV

Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the gospel which I preached unto you, which also ye have received, and wherein ye stand; By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain. For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures: And that he was seen of Cephas, then of the twelve: After that, he was seen of above five hundred brethren at once; of whom the greater part remain unto this present, but some are fallen asleep. After that, he was seen of James; then of all the apostles. And last of all he was seen of me also, as of one born out of due time. For I am the least of the apostles, that am not meet to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God. But by the grace of God I am what I am: and his grace which was bestowed upon me was not in vain; but I laboured more abundantly than they all: yet not I, but the grace of God which was with me. Therefore whether it were I or they, so we preach, and so ye believed. Now if Christ be preached that he rose from the dead, how say some among you that there is no resurrection of the dead? But if there be no resurrection of the dead, then is Christ not risen: And if Christ be not risen, then is our preaching vain, and your faith is also vain. Yea, and we are found false witnesses of God; because we have testified of God that he raised up Christ: whom he raised not up, if so be that the dead rise not. For if the dead rise not, then is not Christ raised: And if Christ be not raised, your faith is vain; ye are yet in your sins. Then they also which are fallen asleep in Christ are perished. If in this life only we have hope in Christ, we are of all men most miserable. But now is Christ risen from the dead, and become the firstfruits of them that slept. For since by man came death, by man came also the resurrection of the dead. For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive. But every man in his own order: Christ the firstfruits; afterward they that are Christ’s at his coming. Then cometh the end, when he shall have delivered up the kingdom to God, even the Father; when he shall have put down all rule and all authority and power. For he must reign, till he hath put all enemies under his feet. The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death. For he hath put all things under his feet. But when he saith all things are put under him, it is manifest that he is excepted which did put all things under him. And when all things shall be subdued unto him, then shall the Son also himself be subject unto him that put all things under him, that God may be all in all. Else what shall they do which are baptized for the dead, if the dead rise not at all? why are they then baptized for the dead? And why stand we in jeopardy every hour? I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily. If after the manner of men I have fought with beasts at Ephesus, what advantageth it me, if the dead rise not? let us eat and drink; for to morrow we die. Be not deceived: evil communications corrupt good manners. Awake to righteousness, and sin not; for some have not the knowledge of God: I speak this to your shame. But some man will say, How are the dead raised up? and with what body do they come? Thou fool, that which thou sowest is not quickened, except it die: And that which thou sowest, thou sowest not that body that shall be, but bare grain, it may chance of wheat, or of some other grain:  But God giveth it a body as it hath pleased him, and to every seed his own body. All flesh is not the same flesh: but there is one kind of flesh of men, another flesh of beasts, another of fishes, and another of birds. There are also celestial bodies, and bodies terrestrial: but the glory of the celestial is one, and the glory of the terrestrial is another. There is one glory of the sun, and another glory of the moon, and another glory of the stars: for one star differeth from another star in glory. So also is the resurrection of the dead. It is sown in corruption; it is raised in incorruption: It is sown in dishonour; it is raised in glory: it is sown in weakness; it is raised in power: It is sown a natural body; it is raised a spiritual body. There is a natural body, and there is a spiritual body. And so it is written, The first man Adam was made a living soul; the last Adam was made a quickening spirit. Howbeit that was not first which is spiritual, but that which is natural; and afterward that which is spiritual. The first man is of the earth, earthy: the second man is the Lord from heaven. As is the earthy, such are they also that are earthy: and as is the heavenly, such are they also that are heavenly. And as we have borne the image of the earthy, we shall also bear the image of the heavenly. Now this I say, brethren, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; neither doth corruption inherit incorruption. Behold, I shew you a mystery; We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. For this corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immortality. So when this corruptible shall have put on incorruption, and this mortal shall have put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory. O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.


