Hatred such a ugly word, but one often heard.
Is it possible to hate what you have created?
Pregnancy over masturbation; sex or abstinent.
Reality hits hard when a struggle becomes desire.
Your worst fear becomes your world.
Failure is what your dreams are about and success is your nightmares.
Hating the world for your lost but loving on one for your gain.
Embracing heartache and pain.
closing out happiness and love.
Hated by all and loved by one.
Dare to be real and want to be fake.
Hatred lyes deep down inside until you allow it to live on the surface.
Walk around everyday with a frown on your face.
Sitting in corners with a room full of people, hoping no one wants to meet not talk to you.
Never wishing for happiness on depression.
Distancing yourself from the world but never get far.
Feeling closed off and not accepted.
Lying to yourself about your feelings, wanting to cause pain but not sure where or how.
Hating yourself because of uncertainty, but devoted to confusion.

If it doesn’t stop now and change for the best you could end up in the darkest hole by yourself for real. Then you’ll see pain, frustration, anguish, desperation, and dysfunction like you never saw or felt before in life.   


You did it and you know you did. Look at you, this shit is fucking with my head.
Looking around but you have no friends. Need someone to confide in, to confess your sins.
Boast and brag all day about what you done. Trying to convince yourself that you are number one.
You’re lying its all over your face. You’re nothing, just trash taking up space!
You’re still God’s child isn’t that a waste! The fast life had to go get yourself a taste!
Now you’re running around trying to find a lawyer because you caught this case.
Murderer! Murderer!
Judgement day is coming soon. In prison about to get married and you’re not the groom.
Call home to see if someone can get you out. Put up the house, I got you without a doubt.
Dad says not let him rot in jail! Time to think with pain and suffering will do him well!
No we are not putting up the bail! Feeling bad because the money ship has sailed.
Wishing you never done what you did. Put two shots in that kids head.
But its too late because shorty is dead. Death penalty is what the jury said.
Now you’re pleading for your life, just like shorty did!
Murderer! Murderer!

God gives life! Who are you to take it away? Now you played God for the life you took. God said no man shall be judged by another. For he is the creator. What he giveth he shall taketh. So he gave you life and now he take it away. What goeth shall cometh!

Remember you might be above the law but not above God!

Sexual Desires


The best way to get over an ex is to get under a new!

Manic Monday Questions:

1. Your significant other request you to do the freakiest, nastiest, sexual act possible would you do it? Y or N and what are your limitations?
2. Is it right to fulfill your significant other’s most most wildest sexual fantasy? Y or N and why?
3. Is he gay because he allowed you to stick your finger in his butt or because he requested it?
4. Is she turned out because she like the threesome with the other woman or was she always bi-sexual?
5. Would you strip for your significant other on video?
6. Would you have sex with your significant other on video?
7. Are you the better or is your significant other better in the sack?
8. How sexually advanced are you and your skills?
9. Who submits first you or them?
10. Is masturbation the highlight of your sexual pleasure or are you sexually fulfilled?
11. Does size really matter? Y or N Why?
12. Do you prefer head or actual intercourse?
13. Do you have sex or make love?
14. Is it better when you are angry or when you are calm?
15. Can she really handle what you are giving her or does she fake it?
16. Do you really enjoy sex or love making with your significant other?
17. Do you fantasize about someone else while you are with them sexually or otherwise?
18. Rate your significant other: (1) worst ever (2) bum (3) okay (4) fair (5) good (6) can improve (7) alright (8) damn (9) awesome (10) best I ever had!
19. Rate yourself: (1) it is what it is (2) you already (3) okay (4) fair (5) could be better (6) I rock (7) skills are off the chain (8) best at it all (9) bed rock (10) I would love to be able to have sex with myself. I am fucking awesome. Skills are universal!
20. If you could change one thing about your sex life what would it be?

