Growing Pains

Goddess morning Royals 👑. First give praise and worship to the all High.

I have learned that no matter how much you want people in your life to change to better themselves, it will never happen. I’m going to say that again, IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. People are creatures of habit. If the habit is that of bad will, bad intentions, bad characters then that who they are.

Mistakes can be forgiven just like bad judgements, but consistency is practiced. Anyone who makes the same mistakes or bad judgments has practice how to be who they are. They see no other way to be different even if it bring pain to themselves or others. It’s has become they nature and they only can survive or live by their nature.

Once you become their crutch or enabler then you have become a creature of habit as well. Their pains are now your pains. Their excuses; you are now using to justify their behavior. You have no idea you are doing it because it has become your habit.

Here’s where the pain begins, when their bad will, fucked up character and bad intentions becomes your way of living. Meaning you wait or anticipate the disastrous moment so you can feel good about being able to rescue them from disaster, themselves, or because it’s now your high. I mean you get high off rescuing them from whatever meds they seem to get themselves into.

You find pleasure in getting the calls even though you pretend like you don’t. In a way it makes you feel like you have a purpose in someone’s life. You realize that you have power over someone and mean to keep it no matter the cause.

You thrive on the need to be wanted and needed that you escape from whatever disaster or shortcomings you have only to focus on someone’s feelings, failures, habits, and health. You never see your health deteriorating because you have become a creature of habit growing into poor health, stupidity and strong doubtful uncontrollable will to fix others problems. Ignoring family, work, and life just to be able to say you helped; your tried to fix; you did all you could do!

Does any of it matters considering you have no one to turn to in your time of need? Who’s there for you note that you are in need of a persons like you? Who can you trust with your life; health; wealth; happiness; friendship; and joy to make what you think is the best decisions for you based on your lifestyle? Who? Who?

No one because you have alienated everyone besides the person who gives a shit about their own life so why should their give a shit about yours. Now you’re in your feelings and hate the world for what? You did this! You green into this pain of self loathing, self doubt, self destruction, and self pity only to live alone or maybe die alone.

Stop being the person everyone can turn to only to have them turn their backs when needed. Allow people enough space to go through what the all High has for them to go through. Stop trying to interfere with Gods plan.

Sending you all love and kisses. #GoddessLove #GoddezzKPublishing

Published by missk22

I am a free spirit! Speak my mind a lot. Published author! Business & Psychology major! AA in Healthcare Administration; BBA in Accounting/Finance. Working on my masters in Psychology. Mother, hairstylist, nail technician and so much more.

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