Acts 4:1-37 KJV

And as they spake unto the people, the priests, and the captain of the temple, and the Sadducees, came upon them, Being grieved that they taught the people, and preached through Jesus the resurrection from the dead. And they laid hands on them, and put them in hold unto the next day: for it was now eventide. Howbeit many of them which heard the word believed; and the number of the men was about five thousand. And it came to pass on the morrow, that their rulers, and elders, and scribes, And Annas the high priest, and Caiaphas, and John, and Alexander, and as many as were of the kindred of the high priest, were gathered together at Jerusalem. And when they had set them in the midst, they asked, By what power, or by what name, have ye done this? Then Peter, filled with the Holy Ghost, said unto them, Ye rulers of the people, and elders of Israel, If we this day be examined of the good deed done to the impotent man, by what means he is made whole; Be it known unto you all, and to all the people of Israel, that by the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, whom ye crucified, whom God raised from the dead, even by him doth this man stand here before you whole. This is the stone which was set at nought of you builders, which is become the head of the corner. Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved. Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were unlearned and ignorant men, they marvelled; and they took knowledge of them, that they had been with Jesus. And beholding the man which was healed standing with them, they could say nothing against it. But when they had commanded them to go aside out of the council, they conferred among themselves, Saying, What shall we do to these men? for that indeed a notable miracle hath been done by them is manifest to all them that dwell in Jerusalem; and we cannot deny it.  But that it spread no further among the people, let us straitly threaten them, that they speak henceforth to no man in this name. And they called them, and commanded them not to speak at all nor teach in the name of Jesus. But Peter and John answered and said unto them, Whether it be right in the sight of God to hearken unto you more than unto God, judge ye. For we cannot but speak the things which we have seen and heard. So when they had further threatened them, they let them go, finding nothing how they might punish them, because of the people: for all men glorified God for that which was done. For the man was above forty years old, on whom this miracle of healing was shewed. And being let go, they went to their own company, and reported all that the chief priests and elders had said unto them. And when they heard that, they lifted up their voice to God with one accord, and said, Lord, thou art God, which hast made heaven, and earth, and the sea, and all that in them is: Who by the mouth of thy servant David hast said, Why did the heathen rage, and the people imagine vain things? The kings of the earth stood up, and the rulers were gathered together against the Lord, and against his Christ. For of a truth against thy holy child Jesus, whom thou hast anointed, both Herod, and Pontius Pilate, with the Gentiles, and the people of Israel, were gathered together, For to do whatsoever thy hand and thy counsel determined before to be done. And now, Lord, behold their threatenings: and grant unto thy servants, that with all boldness they may speak thy word, By stretching forth thine hand to heal; and that signs and wonders may be done by the name of thy holy child Jesus. And when they had prayed, the place was shaken where they were assembled together; and they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and they spake the word of God with boldness. And the multitude of them that believed were of one heart and of one soul: neither said any of them that ought of the things which he possessed was his own; but they had all things common. And with great power gave the apostles witness of the resurrection of the Lord Jesus: and great grace was upon them all. Neither was there any among them that lacked: for as many as were possessors of lands or houses sold them, and brought the prices of the things that were sold, And laid them down at the apostles’ feet: and distribution was made unto every man according as he had need. And Joses, who by the apostles was surnamed Barnabas, (which is, being interpreted, The son of consolation,) a Levite, and of the country of Cyprus, Having land, sold it, and brought the money, and laid it at the apostles’ feet.


Acts 12:1-25 KJV

Now about that time Herod the king stretched forth his hands to vex certain of the church. And he killed James the brother of John with the sword. And because he saw it pleased the Jews, he proceeded further to take Peter also. (Then were the days of unleavened bread.) And when he had apprehended him, he put him in prison, and delivered him to four quaternions of soldiers to keep him; intending after Easter to bring him forth to the people. Peter therefore was kept in prison: but prayer was made without ceasing of the church unto God for him. And when Herod would have brought him forth, the same night Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains: and the keepers before the door kept the prison. And, behold, the angel of the Lord came upon him, and a light shined in the prison: and he smote Peter on the side, and raised him up, saying, Arise up quickly. And his chains fell off from his hands. And the angel said unto him, Gird thyself, and bind on thy sandals. And so he did. And he saith unto him, Cast thy garment about thee, and follow me. And he went out, and followed him; and wist not that it was true which was done by the angel; but thought he saw a vision. When they were past the first and the second ward, they came unto the iron gate that leadeth unto the city; which opened to them of his own accord: and they went out, and passed on through one street; and forthwith the angel departed from him. And when Peter was come to himself, he said, Now I know of a surety, that the Lord hath sent his angel, and hath delivered me out of the hand of Herod, and from all the expectation of the people of the Jews. And when he had considered the thing, he came to the house of Mary the mother of John, whose surname was Mark; where many were gathered together praying. And as Peter knocked at the door of the gate, a damsel came to hearken, named Rhoda. And when she knew Peter’s voice, she opened not the gate for gladness, but ran in, and told how Peter stood before the gate. And they said unto her, Thou art mad. But she constantly affirmed that it was even so. Then said they, It is his angel. But Peter continued knocking: and when they had opened the door, and saw him, they were astonished. But he, beckoning unto them with the hand to hold their peace, declared unto them how the Lord had brought him out of the prison. And he said, Go shew these things unto James, and to the brethren. And he departed, and went into another place. Now as soon as it was day, there was no small stir among the soldiers, what was become of Peter. And when Herod had sought for him, and found him not, he examined the keepers, and commanded that they should be put to death. And he went down from Judæa to Cæsarea, and there abode. And Herod was highly displeased with them of Tyre and Sidon: but they came with one accord to him, and, having made Blastus the king’s chamberlain their friend, desired peace; because their country was nourished by the king’s country. And upon a set day Herod, arrayed in royal apparel, sat upon his throne, and made an oration unto them. And the people gave a shout, saying, It is the voice of a god, and not of a man. And immediately the angel of the Lord smote him, because he gave not God the glory: and he was eaten of worms, and gave up the ghost. But the word of God grew and multiplied. And Barnabas and Saul returned from Jerusalem, when they had fulfilled their ministry, and took with them John, whose surname was Mark.