Sex with the Ex

I know that sex with the ex sounds good because you are already familiar with each other but that can be a downside to it all.
First remember why he or she is your ex! Maybe because they wasn’t attentive to your needs, or were cheating on you, or abusive, a criminal, lazy, thief, liar, good for nothing, or whatever the case may be it is one to remember. Now I’m not saying it was all bad but it couldn’t’ve been all good or they would not be ex.
Secondly, if that all you want is sex then that not good and your self-esteem is low. You should be worth more than sex with someone who didn’t care enough to work it out with you when you all was together! So why set yourself up for more hurt? Because you aren’t really over them and the love you have for them will be substituted for sex, just as long as you can be near them. But what happens when sex is over then he or she is gone and you feel bad or even worst used? But you set yourself up for failure by trying to participate in an activity beyond your capabilities.
You weren’t able to handle such a situation but still you chose to do so. Now let’s what happens when the shoe is on the other foot. When the ex is so much in love or obsessed that they want to have sex with you to be in your presence! This can be just as bad because if your in another relationship and the ex is so willing to do what it takes to be back with you they can make themselves think they have change into the person that you need or is the right person for you. They haven’t grasp the concept of the word ex. So they are into reinventing their way of thinking trying to change your mind into believing your are making the wrong decision! Again unable to grasp the concept of ex. You have to be firm and stand in your convictions with people because if not you find yourself making the same mistakes over again. Life have a way of repeating itself so if your not careful those ideas they planted in your head starts to look real and feel real when its just your ex playing games with your mind. The worst mistake you can ever make is to go back and have sex with this person! All types of diseases can occur or even worst a unloved child can be produced that will further hurt the situation. What if neither wants the child then both shall suffer from either having it or the after effects of an abortion. All I say is think before making your life a living hell! If you do decide to get involve then remember you make your life complicated not others.
But if you trust in yourself you will find your life is just fined without that person.  

Snitching Issues

We as parents need to be most concern when our children doesn’t want to be considered a snitch. But let evaluate the no snitching or no telling rule.
Your child has been rape by a close friend, family member, or boyfriend. But she dare to tell you because she hear you saying no snitching! Wow now your child’s life is so fucked up because not only did she not tell but she has contracted a disease or is pregnant but you are so out of touch with reality all you hear is, Ma or Dad I’m pregnant!
Ok again you son witnessed the attack on his sister but he too cannot say because, well once again there is a no snitching rule in your house because you honor the streets no than your own family. So what do he do he takes it upon himself to help his sister out and kills this person. You are so dumb you say your child went hard but he cannot tell you why he has done what he has done. All you know is he has done it.  Now he’s in jail for life for taking a life when it all could have been avoided had you just been a parent and not a coward. You have literally lost two children to the streets and in life because there is no snitching.
Your daughter and son turns on you and wishes harm comes you way. But can you blame them there was no one there for them when they need you. They are hurting so they believe in their heart of hearts that you are the enemy not the streets.
Where in life does any parent allow such a thing to happen then they themselves are dysfunctional and is in need of some serious help. Lord help the child who is living in such ruins and dysfunction as such!
In my house tell everything because I want to know everything. I refuse to have a family scared to live because of predictors, cowards, drug dealers, boys, girls, bully’s, junkies, addicts, rapist, molesters, or anyone else. If they have done something and you know its wrong tell me I’ll snitch for you because your mother is your protector and God is hers.
Another case

your family member (child, mother, father, sister, brother, grandparent) was just murdered by a random person but people on the block knows who done it. You want to know but no one is telling because they refuse to snitch. Your family is hurting suffering. You hear that the lady around the way knows who done it, you go to her but she’s not saying a word.
The no snitching rule doesn’t make much sense now to you because you really needs some help with catching the person responsible.
Your family member has been adducted and there is witnesses bu they honor the code of the street, no snitching! You plead with them but no one is saying!
Tell me what sense does it make for you to have to suffer if you don’t have to. Please think carefully before you honor such dumb, stupid codes! Someone’s life could be hanging in the balance. Just imagine if the shoes or situations was yours, what would you want to happen or would do?