Missing You

I love you without a shadow of a doubt. Im missing you so much right now. I only want to see you, hear you, touch you & hold you. I dream about what our lives would be like if you were still here with me. Our son asks question of why & I can’t answer him. All I can say is God needed him for a job & he couldn’t say no. I try not to have him think so much of the people who murdered you but of the fact that you are gone. God truly have an angel with him even though you made mistakes here in the end you knew you were wrong & repented your sins. So he has accepted an angel & im missing one. I will never say goodbye because I know you are here with us forever. But I will say rest in eternal peace with our Father until the day we can be together again. Love you infinite.


So this has been on my mind for sometime now! The government as well as the whole system is designed to fail all people. The Constitution is a contradiction in itself. It is design to give you false hope & then rob you of your rights, unless you can manipulate it to your satisfaction of course. Example:
Why is it that you can drop out of school at the age of sixteen but not considered grown until you are eighteen & allow to go to the war & kill but aren’t allowed to drink until the age of twenty-one?

Ok so I’m grown enough to drop out of school & my parents cannot force me back to school if I choose not to go,but they have to take care of me until I am eighteen. In which the service (U.S. Government) say I can go out & kill “enemies” but I am not responsible enough to drink until I am twenty-one. Literally how much sense does that make? Why would you even think in that state of mind to allow them to have that much control or power over your life?

Why the constitution says you have the right to bare arms but have to get a permit & approval to get a gun?

You don’t have the right to protect yourself in your own home unless someone gives you permission to do so. If its a constitutional amendment then why you need permission from someone else to protect yourself. Then when you get permission it is only for your home so on the streets your exactly a sitting duck. I do however understand that it is enough violence on the streets & enough guns as well but it is the innocent that is murdered everyday because of the lack of police protection.
Side Note:
“With the recent events taking place in the news in the case of Trayvon Martin being murdered for no reason or just because he was black.”

I am so sadden by all the recent events going on in this world! The lack of respect for humans life, the burning of others beliefs, the under protection of the people paid to protect us, the growing rate of unemployment, & the lack of health care for people.

Why is the world going to hell in a hand basket fast & in a hurry with no room for improvement. Get it together people & look at what life hand has dealt you. If its not what you thought or anticipated it to be then do something about it now before its too late. Remember this you only get one life to live & if you don’t have anything to show for it then you haven’t lived this life you were given.


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Maryland Law

Same Sex Marriage (SSM) has been enter into Law as of February 2012 and that’s great but Self Defense Law has yet to be properly introduced into law. Governor O’Malley thinks by enter same sex marriage into law that he has secured voters for his somehow plan to become President of the United States. Sorry this just doesn’t work for me. Maryland laws sucks flat out! I am not a woman against (SSM) but I am a woman who is against the unfair practice of the self defense law in Maryland.
Well here is a concept for you to ponder why don’t you: You and you significant other is walking downtown harbor and a stranger walks by no need for panic nothing occurs but then any stranger walks by still nothing takes place. Then all of a sudden the two guys that walk pass is now beating the crap out of your significant other. They think you two are helpless but your not. You start to fight back and one of the guys ends up dead. Well here is how it works in Maryland, you are your significant other is being arrested and charged with 1st degree murder. Why? Because Maryland so call self defense law only protect you if you are in your home or place of business and someone comes in there and attacks you, not if you are on the streets. So I ask you where is Maryland praise to Governor O’Malley now? Doesn’t seem to be any!
Why is it that as citizens of the fair & just State, we can marry who we want but cannot defend them? So as far as I am concerned Maryland will never get crime off the streets because the streets are more protected than the citizens!
Ponder on that for a minute, ok now this: Okay you are shot on the streets of Baltimore but you have a registered gun & fires back. The person who shot you dies or is in serious conditions. He decides he is going to sue you and want you to do jail time. Well he is the bad part about that is you are going to be sue & yes you are going to do jail time. Why? Because like I said the streets are more protected than you are. You were suppose to suffer the blow & dial 911 so that the person who shot you could go to jail and lawyer up then be back on the streets while you suffer damages. Here’s the plus you can sue him though for damages but if he doesn’t have anything or money then you are wasting your time.
Now here is where I come in, I have started rewriting Maryland’s so called Self Defense law so that Marylanders can have a fighting chance in this unfair State of ours.  It is a injustice when the only thing law makers are concern about is numbers & not the people who place their asses there. But is is amazing how much they care when running for office.  We the people as a whole need to standup & press forward for the things we need & believe in that will better our streets for ourselves & our children.
“Quote” If a man doesn’t stand for something he will fall for anything!”
Well I say that a man that just stand & doesn’t move forward is just standing. It isn’t enough to just standup anymore moving forward is a must or your voice losses sound & your stand losses ground. We as citizens all over this world has to learn to voice ourselves & stop letting fake, money hungry, lying, deceitful, cheating, back stabbing politicians speak for us because they aren’t saying what they people are saying they are saying what other dictators are saying.
The land of the free my ass! The land of the imprisoned is more like it!
We are no more free here in the United States then those in other countries.


If your significant other can find a reason why they love you then they love you for a reason and with conditions but if they can find no reason then they love you genuinely and without conditions. I rather be loved genuinely then because…!

Surviving 2012

God bless to all that made it to 2012 despite all the nay sayers. I don’t believe in all when the world is going to end but nevertheless it is going to expire well at least life anyway. However, this planet of “ours” have survived for billions of years but those who dwell upon it hasn’t so if nothing more make those who say 2012 is our end a liar. Learn from all the mistakes of the past and make the present and future different. Mankind has killed, destroyed, and suffered long enough and still we are nowhere as better human beings, just out technology has advanced but our thinking, living, survival instincts, love, hearts, productivity, possessions, will, drive, beliefs, and judgements remains the same. If we could do better and its in our power to do better than why don’t we? Because it is our selfishness that prevails over our love that is greatly instilled in us. We believe we should receive for whatever service or act we provide or commit, but life doesn’t always work like that or in our favor, at least that what we believe, because it doesn’t happent right then and there. But God does without devine favoring and we are created in his image so why can’t we as God’s people (children) do the same. We I challenge myself this year to be more than I ever been because he has done no wrong to me or by me. When I call him or needed him he was there even when I didn’t call or thought I could handle things on my own he was there. So now its time to restore faith in mankind not only for my sake but for Jesus sake because if not then Jesus died for nothing and I very much cannot handle that idea! I believe in my God and his ability to restore goodwill, hope, love, and faith in all so we will live to see our grandchildren’s children growup and get married. So we can be the elderly with wisdom to pass down to them. But that cannot happen if the only thing on our mind is parties, playtime, selfishness, revenge, hate, destruction, war, money, power or greed.
So in order to survive 2012 and be more than what you are we need to love, care, honor, trust, beleive, respect and help more than just ourselves, because we never know when we will be on the