God’s People

The world has been on killing sprees since the beginning of time, but lately its been even more senseless!
God gave Eve a gift to birth the world which means all woman would have this ability or so it seems. God gave Adam tasks to father the children of the world, husband his wife, love his children, and take care of home.
Then the children of the world got out of hand and God flooded the world killing everyone except for Noah and his family, which are Adam and Eve most obedient child or children. Once Noah did as commanded, God seen fit for him and his family to continue to birth the world. So life and procreation goes on with a promise from God never to flood the world again.
Well as it turns out God’s people is back to being out of control; with senseless violence on their own families, on each other, on strangers, and more. Crime is up and morals and values is down.
The bible teaches us morals and values, directions, respect, love, cherish, but also has taught us violence and how not to end up.
We know if you choose the wrong path in which to follow death isn’t far behind. So why would you want to end someone else’s life knowing tragic will strike your family?
It never said that you yourself would be the one to suffer it just said death would follow! Why is it that someone else pays for your crime, your mistake, your wrong? Then have the audacity to get upset with God, when he already said what you put out in the universe will come back times ten!
So where is it written or even right for one person to take the life of another person? Judge not unless ye be judged! Do unto others as you shall have them do unto you! Give respect and it shall be given back! Kill and ye shall be killed! We hunt and kill to eat but murder is just that murder!
God’s people, we need to get it together because our days of reckoning is coming wherein we will be judge by one and carried by six. So who will be the first to say enough is enough? I will! No more violence, name calling, disrespect, lies, hatred, racism, destruction, or murder in my life. From now on I only want love, respect, peace, joy, happiness, constructiveness, truth, prosperity in my world, life, and home.
For I know there will always be violence in mankind because we’re not perfect but enough is really enough!
It is so bad our kids have no boundaries, no hope for the future. They are not being taught how to live, they’re being taught how to survive, but if living isn’t surviving what is it! People act like this world was made to bottle them up and swallow them. The world cannot be their oyster if they are afraid of living that the only thing they must do is survive. In this world today the sky is no longer the limit it isn’t even reachable.
Pay attention people for we are destroying our own lives, no one has to do it for you any longer. You will hang yourself because of your ignorance, hatred to mankind, your disrespect for life, your self righteous morals and unvalued ways.
Believe in one thing if your believe in nothing else; you are your own enemy, but God still loves you!
Learn what history has taught you so it can stop repeating itself and start a new

No Support


I have came to the realization that most people will not support good positive issues, events, and situations that will enhance careers, the environment, or enrich the quality of life. But they will support crime, hatred, dysfunctional behavior, rumors, and lies because it drawls attention from others.

Why must God’s people act so out of character?

Well let’s evaluate the situation! Most people are unsure of how to deal with life unless there is chaos involved. We as people were suppose to evolve; our technology is but our mindset isn’t. Let’s see there is no right without there being wrong. Without in there is no out. Without light there could be no dark, without day there’s no night. Without good there’s no bad, there could be no hot without cold, no sinners without saints. Understanding how the world works will lead to better behavior and management of this world. So honestly without the man there could be no woman and without God there would be no devil or any of the odds to the evens in this world.

Sexual conflict


I am in touch with myself all the way around and can identify with who I am. For some people that is a battle within itself. Life as they want it is a conflict of interest but not to him or herself but to others around them. Most people who live double lives are only trying to protect another’s feelings. Then there are people who live in secrecy to protect their lives and the lives of their love ones.
It is never fair for someone to have to live their live in the dark because society is unacceptable to who and how they want to live. The more society fights it the harder they push to live their secret life. Then when they are ready to live life as they think they should the bible comes into play. Honestly the bible should come into play because even that life style is in the bible. It may not be looked upon as right but nevertheless its there.
Contradicting as it is it is spoken in the bible. Just like it is a constitutional amendment #9 right to be gay. No one can stop you from being gay, bi-sexual, lesbian, or any other sexual origin you want to be, they just have to learn to accept you as a human being. Because at the end of the day you are still going to be whoever you wan to be and the only being you will need to justify yourself to is God almighty.
So live life as you should or as you desire as long as its not hurting anyone or causing anyone else physical harm, do you!