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Ok so God gave everyone to the family in which they were to have. Why do the people complain about the hand they were dealt. If he wanted life to be easy he wouldn’t have allowed Adam and Eve to eat from the forbidden tree, but he did. I think it was a test to see how obedient they real were to him, but we all know how that turned out now don’t we. This was his way of giving us options of right and wrong, in which most cases wrong look sweeter and more promising than right even though we know better, we still choose the wrong path. Then he gives us a second chance to get it right and most of us refuse to get it right and choose the same path all over again. We have a tendency to be very unsure of ourselves at times when needed but too confident in ourselves when its not needed. Remember the truth needs no support or justification when told accurately.
So when dealing with your love ones remember they are the people God intended for you to be with otherwise he would have given you another family. God doesn’t make glib decisions or choices nor mistakes. He give us the life we have for a reason and the people we share it with because we are to learn and evolve from the lessons and life at hand not criticize and destroy them. If we learn one lesson or even something positively life changing from the lesson or from those around us then we are evolving and that make him happy.
But as humanbeings we are entitle to make mistakes but learn from it and live with it; not try justify it or live in it. In order to make it with the family we were so graciously given evolve with them and not from them because we are all one big family. Love yourself; those who love you and even those who don’t because no one is perfect in this life but the creator. I love you all!
So no matter how much right they do or how much wrong they do remember this they are your family so deal with them, teach them, love them,  tolerate them, guide them, encourage them, pray for them, enjoy them while it last because you never know when its your last or theirs. Family……?

Truth of the Soul

I live in a world all on my own, looking out into the heart and soul of the earth.
Trying to figure out where did mankind go wrong, but coming up empty.
Everyday another body slayed by the hands of man or shall I say a coward.
How can someone love life but respect one else’s but want or demand respect for theirs.
God is the creator and the destroyer so why is the devil playing games with your mind, because you are a weak soul unable to think for yourself or recognize when you’re being played as a sucker.
Stupid as I have done as stupid as I have become.
Dare to be me to show myself I can do!
To my own soul I have become untrue.
I lie to get the truth of another, I have drown out my sister and turn my back on my brother.
I asked for nothing but requested everyone to live I have peace.
Whiles facing hell, I wanted heaven.
Embracing danger I looked for salvation, a place to go to redeem my spirit after causing so much pain and suffering.
Idolizing fear, but desiring hope for I knew deep within I could do better than I am.
Blessing negativity and working positivity out of my life only to indulge in more negative behavior.
Influencing damn nation and worshiping dishonesty for all.
Watching horror grow within me not caring what happens to me.
This is my past and present state of mind.
Also my present and future state of mind is in for a change.
Getting into step with life, realizing I only live once and not twice.
Doing thing different, learning new directions, implementing love where I’m needed.
Earning my way while counting my blessings.
Caring and cherishing others wishes and feeling of life.
Uplift ideas and understandings of people intertwining in my life.
Growing into another women not different but better!
This is the Truth of the Soul!  

Teaching Love


Is it possible to teach someone how to love you?

I’m not talk about making love to you, but how to truly love you! I pose this question because so many of us try so hard to make the person we are in love with love us the same. Mentally, physically, socially, sexually, and in every aspect of the word, but without complete knowledge of the basics of love. We believe that since we love a certain way that the person we are with should love either equally or more, but in reality we’re not sure if they love at all. Then the wheels of hope, lust, determination, compromise, and despair kicks in, trying to convince ourself of this person love but not knowing the level of love we have for ourselves. To truly be happy we adjust our love for ourselves to suit the love we have for another. Creating certain animosity towards people and even within. Growing angry with life on a daily basis but not knowing the only person to blame is oneself. We tend to look at others in different light or awkwardly because self preservation is up in arms and we as humans refuse to start within with problems and concerns but rather point the finger instead.
So I pose the question again; is it possible to teach someone how to love you?

Remember this in order to give or receive complete and untainted love you must first unconditionally love yourself and only then will you be able to answer this question or receive the love you deserve!

Prayer Request


Lord I come before you with troubling hearts of worry for love ones; friends of love ones; and so many more. We are in need of your mercy Lord for our love one’s suffer. Only you knows their pain we just know of our love for them because we have become accustom to their presence and their hearts. But you Lord you know so much more, you know what right for them we only know what we aren’t ready to accept and that death. So even though my prayer is for the sick, weary, and shut in, its for those who hearts will ache in their absence. I ask Lord that in you movement because you never move wrong you reach out and touch the hearts of those who are aching from worry for those love ones lost, gone home, bare holding on, and just getting started w/life. I ask that you cover the family and friends in the blood of Jesus and help them to remember you pain as well. Help them to understand you suffered a great lost as well and that their lost is no lesser than your but you will/walk w/them in their time of need. Not all will cross over some will make a recovery because it maybe their storm but not their time. So help weather the pain of all who is of your loving, merciful, wonderful, anointed powers and bless their hearts and spirits. Guide their footsteps, mind, body and soul away from selfish thoughts and ignorance. Place them in a better mind frame and space so they too can understand your direction. In Jesus name I pray, hear my prayer request, Amen!

Economic Hardship

We as Americans are facing hard times as a whole but individually you can say your situation is different. That’s understandable considering no two families live alike or think alike nor received the same income. But as the head of the household we must learn how to adjust our spending habits, eating habits, waste habits, as well as living habits to the custom of our finances. The government adjust our needs for us when they aren’t sure what our needs are. They have a poverty chart that tells us how much a household size is suppose to make in order to not live in poverty according to an expert, but once again not all live, eat, and think the same so that chart is truly inaccurate. No one know your live status or life style but you so you are the one that needs to adjust or accommodate your life to suite your needs. Remember prices are going up but increase of living in your pay isn’t. Most of us have to hold down two jobs just to make ends meet. So readjusting our life styles is to most a task w/in itself but for others its common sense. So if the government is your shoulder to lean on remember just lean don’t let it become your support blanket because you will fall victim to its side effects; lazy, content with depression, associate it with permanent income and not temporary income. Allow yourself to become economically financial again instead of entertaining economic hardship.

So if your trade or talent is one that can bring you income then turn that into your

business! Not matter what it is; cooking, cleaning, doing hair, doing nails, fixing up houses, or whatever the case

maybe then that is where your income should come from and don’t worry about all the other people in the world that can do the same thing just remember they might not doing as great a job as you


So the next time the government says no you say yes!

Oh How Good the Lord has Been to Me!

Psalm 13:1-6 KJV

How long wilt thou forget me, O Lord? for ever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me? Consider and hear me, O Lord my God: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death; Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved. But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto the Lord, because he hath dealt bountifully with me.

Oh He woke me up this morning and gave me strength to realize I didn’t need to hold on to the past to make the future look bright! He brought me from hurt and pain to comfort and understanding! He touched each and every last child of mine and allowed them to breathe another day, to live another day, to rejoice another day! I couldn’t ask for more, but he saw within Himself to give me more! He made a way when I thought I was at my end and He continue to bless me as we speak because the spirit in me is allowing me to share with you all. Oh you have no idea what He can do and what He has done for me and my family and we are and always will be eternally grateful to Him and for Him. We praise him all day and all night. We are even thankful when we think we should have and He doesn’t allow us to have, because we understand it is not ours or our season to have. Oh thank you Lord God for everything, in Jesus name, Amen! 


This is personal for me, because I thought I would never get over my ex!

I’m in a better place after long prayers and endless nights of crying from heartache. I can finally say I have closure so I can move on w/my life. I didn’t think it would ever happen and it was keeping me from future endeavors and relationships. Worrying about what the ex was doing and who it was with, now I have clarity. I can see my future w/my husband and know that nothing can tare us apart or down. I wasn’t holding out for my ex just holding on to the love we shared, but not realizing it was done and gone. Friends, yes we can be that but I had to ask for friendship from the Lord because just saying wasn’t enough, I had to live it and believe in it. I was lost w/in myself for so long that I thought ridiculously I had to be in this person’s presence to be seen not knowing I had left a strong enough mark on them already wherein they were hurting for attention just as much as I was. Today, I can say strongly, firmly and with conviction say that I am in a better place, state of mind, and spiritual setting that encountering them will be no heartache and pain. So I say thank you first to my Lord and Savior for allowing me the chance to experience both love, and heartache, but most of all recovery from it. Secondly to you for the good and bad times, love, and pain but most of all time and opportunity of knowing and loving you. But at last our time has past and I am now on a new journey to be a loving, caring, devoted, faithful, loyal wife and expect nothing less in return. Love you take care old friend! Best wishes in your future endeavors as well, until our path cross again but not as lover but as friends, enjoy!


Friendship can only mean a much as the friend holding the relationship at value!

If your morals and values are low or pointless so is the friendship! You can value anything in life if you have no real value within yourself. Understand that your opinions are just that if the y carry no weight or point then why verbalize them to any conversation or matter concerning others. Friendships should hold merit to everyone not just the one with love and honor but to the one who comes up short. This way no one come up short in a real friendship.
If I can give 100% then you should be able to match that in every aspect of the word friendship!

I hold my friendship as well as my relationship in the greatest of standards but not the same standards. However, my friends are there forever; my relationship is not a guarantee! Men and women are going to come and go I begin your life but once you claim true friendship it is always and forever.

Children of the Lord

Psalm 139:1-24 KJV

O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee. Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men. For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain. Do not I hate them, O Lord, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee? I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.